The air is still, unmoving
As though it knows
Knows what I'm about to do
It gets dark
Darker
Until it's black
Stars watch me
I know they disapprove
Everyone does
But they don't have know
Not a bird flies through the cool sky
Nothing
Nothing at all
Just like me
Worth nothing
No one cares
They never have
Don't do that
Do it better
Live purer
Don't they know I'm only human?
I can hear it calling to me
The ground below
I can smell it, too
It's sweet sent
Of future death
My death
Its rough hands
Begging me to caress
He knows I want him
I wonder
Wonder if I should fall into his arms
On my back or stomach?
I'll ask him
But before he can answer,
The trees do
They tell me,
They're coming
Hurry!
They will take you
Just like before
Before
When they wrapped me in coats
Stuck me in rooms
Lectured me about it
And when I promised
To never try again
I was freed
But they're coming back
And this time
They won't let me go
I'll be trapped
Trapped forever…
I can hear them now
Their steps so loud
Thump, thump, thump
They're almost here
Closer, closer
Suddenly
Quiet
Where are they?
Where did they go?
It doesn't matter
I'll do it this time
They won't like it
But I don't care
He calls me
I answer
I'm coming
One, two, three
Here I come
Step back
Lean forward
Let the wind carry me
It's everything I knew it would be
I fall
Fall into his arms
Rough, hard, warm
It's finally over