It is recomended that you play the song while you read the fic. Most can be found by looking up the artists myspace page. Just a suggestion since these are writtin in the flow of the song.

I do not own Teen Titans or the song "The Gift", be Seether.

The Gift.

Bright morning sun shown through the window of the sleeping girl. She tossed and objected to the morning rays, but the blonde, blue eyed teenager sat up in bed. She hung her head and let the hair curtan over her heart shaped face.

The morning had intruprted her dreams, more like memorys. Wonderful memorys for the most part, becuase those where the ones she wanted to cling to. Though the bad ones where never far.

Hold me now I need to feel relief
Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to
I'm so ashamed of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to get by

Terra looked up and sighed quietly before getting up from bed and walking around her room, gathering her clouthing before putting them on. Saturday, school was out for the weekend. She pulled on black shorts and a blue T-shirt before her sneekers and ran outside.

Beast Boy.

That name kept poping into her mind time after time. That name was the main sorce of her pain and joy. He had givin her more then anyone ever had or could, his love. Yeah, that sounded corny, but it was true. He had shown it to her more then once, but she refused him how many times? Terra had lost count.

Terra walked on the side walk with her arms crossed at her chest and eyes wandering around. Afraid somone would notice her.

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed
of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

Terra felt somone glance at her and she quickly turned around facing a store window to avoid eye contact. She stopped walking, her hair flaired forward and stopped, half covering her face.

Terra stared at herself with anger and hate, she was looking at the monster who had destoryed the city once, and broken a innocent green heart. She pushed her hair out of her face and resumed her walk, glaring at the side walk now. Her jaw set harder and arms crossed tighter. Her mistakes had cost her a lot, and Beast Boy. Why did all her trail of thoughts keep leading back to him! She knew she had to move on, didn't she? She didn't diserve him, he could do so much better, why didn't he? To Terra, she was nothing, nothing worth anyones time or care. She didn't think she could get any lower, any stupider of a person.

I can't face myself when I wake up
And look inside a mirror
I'm so ashamed of that thing
I suppose I'll let it go
Til I have something more to say for me
I'm so afraid of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to defy

How could he had been so trusting? He had practicly served up his heart to her on a silver platter! With a side dish or two. Why had he done that? Come back for her, a few times. He hadn't givin' up like she had done so many times. Beast Boy was her stronger point, yet he was also her weakness. She wondered if it was the same in his view.

The next set of quistions came to mind, why was she living like she hadn't remembered? What was worth more then her old life?

The whole job was protecting people! That's what I'm doing, protecting them from me...

Why was it, everything she did seemed wrong some how? Somthing always made her a liar, somthing always went horribly wrong. She was never right about anything... exsept one, that was a feeling she almost wished she didn't have. It was tearing her apart.

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed
of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

She felt like part of her was missing, like no matter what she did there was that dark void. She was only a teenager! this shouldn't be happening to her, she was too young to make any sense. What was happening to her? She often felt a shadow over her face, that darker part haunting her.

Love, it was such a complicated word and meaning. What was love really? Most people brushed it off, not knowing it was such an importan thing. A thing she had been offered, and rejected.

Hold me now I need to feel complete

Like I matter to the one I need

"Terra?"

Terra's head shot up at the sound of that voice. She turned around to look at the green boy who had spoken. "You." she said simply.

Beast Boy gave a guilty grin, "Bummer eh?" he joked before frowning. "You've been crying, is everything okay?"

Terra touched her cheek with her finger tips, feeling the hot wetness. She hadn't noticed the tears leaving her eyes. "Fine," she spat. "What do you want?"

"I wanted to see you again," Beast Boy smiled again, softly. God it made her want to melt. Her eyes travled over his face.

"Well- I..I... Why!" She spat next, trying to look away but couldn't. Her eyes darted back to his face, he looked like he was considering, but not hurt... but looks could be desiving. If anyone should know, it was her.

"Becuase..." Beast Boy started before looking straight into her eyes, making her look back. "I... miss you and-"

"I'm not Terra stop-"

"Let me finesh," Beast Boy held his hand up in protest and all she could do was nodd quickly. "I know it's you, I can feel it. Don't say I'm crazy, I know what I know. Your Terra, admit it or not. You can't hide from me, the nose knows." he pointed to his nose, and dispite herself, Terra giggled. "See? You LOVE my jokes!"

Thats not all I- NO NO NO! STOP! She scorned.

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed
of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

"Terra, I was never able to tell you, everything, it happened to fast... I never told you... I..." Beast Boy stuttered. Terra watched him, her eyes growing larger, inside she was urging his next words. "I..." Beast Boy sighed and ran his fingers through his hair. "Never mind, I- I need to go." His face burned as he turned to leave.

"Beast Boy-" Terra reached out and grabbed his arm as her eyes watered again. He turned his head to look at her and she felt her face burn. "I mean... I- no I mean.. I..." She let go of his arm and looked down. "I'm sorry." She wispered harshly.

Now I'm ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of this

"Terra-"

"No, I'm sorry... I'm so sorry." Without looking up Terra grabbed Beast Boy in a hug and cried quietly into his shoulder.

"Shh, everythings going to be alright," Beast Boy wispered in her ear as he hugged her back.

"How can you tell?" She sobbed.

"Becuase I love you," He wispered even softer.

Now I'm so ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of me...

Hi everyone! Sorry, this fic seemed a little messy. But its the only one I have complete at the moment. -holds up list of future to-be song fics-

Anyways, I have tons of song fic ideas, no I mean it, TONS. So I am finally getting off my butt, or er, Sitting on it at the computer and writing when I get the chance. Updates may be slow, I'm a busy person.

Please Read and Review!