Hello! This is a really old fanfic I found yesterday while cleaning up my laptop. I wrote it such a looong time ago that I even forgot about its existence :(
I also want to point out that this story is not related in any kind of way with ''There's no one but you'' (other story about dark turtles I'm currently writing) However, I need to admit is really funny how the female main character's personalities of both stories resemble so much. But I repeat, they have nothing to do with each other, plus in this fic Donnie is the only crazy turtle.
I'm only posting this because Meh… I felt bad for abandoning it. It will have two chapters max :(
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Never Again!
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Part 1: Feels like a dream
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''Ouch…'' Was the first sound I made after waking up ''my head hurts… why it hurts so much?'' I asked to myself while trying to find a logical explanation for such an awful headache ''Ah… That's right…last night I went to Megan's bachelorette party. How many drinks did I have again? Dammit I need to stop drinking this much… ''
''Hmm? Why can't I see anything?'' My eyes were open but… there was something covering my eyes.
When I tried removing the strange object from my eyes I realized I couldn't move my arms either; actually the only body part I was able to move was my head.
''Why can't I move? '' Now I was starting to freak out… this definitely couldn't be because of the alcohol.
''Oh! You are finally awake''
''Wait a second… I know that voice! Is Donnie's voice… but how? What is he doing here? I haven't seen him since we broke up three years ago… and we haven't been in contact either so how did he found me? Well it doesn't matter, if someone could help me out of this strange situation is him!''
''Donnie! Thank God! I don't know what happened but I can't move! Where are you?''
''I'm just in front in you…''
''What's happening Donnie? Did I fell somewhere and hit my head? That's how you find me?''
''Well in theory it is, you were already unconscious the moment I found you''
'' Awww I knew I shouldn't have drunk all those margaritas… I always end up passing out after drinking too many''
I heard him chuckling… how much I missed his dork little laugh, it always made my heart flutter
''I can see you haven't change at all Alice''
''Hey! I did change '' I protested. I wasn't the same little crazy teenager I was back them.
''Yes, you are right… you did change… you became more beautiful''
I felt my cheeks reddening '' T-Thanks'' Wow... Apparently Donnie has really changed as well. He has never been this straight forward before; he always behaved so shy and overly polite it was almost frustrating… yet I loved it.
''But Donnie, do you know what happened to me? I can't move and I can't see anything I'm worried…''
Donnie chuckled again, he sounded happy for some reason.
''Alice, don't worry, you'll be okay now'' I felt his warm breath rousing my cheek; he was really close…too close to conform.
I wanted to push him away ''Hmmm Donnie… Why are you so close?'' but due to my immobile state I was only able to jerk my head away; however, that only made the awful headache I was feeling to become even worst ''Gezz my head… it hurts''
''Shhh… It's alright princess, don't move so much or you will end up hurting yourself'' He started caressing my cheek with the back of his hand.
''P- Princess…? What the hell! He just called me princess? Has he lost his mind?'' He used to call me princess when we were still together, but now I hate being called that way… I hate it more than anything!
''Don't call me princess please…'' I tried to contain my bitterness as much as possible.
''Why?''
''He is asking me WHYYY! Oh my god! Breathe Alice! Breathe! Don't let you anger overcome you. Remember what your therapist taught you… inhale and exhale… that's it…remain calm…''
''I just don't like it… so please don't do it'' good, I managed to keep my cool! Nice job Alicia!
''A- Alice… I- I missed you so much…'' My heart dropped after hearing him said that.
Actually, I have really missed him too, before we became a couple he was my best friend in the entire world.
''Donnie… I- I missed you too… I missed you so much'' I found myself trying to fight back my tears…Gosh I'm such a cry baby.
''I can't believe I'm finally able to talk with him… maybe… just maybe… This time we can become friends again and let our awful past behind us''
''Re- Really?'' he asked with a broken voice.
''Of course I…''
My sentence was cut short, when I felt something being lifted from my face. I squeezed my eyes shut when the brightness of the place and my tears blinded me again for a couple of seconds more, and then I felt Donnie's hand gently whipping my face.
'' Alice…'' after my vision cleared, I saw him whispering my name with such a dreamy expression that I felt as if I had traveled three years back.
''Is this a dream? I can't believe I'm in front of him again… and he's looking at me with those eyes… those love filled eyes I craved so much for all this years''
''My Alice… '' Uh Oh… I didn't like the tone of his voice… It remained me of the tone he used when he…was in the 'mood'
That snapped me out from my trance '' Donnie… why are you using your sensual voice? ''
''Was I? I didn't notice it'' he giggled.
