Hi :) So, this is my first fanfiction… I've been really disappointed with how few Tobuscus/iJustine stories there are. Honestly, I don't believe they'll get back together either, but I've just always loved them together, and I know I can't be the only one, so I've decided I'd try one myself :) I've had ideas for a while now, anyway.

*Justine's POV*

I woke up, dreading this day. Not because anything different was happening, but just because it was another day. Another long, numb, boring day.

It's not that Ryan is a bad guy or anything. He is a great guy in fact, but he isn't my guy. He isn't the guy I had pictured myself with. He's just a guy I use to get through these days. I knew I wasn't only hurting him, but hurting myself, too. I catch myself sometimes, as he leans in and kisses me, or holds me as night, picturing Toby. I can't help myself, though.

I started to pack my suitcases. I was going to my parents for a week, not for any particular reason, but just because sometimes I need them. Needless to say, I've been visiting a lot more lately.

I don't think they suspected anything. My sister, BreAnne, didn't either. Jenna, though, she was constantly asking me if I needed to talk, or if something was wrong. I knew I was different. How could I be the same?

I flashbacked to that day. That horrible day. That day I did the stupidest thing I have ever done. I'm not even sure why I did it. I guess I'm just another stupid girl.

Toby took my hand and tucked my hair behind my ear. He always did that. He said he 'wanted to see my beautiful face'. He looked out at the horizon. It really did look gorgeous from up here. We were surrounded my all the other Youtubers. They all had out their cameras, vlogging away. Toby let go of my hand and reached for his phone. I felt a hint of sadness, knowing we couldn't just stay like that forever. We didn't want everyone to know we were dating. They were already making assumptions, but that's different. I started to walk away and I heard him in the background, 'AUDIENCE!'

He put his phone back into his pocket and took my hand again. He pulled me closer to him. I expected him to kiss me, but instead he just looked at me for a minute. At that moment, I felt something. I'm not sure what, but it was something alright. It was a little scary, too. I couldn't even begin to describe that feeling. It was just like, I suddenly became unaware of everything but him and me. I could just feel my heart beating so fast, I felt as if it would explode. I had never felt anything so sensational. As I became unaware of my surroundings, I became aware of much love I felt for him. It was more than I had ever felt before. As I realized this I let go of his hand and smiled nervously. I don't know why I did it, but it was like a reflex almost. He looked a bit confused, and I just smiled again. I started to walk away from him.

As the night progressed I just kept avoiding him. I just got further and further away from him. It was strange because I wanted so terribly to be by his side, but I just couldn't bring myself to do that.

I was ready to go when I realized Toby drove me here. I was scared but relieved at the same time. I was scared because I would have to confront my feelings, and I was relieved because I thought maybe it would be okay, once I got into the car and just talked to him, without everyone around me.

'Hey.' I heard and jumped a little.

I turned to see it was Toby, which I already knew, his voice was pretty distinct. I said hi back, and we walked to the car.

It was a long ride, and I soon realized that I was definitely more scared than relieved. I tried not to look at him, because every time I did, I felt that sensation again. He parked outside my building and just looked at me. I got up the courage to look back at him, too. There it was. That feeling. I looked away, and said, 'I'm sorry… goodbye' I knew he understood what I was saying. I also knew he didn't understand why I was saying it. All he said in reply was, 'Okay.'

And that was it. The end of forever. It hurts to think about it because he's it. He's always been it. I've waited too long though. It's over. There are some things you can't get back no matter how hard you try. He is one of them.

*Toby's POV*

I took a sip of my coffee as I sat down. What is there to do today? Edit videos, make videos, edit a few more videos… sounds about right. Maybe I'll call up Gabe and see if he wants to hang out, or something. I've been seeing my friends a lot more lately. I guess that's expected, though, of a guy my age… isn't it? I'm not so sure. I used to be, though. I used to know exactly how days went, measuring time with when I get to see Justine, and when I don't. Now, though, I look at a clock just about every two seconds, hoping more time has passed. These days have been long. Since when did living begin to take so much hard work? Well, I guess I know the answer to that.

I had someone a few months ago, though. Olga. She wasn't a Justine by far, but she was a nice girl. She wanted to get married. I have an idea of how that idea popped into her head, though. I thought of that little black box in my nightstand, that one I bought after it happened.

After the day that changed my life. It was probably a stupid thing to do, buy an engagement ring after a break up… but I felt like if it was still there, hope was still there. As long as I had that, I had something.

I hated to think about her. I hated to see her. I hated her. Okay, of course that's a lie. I love her. More than anything or anyone else in this world. She's it. She's always been it. I've waited too long though. It's over. There are some things you can't get back no matter how hard you try. She is one of them.