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When they had finally gotten together Blaine remembered all too well how Kurt reacted about the idea of having sex. Blaine wanted to take it slow. He wasn't sure how physical Kurt was willig to get and he was determined not to pressure or scare Kurt away.
Before rehearsals they would often kiss and hold hands. But Blaine made sure they were soft kisses. He had a bit of a kinky side to him that he often fantasized about, but again he wanted to make sure he didn't scare Kurt away. And while he had fooled around with a few guys at some parties in the past he was still a virgin and wanted both of their first times to be special. Kurt's first kiss was already stolen, he wanted everything else to be perfect.
He often fought the urges he had when he and Kurt were making out. He wanted his hand to go lower towards Kurt's crotch, but he knew Kurt wasn't ready for that. Just kissing another boy for Kurt was still a really big deal. Which made it into a big deal for Blaine. He loved being able to kiss someone and have it be meaningful. That didn't stop him from fantasizing about Kurt from time to time, and the things they could do when Kurt was more ready.
Blaine wondered if Kurt ever had any of those fantasies. While Kurt was still more innocent than most boys his age he was still a boy with urges and desires. But Blaine didn't want to freak him out by asking him, or push him out of his comfort zone.
They were on Kurt's bed in a middle of of a make out session. During their last few make outs Blaine slowly pushed his tongue into Kurt's mouth and waited for possible rejection. Kurt at first seemed surprised but then smiled and opened his mouth wider for Blaine's tongue. This act had rather startled Blaine, but now it had let to them french kissing more often. Blaine loved his tongue inside of Kurt's mouth. It ran across Kurt's teeth and own tongue. He loved hearing Kurt moan.
Without thinking he rested his hand on Kurt's shoulder. Than slowly he trailed down Kurt's chest. Kurt flinched in surprise as it grazed across Kurt's nipple. Blaine continued to drag his hand down towards Kurt's crotch and then froze. What the hell was he doing? He didn't even ask...what if Kurt wasn't ready for such intimate touching? How could he have been so careless and thoughtless? Angry at himself he removed his hand. Kurt stopped kissing him and grabbed it.
"What are you doing?"
"I'm sorry," Blaine mumbled. "I...got carried away, I didn't mean for it to go that far..."
Kurt stared at him.
"I won't break, you know," he said quietly and Blaine licked his lips.
"I know how nervous sex makes you, or anything related to sex. I didn't want to scare you away," Blaine added and Kurt smiled, clearly touched.
"It's okay," he said in a quiet voice. "I want...you to do it."
Blaine froze.
"Are...you sure?"
Kurt nodded.
"I want to feel you on me," he mumbled and his face flushed red, embarrassed about this side of himself. Blaine nodded slowly.
"Tell me when you want me to stop," he said with sincerity in his voice. Kurt nodded, more eager than Blaine thought he would be. They resumed the kissing, the gentle message of the two tongues pressed against each other. Blaine let his hand drift down there this time. It was his turn to blush as he touched Kurt's crotch. He could feel Kurt's penis bulging from his tight jeans.
Kurt moaned which caused him to moan in response.
He was careful of how soft he would message his hand around that area. He didn't want to startle Kurt at all. They moaned in each other's mouth and he continued to message his hand against Kurt's penis when Kurt gasped and pulled back sharply.
"Stop!" He pleaded, wide eyed. Blaine jerked his hand back quickly.
"Kurt?"
Kurt's face flushed with shame and embarrassment as he raced to the bathroom and Blaine closed his eyes. He knew what had happened. He didn't mean to stimulate Kurt that much
He sighed and stood up, his own erection slowly vanishing. He knocked on the bathroom door.
"Kurt..."
"Go away, Blaine." He could hear Kurt crying in there and his heart went out to his boyfriend.
"Kurt...what happened is no big deal... it's very natural..."
"It IS a big deal!" Kurt snapped. He opened the door suddenly. He held some toilet paper in his hands. "I've...never had that happen to me in front of anybody before. I've never...been that exposed. What happened is supposed to be a very private thing."
"A private thing that two people can share," said Blaine softly. "Would it help if you knew I had an erection too and was about to cum as well?"
Kurt blushed a deep shade of red at those words.
Blaine cursed himself for not trying to use other words to describe what had just happened.
"When two people are in love and want to share their affection at a physical level they trust each other not to be embarrassed by the most natural things. You don't need to be ashamed, Kurt. You did NOTHING wrong."
Kurt blinked back tears,and his head still looked at the ground.
"What happened...when you first uh..."
"Came in front of someone?" Blaine finished, knowing how awkward that word was for Kurt. Kurt quickly nodded, his ears a bright shade of pink.
"It was at a party, I had too much to drink," said Blaine slowly. "But he and I were both so...into each other at the moment we didn't care how messy we got. But it wasn't exactly something I like remembering-"
"Because it was embarrassing," mumbled Kurt.
"No," Blaine corrected gently. "Because it was with a stranger, and not someone I truly cared about." His soft puppy dog eyes stared at Kurt as Kurt slowly and bashfully looked up.
"I have no idea what I'm doing," Kurt admitted. "I've never...gone this far before, it just...kind of scared me."
"I understand," Blaine said gently. "We can go only as far as you want."
"But..."Kurt looked uncomfortable.
"But what?"
"But, don't you have...needs? Fantasies? Desires?"
Kurt might be new, but he wasn't totally innocent about these kinds of thoughts. Blaine decided to be honest.
"Yes I do. But that's okay. I can wait. My biggest need and desire is to make sure YOU'RE comfortable, safe, and happy. I don't want to scare you away."
Kurt grabbed his hand and squeezed it.
"You won't," he said sincerely and Blaine blinked back tears of relief. He swallowed and bit his lip. Should he suggest this right now?
"I...have an idea, you can totally say no if you want. But it's something that might make things easier for you."
Kurt frowned.
"I'm listening."
"How about...I become sort of...your guide to anything sexually related? Like anytime you're curious about something all you have to do is ask and if you are ready I can show you. Or we can just talk about it. And we can tell each other our fantasies if you ever want to. We don't have to act them out, we can just talk. It might make sex more comfortable if you talk about it more with someone you trust and care about, and love."
Kurt stared at him, interest flickered in his eyes.
"Like...a Sex Education class?"
Blaine laughed a bit.
"Yeah I'm the Sex Ed teacher," he said with a wink and Kurt finally grinned.
"If there were teachers that looked like you for my sex education classes I might have attended more often."
Blaine laughed again. It felt good to laugh since he was so nervous.
"So?"
Kurt frowned.
"And we don't have to...do any of the things we talk about if I don't want to?"
"Correct."
"But...you won't mind if we do do some of them?"
Blaine was surprised by Kurt asking that question and nodded quickly, trying not to be too eager.
"Whatever makes you comfortable. We'll even create a safe word for you to say when you want us to stop, and it's getting too much."
Kurt frowned and nodded. He couldn't understand why he couldn't just say stop instead of having a safe word but that sounded okay.
He sucked his breath in.
"Okay," he said slowly and Blaine blinked at him, clearly surprised.
"Are you sure?"
Kurt squeezed Blaine's hand.
"Yes, I'm sure." He looked at Blaine with a surprisingly sly smile and Blaine frowned, suspicious.
"What?"
"In fact, I think I might be ready for lesson 1, Mr. Anderson."
Blaine grinned as Kurt called him by his last name.
"Very well." He gently pulled Kurt towards the bed, hoping that everything would go smooth and praying that things wouldn't go too far and he wouldn't lose Kurt.