He was acting really strange… I didn't like it one bit… plus, I still wasn't able to move my body.
''You know why I can't move my body?''
''Oh, it must be because of the drugs I gave you'' he said casually.
His nonchalant attitude almost got me for a second ''Oh! I see is because of the drug you gave… WAIT A MINUTE! Did just you say you drug me?''
''Well, I couldn't think on any other way to bring you here'' he said as he scratched the back of his neck… he always did that when he was nervous.
''Here? Where's here? Where are we?''
''We are in my lab''
''This is your lab? It looks different…'' This couldn't possibly be his lab… it was strangely dark… and empty. Where did all his inventions go? This looked just like abandoned garage… except for the table I was lying in and some other random furniture scattered around the room.
''Well, I made so changes in the years we stopped seeing each other''
''Oh… I see… and how are your brothers? … Hey Wait! Don't try to change the subject mister! Why did you drug me? Did you lose your mind?''
''I'm so sorry Alice… I thought it was the only way I had to make you come here… I thought you hated me…''
Shit. I couldn't stay angry when he looked at me with those sad turtle eyes '' Well, to be honest with you, I really did hate you''
He instantly froze and set his sight to the floor. I could tell he was struggling to find the right words to say… he looked so pitiful.
''But I don't hate you anymore Donnie'' I continued.
He lifted his face '' R- Really? '' His voice was full of contained joy.
''Really, actually I'm really happy to see you. I feel like I'm dreaming''
He smiled so widely I thought I was going to melt ''me too… '' He said softly as he cupped my face with his hand and started to rub my cheek with his thump.
I gulped; I didn't like the direction this was heading to… so I decided to drop a bomb.
''So… How's April?'' I hope my voice hasn't sounded as awkward as I think it sounded.
Donnie's eye widened like plates and I felt his hand tensing around my face.
''Well, she's fine. She's working as a journalist now''
''Oh, that's nice. She once told me she wanted to become a journalist. And are you two still toge-''
''ALICE'' he suddenly raised his voice ''sorry Alice I- I… why don't we change the subject? ''
I rolled my eyes '' Heeee… ok''
I went silence. I couldn't think about anything else to talk about, and I found myself suddenly losing all interest to continue the conversation.
He cleared his throat to get my attention '' and… What did you do after we… stop meeting each other'' I noticed how he wanted to avoid saying the words broke up.
''Oh… well a lot of things happened… ''
''I can imagine… ''
''Yes… I participated in a lot of productions back in Europe… it was a really enlightening experience and I got to work with such amazing and talented people back there… I really learned a lot… and grew up a lot… as an artist I mean. But now I want to try getting back into Broadway, I have an audition in three weeks ''
''You have always been talented Alice, your voice is like an angel's. I'm sure you will get the part''
My face grew suddenly hot... Where did he learn to say such embarrassing things? '' Aww… Thank you Donnie... but I'm sure that's nothing compared to the life of a ninja who combats crime''
Donnie laughed a little ''my life is not as exciting as you imagine, most of the time is monotonous and a little bit stressful''
''Please! Stop lying to me! You need to tell me all about your and your brother's adventures… I can't move anyway so I have nothing else to do''
He smiled warmly, and sat on a steel chair in front of me '' It's a long story''
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''Dude! Do you see what I'm seeing? Donnie's laughing! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! Ouch!''
''Shhhh! be quiet cheese brain or they'll heard you''
''Mikey, Raph stop spying on them! They need privacy''
''Awww come on Leo, Donnie looks so happy… It had been so long since I last saw him smiling like that''
''He's smiling? For real?''
''Yes, It looks like he's finally getting his shit together. If I had knew that all he needed was that chick I would had kidnapped her myself sooner''
''Please Raph… Don't say it that way ''
''What? It's the truth, he drugged her and brought her here, if that's not kidnapping then I don't know what it is''
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'' Woahhh… Donnie that's awesome! ''
''It's nothing'' he said sheepishly, showing a little bit the overly shy and modest Donnie I knew before.
''Are you kidding me? You and your brothers saved the world countless times! I can't believe it! You deserve a medal… No! You deserve the key of the city…No! You deser- YAWN…'' I couldn't contain a yawn.
''Are you sleepy?''
''Just a little…'' My eyelids felt really heavy out of the sudden.
''Come on you can sleep, it's late anyway''
''Well maybe just a little bit… maybe I'll rest my eyes just a little…''
''That's it… just relax princess''
As soon as he said princess, my sleepiness faded away like magic…
''Donnie… please don't call me princess'' I frowned.
