SEMPER FI... ALWAYS FAITHFUL. (PART 2)
Disclaimers: not mine, all Chris Carter's
Spoilers: none
Rating: G
Feedback: yes please... I wanna know what ya'll think.
She tries to deny that feeling she has deep inside, but I know she cannot. I stand by her side watching her everyday. She needs to know that I am all right before I am able to move on. I'm so happy that Samantha is alive and well, but Scully needs to let me go or I cannot move on. I watch her in her every day routine; I was there as she sat by my grave writing in that journal of hers. I smile now as I recall the words that she wrote. I knew she loved me and I loved her, if only we had told each other how we felt. She feels guilty for my death, but it wasn't her fault. Neither one of us could have known. I rest my hand on her shoulder now. She sighs quietly. She can feel me. I look over at Samantha, who is sleeping peacefully on the couch. She is beautiful and Scully's right, she does have my eyes. And also my spirit. I can't help smiling at that. I turn towards Scully. She is crying again. She has kept the tears in for so long and now she can't seem to make them stop. I need for her to know that I am okay. I don't want to leave her, but I know I must. I cry silently with her. I want so much to hold her, to tell her that all will be fine, but I cannot. She is my shield. Even if she never knew it. She has protected me more times than I can count. She even protected me against myself sometimes. I was so pigheaded sometimes. Now I wonder how she ever put up with me. But I am glad she did. She is good on the soul, easy on the eyes and mostly, she is my Scully. I will always think of her as my Scully. I know, selfish right? Well I don't care. I watch her tuck a stray strand of hair behind her ear and I smile. I was there when she woke up at her mother's. I wanted to reach out to her, wanted to make her look me in the eyes because I knew she wasn't "fine" I hated it when she did that. Denied her true feelings. No matter how scared or upset she got, she always said the same thing, "Mulder, I'm fine." I never believed her, but I often didn't push. I shudder now as I think of all the creeps we have fought over the years. I am glad she quit her job at the F. B. I. With me gone, who is going to protect her? Don't get me wrong, I know she can take care of herself. But still... SEMPER FI... ALWAYS FAITHFUL. Yah that is her. She says it describes me, but I think it relates more to her. She has been faithful to me, to her family, even to her medicine. She was always there for me, even when I was off on one of my crazy theories. I think that is what I loved most about her, how she always stood by my side. I feel myself being pulled away. This may sound cliché, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Finally my Scully has found peace. She has let me go. I love you Scully and remember... stay... always faithful.
Fox Mulder
January 21, 2001
Disclaimers: not mine, all Chris Carter's
Spoilers: none
Rating: G
Feedback: yes please... I wanna know what ya'll think.
She tries to deny that feeling she has deep inside, but I know she cannot. I stand by her side watching her everyday. She needs to know that I am all right before I am able to move on. I'm so happy that Samantha is alive and well, but Scully needs to let me go or I cannot move on. I watch her in her every day routine; I was there as she sat by my grave writing in that journal of hers. I smile now as I recall the words that she wrote. I knew she loved me and I loved her, if only we had told each other how we felt. She feels guilty for my death, but it wasn't her fault. Neither one of us could have known. I rest my hand on her shoulder now. She sighs quietly. She can feel me. I look over at Samantha, who is sleeping peacefully on the couch. She is beautiful and Scully's right, she does have my eyes. And also my spirit. I can't help smiling at that. I turn towards Scully. She is crying again. She has kept the tears in for so long and now she can't seem to make them stop. I need for her to know that I am okay. I don't want to leave her, but I know I must. I cry silently with her. I want so much to hold her, to tell her that all will be fine, but I cannot. She is my shield. Even if she never knew it. She has protected me more times than I can count. She even protected me against myself sometimes. I was so pigheaded sometimes. Now I wonder how she ever put up with me. But I am glad she did. She is good on the soul, easy on the eyes and mostly, she is my Scully. I will always think of her as my Scully. I know, selfish right? Well I don't care. I watch her tuck a stray strand of hair behind her ear and I smile. I was there when she woke up at her mother's. I wanted to reach out to her, wanted to make her look me in the eyes because I knew she wasn't "fine" I hated it when she did that. Denied her true feelings. No matter how scared or upset she got, she always said the same thing, "Mulder, I'm fine." I never believed her, but I often didn't push. I shudder now as I think of all the creeps we have fought over the years. I am glad she quit her job at the F. B. I. With me gone, who is going to protect her? Don't get me wrong, I know she can take care of herself. But still... SEMPER FI... ALWAYS FAITHFUL. Yah that is her. She says it describes me, but I think it relates more to her. She has been faithful to me, to her family, even to her medicine. She was always there for me, even when I was off on one of my crazy theories. I think that is what I loved most about her, how she always stood by my side. I feel myself being pulled away. This may sound cliché, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Finally my Scully has found peace. She has let me go. I love you Scully and remember... stay... always faithful.
Fox Mulder
January 21, 2001