Author's Note: The song in this fic is Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie. I really don't think there is a lot of angst in the story except for maybe one part. I dedicate this fic to Sassy because she was right about what I said in my other fic What Hurts the Most. Sassy, you were right. I did end up writing a Skate fic from Kate or Sawyer's point of view. Enjoy!
The smell of your skin lingers on me now.
Kate laid on her bed battling her own thoughts. Half of her said that Sawyer should've stayed while the other half said that she needed to get rid of him to move on. Kate slowly breathed in the smell of her sheets and shuddered. It smelled exactly like Sawyer's cologne. Kate sighed and closed her hazel orbs.
It's personal, myself and I. We've got some straightenin' out to do.
Kate knew in her heart that she needed to figure her own problems out by herself. She couldn't let anyone help her. It would kill them.
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket. But I've got to get a move on with my life.
Kate knew that she was going to miss Sawyer and she did miss him already. Another part of Kate knew though that she needed to move on from the crash and ultimately Sawyer.
I need to be with myself and center. Clarity, peace, serenity.
She knew that no one else could be involved with the huge mess that was her life.
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they? And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay.
Kate's life was never going to have a happy ending and she knew that. Kate knew that if she got into a relationship she would have to get out of it after a few months or else if would get worse. She slowly distanced herself from Sawyer until he had left.
It's time to be a big girl now. And big girls don't cry.
Kate knew that no matter how far along in the relationship she was, she could not cry when it ended.
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown.
Once again Kate had to retrace her steps until she forgot about Sawyer completely.