Chapter 1

Getting Over Him

It had been two weeks since Kurt had re-auditioned and was accepted into NYADA. His performance at the Winter Showcase was outstanding; he even put Rachel to tears. Madame Carmen Tibideaux had surprised him with the unexpected slot and he had known that was just how she wanted it. He had gone into that performance quite nervous because he wasn't prepared and had absolutely none of his usual props, which he usually used in all his performances. However, Kurt had realized that's what she was looking for and gave it all he had.

It was now a week before Christmas and he was looking forward to spending the holidays with Rachel in their Brooklyn, New York apartment. Both had refused to go back home to Ohio to spend it with their families and friends. It wasn't that they didn't love them; it was just that they hadn't felt at home the last time they returned and didn't want to feel the pain anymore. Not only that, but Kurt was under the impression that both his father and Carole were heading out of state for a family Christmas party.

The night was growing late and the two of them were just enjoying each other's company, however, Rachel had looked up from reading her book and noticed Kurt was looking very down. Not moving from where she was, she sat and watched him as he seemed to go deeper and deeper into thought, looking like he was about to cry. She still sat where she was and started to think to herself. "I haven't seen him like this since before Thanksgiving, I thought Kurt and Blaine had made up. Though it's not like I really asked him how he had felt about their current relationship. I have no idea if they remained friends, if they fought over the phone, or if they talked about wanting to get back together." Rachel was however going to get to the bottom of it if it was the last thing she did. Kurt finally realized his best friend staring at him like he was some television show and was kind of annoyed.

"Can I help you with something?" Kurt said looking at Rachel, quite annoyed with her staring. He looked down again and went back into his deep thinking. "I really want to call Blaine; I did tell him we were going to see each other for Christmas. I really wish Rach would stop staring at me, it's uncomfortable… I'm not a television show."

"I just happened to look up and saw you deep in thought, you look quite depressed and hurt, that's not really wrong?" Rachel replied, trying to stay calm at Kurt's snarky response. She was only trying to help her best friend by taking notice that he was clearly upset.

"I seriously haven't seen you like this since Blaine told you about him cheating. I'm starting to get a little worried Kurt." she continued to tell him, she was trying to be as straight with him as possible without letting him get overly defensive and protective about his personal life. Kurt was a hard person to talk to when it came to his life especially his personal life; he spent so much of his life in a box that it was now hard for him to share things with others, even close friends and family. Kurt looked back up at Rachel; she could see he was in pain. However, she wanted him to come to her.

"I'm sorry for snapping at you, I I'm just a little irritated and confused." Kurt said stuttering at the last part. He looked at Rachel his eyes were red and puffy, and was ready to cry.

"Kurt, what's the matter? I haven't seen you like this in a long time." She replied back to him, concern written on her face.

"I'm just going through a lot, I-I've lost my boyfriend, I'm going to be starting late at a new school, I'm confused on how I feel about my boyfriend… well I guess now ex-boyfriend. On top of it I'm spending Christmas with only one person." Kurt had stated trying to say everything all at once, he had started to cry at the realization that Blaine wasn't by his side anymore. He was a mess and Rachel didn't know really know how to help him. She was getting over Finn, but was in the middle of seeing another guy as well. Rachel didn't know how to contemplate just as much as Kurt, they were both a mess.

All of a sudden there was a knock at the door, Kurt looked at Rachel and scowled figuring it was Brody and he wasn't in the mood for company. "What?" Rachel had answered with her eyes and shrugged as Kurt got up to open the door.

"Surprise!" Burt yelled once he heard the door slide open and turned himself to the side trying to pop his head around the huge Christmas tree he was holding.

"Dad!" Kurt screeched and jumped in to hug his father; he was shocked and completely thrilled to see his dad in the doorway, completely blocking the entrance to their Brooklyn apartment.

"Are you going to just stand there and hug me or allow me into your apartment?" Burt jokingly said to his son who had a death hug on him in the doorway of his and Rachel's apartment shock and joy still on his face.

"Huh, Oh yeah yeah, come in come in… sorry" he said apologetically, as he tried to unwrap his arms from his father, but his cashmere sweatshirt got caught in the tree and he was stuck. Kurt hadn't even realized that he didn't invite his dad in yet because he was so surprised and overjoyed.

"Are you going to let go and let me in?" Burt said again now a little annoyed by his son. Kurt was trying to get himself out of the tree and didn't hear his father at all; Rachel stood by the couch and started to giggle which Kurt heard.

"So not funny Rach, would you help me please?" she walked over to him and started to help even though Kurt had been annoyed with the fact that she giggled at him. Burt hadn't even heard Kurt say that he was stuck.

"KURT, What the heck are you doing?" Burt said very stern and loud, Kurt stopped for a moment and realized his dad was getting frustrated with standing out in the hall still not able to go in the apartment.

"I'm stuck dad, I guess I should've waited for you to put the tree down to hug you." He laughed; he couldn't believe he was stuck in a Christmas tree. He was still shocked and surprised he thought his dad was out of Ohio with Carole at one of her family members Christmas parties.

Finally being released from the tree thanks to Rachel's help he backed off of his father and immediately started speaking like a broken record.

