AN : Hi !
This fanfiction is something I've been wanting to try for a long time.
I don't know if you're going to like it.
I'd like to apologize for my english. I try to improve it.
Please, let me know if you're interested in that story.
The story took Place after 10x05. Arizona didn't have an affair with Murphy, And didn't get back with Callie even if she poposed her to come back.
She's still leaving in an hotel room.
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« There's no pictures, and there's no heartbeat... »
Those simple words were running throught her mind constantly. She pronounced them three month ago and as if that painful event wasn't enough to shattered her world in pieces, she had totally destroyed her family for a one night stand.
She had the choice that stormy night. She could have just shake Lauren Boswell hands and then head back to her wife, with only a feeling of guilt to have been attracted to someone else. But She had yielded to the temptation.
Lauren was there when things with her wife have been so uneasy for months. The traumatism of the crash, the disgust of her body after the loss of her leg, her best friends death, Mark's and Lexie's death, the lost of that so expected baby, the anger towards her wife about the amputation. It was too much in a short period and even if things seemed to be better between them, there was too much unsaid things. Everything was difficult. And Lauren was easy...
As Arizona was totaly devasted by the miscarriage, she didn't find a way to grieve. She was depressed and sad all the time. She couldn't hide her pain.
Callie had tried to escape by plunging into work and avoid to talk about it. She tried to remain strong and supportive, but it was sometimes too hard. But when she couldn't stand the pain anymore, she hide from Arizona to cry.
So here she was, in her hotel room, alone, looking at the ceiling and feeling nothing. Callie had every right to hate her, to kick her out and she knew it. She would have surely done the same thing if the roles had been changed.
One night, Callie showed up at her door, asking for her to come back home. But even if she first felt happy and relieved, Arizona had decided to decline. She couldn't face her wife everyday and tried to be forgiven. She didn't feel able to fight for her family because she was the one who had destroy it. So, she bailed. And one more time, unsaid things had separated them. And now, she was only exchanging a few words with Callie regarding Sofia's custody, and avoiding her everyday at work.
Trying to remain strong at work was her only goal for the moment. Being able to save lifes, to heal some children, that was what kept her on trail at that time. She showed up for her daughter too. She tried to make her Sofia happy every time she was with her. They were doing a lot of things together, sharing happy moments.
« There's no pictures, there's no heartbeat »
She dreamed about that day again and again. Alone on the examination table, noticing the worrying look in the obstetrician eyes during the ultra sound. As soon as she told her that the fetus was nowhere to be found or heard, she knew. She hasdn't wait for her to try to localise it a last time. She had just packed her stuff and headed to the OR where Callie was retained. She had waited for her for hours before telling her. Callie was so happy as she asked her the picture. Her smile, that bright and shining smile on her face, just like the day when Arizona had ask her to have another baby, disapearing while she heard the news. And everything fell apart.
But today was an important day. She had an appointment with her lawyer and Callie's to talk about Sofia's custody and the divorce. At the same time, they could deal with all the financial business of the former couple.
She was wearing a black jacket and a black pair of slim jeans. She had that lost and empty gaze that everybody noticed for month now. Following her lawyer, she entered the room and immediately saw Callie. Trying not to look at her, she sat at the other extremity of the table and let her lawyer talked for her.
« Dr Robbins is not asking for anything material. She have decided to let everything she own in the appartment where Dr Torres and their daughter are living. She's not asking anything concerning their common belongings. She just want to make a schedule for Sofia Robbin Sloan Torres custody and so we are waiting for your proposal to begin the talks. »
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