''Why? You used to like it when I called you princess before''
''Yes I USED TO like it, now I don't so please don't call me like that''
''Alright…'' he hunched on his chair again.
This was becoming awkward '' I think I need to go home… can you take me home now please?''
''You want to go home? W- Why?''
''Well, I can't stay here anyway… David is going to be worried''
Donatello's face twisted in a way I have never seen before '' David? Who's that?''
''My boyfriend…''
He almost fell from his chair '' Y- YOU HAVE A…A BOYFRIEND''
''Yes, we have been dating for one year''
''…'' he went blank.
I arched a brow ''Don...? There's something wro-''
''I can't believe you got a boyfriend''
''Hey! Why not? I thought you said I have become prettier! '' I tried making a joke to light up the sudden heavy mood.
He shook his head '' It's not that!'' he covered his face with his hands '' How How… ''
''Donnie, go to your happy please… breathe…''
''I can't believe it! I thought you said you have missed me!'' he finally uncovered his face and looked at me as if I had just killed a puppy.
''I did! Like an friend''
''Just a like a friend…?'' He sounded really mortified.
''Well of course… you were my best friend and I missed talking with you''
''Are you kidding me?'' his voice was barely a whisper ''ARE YOU KIDDING ME!'' he suddenly stood up and threw the steel chair he was sitting on against one of the lab's walls. The strident sound made my eyes shut instantly.
''Donnie… you are scaring me''
''I'm not just a friend… you are not just a friend for me… you are my mate''
My mouth felt agape '' you mean like your team-mate? Like a friendly team of super best buddies…''
''Alice… I know you are not stupid, you know exactly why I mean'' he looked pissed.
I couldn't believe what I was hearing ''but Donnie… we have been separate for more than three years now…''
''That doesn't matter… I love you Alice… and I know you love me… I can see it''
Has he gone mad? '' Donnie… I think you are mistaken''
''NO! I'm not Alice, we are meant to be together''
''Don…''
''Stop… I- I don't want to hear it… I know you are only pretending… I know… Alice, I'm sorry, I acted like a complete asshole, even more than that… I made the worst mistake of my life, I'll never be able to forgive myself for what I did to you… but now that you are here, I know we can work it out Alice. We can be together again… I love you, I love you more than my own life and I promise to dedicate the rest of my existence to make you happy.''
''Wow… those words… how many times I have dream about hearing those exact words from him… however…''
''But Donnie… You broke up with me because you said you loved April'' My eyes grew hot only by saying it.
''I- I''
''You left me… y-you left me for her'' Oh no, I need to stop. This isn't good.
''I'm sorry…''
''I loved you so much, but you left me…'' I need to calm down.
''Alice I'm so sorry''
''I couldn't even contact you anymore… ''
He gripped my shoulders '' Please… I beg you…stop''
''Do- Don't… DON'T TOUCH ME'' and I snapped.
''How dare he? How dare he try to come and ruin everything I have been working so hard for?''
''Alice please! Look at me! Try to calm down'' Now he's the one trying to calm me down?
''I was devastated … you were my life, my sun raised and died with you…'' Gosh, I need to stop, but all this bottle up feelings were just coming out like verbal vomit.
''Please calm down… I know we can be like we were before my love, I know…''
''…'' I need to say it.
''Alice…?''
I need to say it clearly ''But Donnie… I don't love you''
''What…''
I need to tell him '' I don't love you anymore…'' I just need to be clear with him '' I don't want to go back together with you anymore; I don't want to try it again… I move on''
He stood there quiet for a second ''obviously you are not thinking clearly… I think it will be better if you take a rest''
''NO! I WANT TO GO HOME! LET ME GO HOME! SOMEONE! HELP ME! ''
''Shhhh… Alice, don't hurt your voice like that… nobody can hear you here…''
''SOMEONE PLEASE! ''
''There, There'' Donnie lifted my limp body from the table and hugged me against his plastron. My body began trembling with anger and frustration. I felt like a rag doll.
He started doing smoothing circles on my back with his hand and as odd as it was it actually helped me calming down.
''Donnie…''
''Yes…?''
''Can I tell you something? ''
''Of course, anything you want'' he started nuzzling my neck.
''Just made sure to keep me drugged like this all the time… because once I'm able to move my body again I'll jot out your eye balls with my own hands…''
I felt his arms tightening around me '' Alice… I missed you so much. I'm the happiest''
''I'm not, I feel miserable… ''
''I love you so much…''
''I don't and I never will, never again''