EMERALD VENOM Chapter 1, a harry potter fanfic

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Harry Potter, Linkin Park or Placebo I only own the plot.

Emerald venom

I new everyone was lying to me 'It's not your fault, It's not your fault' what did they know? Nothing! Ron didn't know I cut and he'd shared a dorm with me for 5 years. None of them had a clue but Hermione and Ginny, 'mione had found me once and had asked me about it, I had replied I'd been doing it for years and I wasn't going to stop because she said so, she told Ginny so she could have help to make me stop. But I told them I wasn't going to give up the sweet release, they said that my eyes were like emerald pools because of my tears and it hurt them to see me like that, so I said that I would make ruby pools with my crimson tears. Back to the present, I shook my head I had a party to get to.

Another thing most people don't know about me is that I play the guitar and sing, the reason I am at this party is because I have a gig. I had just got up on stage when I felt my scar tingle. It doesn't hurt anymore, only itches and tickles and only when Voldy is close. I ignored the prickle and stood up to the mic, as the music started up I caught a pair of cinnamon eyes. My friend Danni sang the rapped bits, I closed my eyes and let the words come out

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

Red eyes looked at me with wonder I myself wanted to know how much he thought was real he would never guess it was all of it

He looked up at me with I think it was hope in his eyes but it might be someone spiked my drink and I was hallucinating

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I bet he's wondering what happened to me I don't look like I did when I left Hogwarts last I had grow finally to 6' my hair reached my shoulders it had Slytherin green tips I had got contact lenses and my skin had paled drastically I had plenty of muscle from quidditch and house work i.e. gardening.

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

I had definitely grown out of my Griffindor golden boy look, black, baggy cargo pants, rolled up at the bottom, black converse with luminous green laces, no top, a black spiky dog collar around my neck and chains and bondage straps hanging of me.

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

I had three piercing's in my top right ear, my tongue pierced, my left eyebrow pierced twice, my bottom left ear once and the top of my left ear five times, but the thing I believe caught Tommy boys eye was the tattoo on my chest, it was the dark mark, but the skull was white and the snake was green with blood red eyes.

"Our next song is for those who are abused" I shouted out as the crowd roared and clapped I knew tom had seen what my relatives where like due to our connection through my scar. I started playing my guitar getting ready to sing

You are one of God's mistakes,
you crying, tragic waste of skin,
I'm well aware of how it aches,
and you still won't let me in.
Now I'm breaking down your door,
To try and save your swollen face ,
Though I don't like you anymore,
You lying, trying waste of space..

Understanding flickered through those scarlet orbs as the words reached him.

Before our innocence was lost,
you were always one of those,
blessed with lucky sevens,
And the voice that made me cry.
My Oh My.

He realized why I had rebelled against dumblebee and the fried chicken guards.

You were Mother Nature's son,
Someone to whom I could relate,
your needle and your damage done,
Remains a sorted twist of fate.
Now I'm trying to wake you up ,
To pull you from the liquid sky ,
Coz if I don't we'll both end up ,
With just your song to say goodbye.
My Oh My.

The old coot sent me back to those abusive muggle bastards again and again.

A song to say goodbye,
a song to say goodbye,
a song to say...

He understood the words were for Albus Dumbledore.

Before our innocence was lost,
you were always one of those,
blessed with lucky sevens,
And the voice that made me cry.

To tell him were my loyalties lie.

It's a song to say goodbye.

To say that I'm leaving the light side I am saying goodbye. I put my guitar back in its case and got my self some icy, water, I went over and I sat by Tom Marvolo Riddle.