No more running away
What if Jay was seriously injured in 3x01. The story is about Erin visiting Jay in hospital.
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
Erin POV
After I opened the door for the team everything was a blurr. Now I'm sitting in the waiting area of the hospital, hoping, praying that Jay was going to be okay. I needed him to be okay. Because if not, then I don't know how I'm supposed to live anymore. Being so absorbed in my thoughts for the last hours I didn't notice the whole team and other patrolmen arriving at the hospital occupying the waiting area. I must look like hell, cause every few seconds at least one person casts me a look. Most of them filled with sadness and concern but also with pity. Pity because everyone at the district knows of me and Jay, or at least they assume something. A few months ago, those looks would have bothered me, maybe even saddened me. But that only because I ended it with Jay. I couldn't really commit to Jay in front of Voight. But today I could not care less, because even though there wasn't anything going on between me and Jay right now, I still loved him. I alsways loved him and I always will. Anyway, I don't believe he even likes me anymore. For that, I hurt him too much, too many times, starting with me wanting to cool it off and ending with me going off the rails after Nadia died. I always run away when things get complicated, that I realized but it's because in my past too many people have left, hurt or disappointed me. Bunny being one of the last minutes I started silently crying.
Suddenly I was pulled out of my thoughts when comes to us, Will trailing him. Oh god, Will. I practically jump out of my chair and go over tot hem.
"Is he alive?", I ask. "When he came in, he was in a critical condition, going in and out of conciousness. He bleeded internally into his abdomen but we were able to stop the bleeding. He has two broken ribs and multiple marks of a taser on his abdomen. He is stable, but he is in ICU and we are monitoring him, just in case. Also before he went into surgery he asked about Erin and if she was okay and that he wanted to see her.", as he finished I let out a shaky breath, I didn't know I had held in. "Can I see him?", asked. "Of course, follow me. But he is still asleep and he will likely be fort he next hour or so." I nodded. "Here it is, I'll come back later to check in on him.", he said before he made his way back. With shaky hands I pushed the door open and stepped in. There he was. Laying in bed, his chest lifting and sinking evenly. He looked so peacefull yet so fragile, his handsome face she fell in love with over the years brutally bruised.
She took a seat next to his bed and took his hand. "Oh Jay, I'm so, so sorry. This is my fault. But I swear, I never wanted any of this to happen. When Alvin called me and said, that you were kidnapped my world stopped and I finally realized that what I was doing was wrong and that the only thing I did by going of the rails was hurting the one person that means the world to me, that I love. You, Jay. In my past, everyone that I loved died and after Nadia died, I thought that the only way this wouldn't happen again was by going away from the people that I love. ….. You can't die Jay. Please, wake up." It was quiet.
Erin POV
I let my tears flow. But then suddenly I felt Jay slightly squeezing my hand.
To be continued….
Sooo... My first Fanfic! I hope you liked it. I'm a BIG Linstead shipper and I would love to get a some feedback on how I've done so far and I would be thrilled to get some ideas on anything to hopefully continue this story as soon as possible.
Love -E