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To have loved
Neji didn't understand how this could be the end. Perhaps if he had been less proud, perhaps if he had paid attention to all the signs. Perhaps if he had listened to Naruto's urgings to go to the Hospital. There were so many perhaps and infinite quantity of uncertainties, his head began to spin, unable to reconcile the fact that he was going to die. He had a malign tumor in his head, it was too late to treat him, and even if he had insisted on a operation there was a 99.9 chance of becoming a vegetable. It was not something he had wanted and in fact he wasn't regretting his choice of foregoing that operation, he was regretting his choices that led up to that point.
When he had first found out he hadn't told Naruto the full extent of his condition, it wasn't fair to exclude Naruto, yet he didn't want to hurt him. He had continued to go on missions, even against the reccomendations of Tsunade. He had gone on all the missions that Naruto had gone on just to spend time with him, to be able to tell him he loved him many times so that when he was gone his words and his feelings would remain.
However a month ago, it became impossible to hide it any longer from Naruto. When he was told, Naruto hadn't been surprised at the news as much as Neji had thought he would be. He had expected yells and tantrums and recriminations and instead all he got were silent tears and desperate hug. It turned out that Naruto had in fact known the whole time and had just decided to let Neji do it his way. Neji understood then the times that Naruto had gone out without telling him and only to come back a few hours later in an urgent, passionate mood were the times that Naruto had gone out to cry to think, and to try to make himself look happy for Neji. Neji understood it now and he thanked Naruto for his thoughtfulness for his willingness to push aside his own pain in preference to making Neji as happy and as loved as possible.
And now here he was, in bed, with Naruto next to him, hugging him and comforting him with his warmth. Neji suddenly felt cold seeping in and he understood that the time for good by was upon them, yet he didn't want to wake Naruto, so instead he gave the hand that held him a kiss and he placed a letter on the nightstand. He was content now, at the end, he was satisfied with his life. He had feared that he would be frightened of death and would cause more pain to Naruto, but it did not happen. He was happy, he needed nothing more than the knowledge that he had loved and been loved by a kind and gentle heart.
the end
I might write what was on the letter if I at least get one person interested in knowing.
-your friendly author