"What are you doing here? I thought you and Carole were spending Christmas with Carole's family." Kurt asked his father speaking rather quickly. Helping his dad put the tree down. "I hope you didn't leave her just to see me, you should be with Carole for Christmas. It's special and romantic for you guys. Besides we…"Kurt was interrupted by his father.

"Whoa, Whoa Kurt slow down… I came to see my son in his new New York apartment. I wanted to spend some time with you and I already had talked to Carole about it, she's fine." Burt replied to his son heading towards the small brunette haired girl whom was standing back over next to the couch, she was waiting anxiously to say something to Burt, but Kurt was speaking a mile a minute.

"Hey Rachel!" he said giving her a hug, Burt was like a third father to Rachel and she very much enjoyed his company back at home when she spent time at Kurt and Finn's house. She smiled and hugged him back concern was written on her face. Burt had quickly realized this as soon as he let her go. Figuring it had to do something with Kurt he decided to ask his son for some tea because it was a long flight for him.

"Kurt, would you mind making me some tea please? This old man needs to sit and relax." Burt said to him; taking a seat on the couch patting the seat next to him for Rachel. Kurt without hesitation walked into the kitchen area of their apartment and started grabbing what he needed.

"So Rachel what's on your mind?" he asked her pointing to Kurt and putting his other finger on his lips to make sure she didn't speak to loud. The last thing he needed was his son going all diva on the two of them. Rachel hesitated for a moment trying to gather her thoughts together. She wanted to tell him what was going on, but didn't want to betray Kurt. Finally she looked at him her eyes were questioning with what she should tell him. However he gave Rachel a calming look, he already had a feeling on what this was about and he agreed with her full heartedly. She could see that there was no harm in telling Burt what was going on with his son so she started to talk very quietly.

"I've been watching Kurt the past few days and he's absolutely miserable, he has no idea what to do anymore." She paused for a minute and looked over to where Kurt was waiting for the water to boil. Rachel knew she had to do this so she could help Kurt, he just hadn't been himself for the past week and she hated seeing him like that. She looked back at Burt and continued to speak.

"Every time I see him he looks like he's about to cry and he keeps on talking about Blaine, I don't care if they're not dating, but Kurt needs him in his life. Whether he thinks that I don't know." Rachel stopped talking, she was done and Burt looked a little shocked even though he knew where this conversation was going to go. He honestly didn't know what to say right at this moment, but he knew Rachel was right. The two of them knew how much Blaine meant to Kurt and vice versa, the two couldn't live without each other. Burt looked at Rachel and finally started to say something.

"You know Kurt and his ways, once something is stuck in his head it's very hard to change it. I kind of have an idea but…" He was interrupted by the sound of the kettle going off and Kurt asking him how he wanted it, Burt just said black. He poured the water into a decent size mug with tea leaves they had gotten from one of the local shops and handed it to his father before shoving himself in between the two on the couch. He was still all smiles, though deep down he was hurt and both Rachel and Burt could see it. The two of them looked at each other nodded and Kurt knew something was up.

"So what have you two been talking about?" Kurt was quite curious and knew they probably wouldn't tell him.

"Well it's late I'm going to head to bed, it's nice to see you Burt. Night Kurt" she said, she didn't want to get in the middle of what looked like a Kurt intervention. She was right, from her room she could hear Burt clear his throat and start to speak.

"So how have you been bud? It seems like you've gotten settled in pretty well." He said to his son, Kurt could see there was more on his dads mind. He honestly didn't care right now because he hasn't seen his father in almost three months. Things were going to be asked eventually, so minds as well have this conversation now and get it over with.

"Dad I know you're worried about me, but I'm getting over this break up perfectly fine." He looked at his father, and knew his dad didn't buy a word that he had just said. Kurt wanted to get over this by himself; he wanted to prove that he could do this on his own.

"Kurt buddy you don't need to go through these things on your own, I will be here for as long as I can to always help you out with things." Burt had said to his son putting his hand on Kurt's shoulder. He wanted Kurt to feel like he could always come to him when he was down or in trouble. However, he knew how Kurt could be when it came to personal things; his son would get very protective about what happens personally between him and another person. It's how he's always been.

Kurt looked at his father for a moment and started to think about telling his dad what's been going on. Not that his father didn't already know. As he thought about Blaine he got teary eyed as to what he was probably doing at this very moment. He wanted nothing more than to hold him in his arms and tell him everything was going to be OK. However, even though Kurt called him in November and said things were fine; he still wasn't ready to forgive Blaine just yet. Burt looked at Kurt and realized he was hurt by this conversation and it hurt him to see his son this way and was determined to fix it.

"Let's go to bed and sleep on things, we'll talk more later." Burt had decided it was best to let things be for now. Kurt looked up his eyes glossy from his tears and nodded his head.

He cleared his throat and said "Thank You!"

"For what?" his dad was confused, Kurt had nothing to be thankful for. He knows Burt will always be there for him when he can; he is his father after all.

"Everything, I love you dad." He immediately threw his arms around his father and didn't let go for a little while.

Burt pulled his son closer to him and whispered in his ear "There is nothing else I'd rather do than be your father Kurt. I love you and I want you to be happy and safe." For the first time in a while Kurt was actually happy, his father always knew how to fix things without doing much.

"You take my bed, I sleep here I know how uncomfortable the couch would be for you, night dad." Kurt told him as he set up the couch for himself so he could try and sleep as peacefully as possible.