Lullaby

by rosalina2123

When J get's hurt during a job will his family be there for him when he needs them the most? I know the feeling Of finding yourself stuck out on the ledge And there ain't no healing From cuttin' yourself with the jagged edge I'm tellin' you that it's never that bad And take it from someone who's been where your at You're laid out on the floor and you're not sure You can take this

1. Chapter 1

Chapter one

The feeling of a cool hand carding through my hair causes me to take in a breath as I realize it's just Smurf and I relax a little bit. She's semi holding me,to keep me from moving,so the doctor can numb me up,to give me stitches. I don't want to be here,but need to be,I got stabbed on a job,I got lucky though,no damage internally,it ended up being superficial,went through skin and muscle,it still bled a hell of a lot,it's still bleeding sluggishly,I was with Baz and Darren,they called Smurf after it happened,and she told them to take me to this clinic where her friend works,which Is where I'm at now.. "Shh shh,it's alright baby,I'm here J,it's going to be a quick pinch alright"she murmurs as I see the needle,and turn my focus on her. I feel a quick pinch,but then it starts to burn,really burn,which hurts worse than the original wound. "God it hurts"I murmur wincing,"I know sweet boy,your doing good baby,just hang in there alright,it'll be over soon"she murmurs as I sense the doctor prod my side,and I can't feel anything.

"Can you feel that J"she asks softly, "not at all"I murmur as I see the nurse hand her the needle and thread. Then the nurse comes over and sorta holds my legs down,so I don't kick out,then they get started. I don't feel any pain after this,more pressure than anything,and before I know it it's all said done,and they are putting some antibiotic cream on it,then they put on some gauze and tape it down. I hear Smurf ask her some questions at this point,as far as how to care for the wound,pain medication,and when to come back to get the stitches out,and then we're all done. They let me up,and I take in a steadying breath,to get myself ready for the painful part,getting my shirt on,and getting up,neither are going to be pleasant. I feel her place her hands on my shoulders softly, "let me do most of the work alright baby,I know it's going to hurt,but I'll try to be gentle"she murmurs as the nurse hands her my shirt,it's bloody and grimy,but it'll do until we get home.

"Ok Smurf"I murmur as I let her pull the shirt over my head,mindful of the wound on my stomach as she pulls it down,then she helps me get up off the exam table,arm around my waist to steady me as I get my bearings. She get's the prescription from the doctor,for some kind of pain medication,I'm not sure what,then we head out as she thanks the doctor for taking time to take care of me. We get out to the waiting area and Darren and Baz are waiting. They get up and we go out to the truck,then they make the decision that Baz will drive us home,and Darren will take Smurf's truck,go fill my prescription at the 24 hour pharmacy,wait for it,then bring it back to the house,I'm too tired to wait to go home much longer. I let Baz help me into the truck,can't really do it myself,doctor doesn't want me to use my abs until I'm feeling stronger,and I get in the middle seat,then Smurf get's in beside me. Baz gets in the drivers side and we take off as she has me lay my head against her shoulder,running her fingers through my hair.

I stay quiet,and they soon start talking,she's trying to get out of him what happened out there on the job. It all happened so fast,we got caught,sorta,I got caught,I was look out,saw the guy coming,he was going to bust them for grabbing the safe,texted them,but he caught me off guard,cut me with his knife,quick slice,enough to debilitate me,enough to make me fall to the ground. The rest is a blur until the doctors office,and Smurf arriving,I'm pretty sure I was in and out of consciousness. Before I know it we're home,we pull into the driveway,yellow light from the porch light penetrating the darkness. We get out,they help me,and we go inside to the main foyer. She sends Baz to go get me a pair of shorts and a t shirt,and she guides me to her room. "I'm going to have you stay with me tonight alright baby,so I can keep a close eye on you"she murmurs hugging me gently,placing a hand on my cheek,a rare private moment,that doesn't happen too often,that she reserves for her boys,which I'm one of her boys. "Alright"I murmur too tired to care at this point,and she helps me sit down on the chair at her vanity.

I let her redress me,then she helps me get into bed,and makes sure I'm comfortable,then she's sits down beside me for a moment. "Try to get some sleep baby,I'll be back in a bit,I'm going to shut everything down downstairs,wait for Darren,he should be here any time now,when he get's here I'll give you the first dose of the medicine alright,I'm guessing the anesthetic is starting to wear off"she murmurs as she strokes my cheek softly,then cards a hand through my hair. "K,yeah I'm starting to feel a little discomfort"I murmur as she gets up and kisses me on the head, "OK,the medicine should be here soon sweet boy,love you"she murmurs softly as she pulls the sheets up over me,then gives me one final kiss,"I love you too"I murmur as she turns off the lamp.

Then she leaves,leaving me alone for the first time tonight. It's been a hell of a night that's for sure,and I know she ain't happy,she hates it when any of her boys are hurt,I know she'll be getting on their cases later,she just didn't want to do It in front of me,which I don't blame her. It stills feels weird letting her take care of me,I'm so used to being on my own after all that stuff with my mom,I'm more used to it than I was the first time I got sick while I was here,that was hard,but it's still weird regardless. I close my eyes,exhausted from the nights events the last thoughts ebbing in my mind ones of the first time I got sick while I was first living here.