Chapter 1

ROSE POV

"Rose!" Dimitri called from my door. I guess he was wondering where I was. It had been a few weeks since I had guarded Lissa. She had been on vacation with Christian which was an engagement present from me and Dimitri, she had told me to stay behind to have a little holiday myself while she asked for a few other guardians to come along instead.

"I'm in the shower!" I called back. I waited a few minutes, but no reply.

"That's an invitation you know."

"Oh, I can't let myself get distracted though, we have a big day ahead of us Rose." His tone almost sounded the same but there was that little, 'I'm bored' sound in it too. Dimitri had gotten distant lately, I have tried continuously to find out what's wrong but he just keeps saying that he's tired.

"Oh okay then. Won't be a sec." I call back trying my best to sound as little disappointed as I possibly can.

As I finish in the shower I walk out just in my underwear, hoping oh so much that it will change Dimitri's mind. I walk to where he is sitting on the bed and kissed him passionately on the lips, I notice that this time it has none of the heat that it would usually have, there used to be at least a little there. At that moment I knew something was wrong. I had to ask, I figured this was the only time I could.

So in the best angry/concerned voice I could I asked the big question I was dying to know the answer to. "Dimitri, what's up with you lately? You haven't been yourself, and don't say nothing or that you're tired."

"Uh, there really isn't anything wrong, I've just been stressed lately, you know how it is." He replied avoiding my eyes.

"Your right in a way, I do know how it feels to be stressed out. But you haven't seemed into me for a while now. Are you losing your feelings for me?" This was a question I didn't really want to know the answer to, but I had to ask.

"No Roza, I love you." His reply was hesitant. I didn't fully believe him, but what more could I get out of him? So instead I just leaned down and kissed him. The feeling was only slightly there, that's what put me off most, I knew now for sure there was something wrong.

DIMITRI POV

It was getting harder and harder every day to face Rose, knowing what I had done to her, when she was so innocent.

I didn't know how to break it to her, I would have to do it sooner or later before she caught me. I had to go over to see her this morning, maybe I would tell her if I was brave enough. It's funny, everyone sees me as serious and ready to face anything, yet I can't even face my girlfriend.

I sat on her bed while we had a conversation as she showered. She was a great woman. Things didn't seem to be the same anymore, and knowing me I'll be a idiot and won't tell her anything until she either finds out of she breaks up with me.

I heard the water stop and she got out of the shower. I guess it's now or never, but how am I supposed to say anything. Ah, this is shit! She is going to hate me with everything in her. To top it all off, she is one of the best guardians out there.

As Rose finished in the shower she walked out in just her underwear, God she looked good, it was hard to resist the urge to just make love to her then and there.

Rose bought me out of my fantasies with a question I didn't exactly want to answer.

"Dimitri, what's up with you lately? You haven't been yourself, and don't say nothing or that you're tired."

"Uh, there really isn't anything wrong, I've just been stressed lately, you know how it is." I replied avoiding her gaze.

"Your right in a way, I do know how it feels to be stressed out. But you haven't seemed into me for a while now. Are you losing your feelings for me?" Rose replied sounding angry and hurt.

"No Roza, I love you." I said hesitantly. With that she leaned down and kissed me passionately.

She sighed and walked towards her drawers, I took that as my reason to leave her. I walked out the door and down the hallway to where I saw Abby. I knew that she could cheer me up in this situation.