Authors Notes: I do not own FF8 && on that note! This is my first fanfiction story in a year and only the second one I have ever wrote... SO I'm open to suggestions! I hope whoever reads this enjoys and if not like I said I'm open to suggestions! Thanxx :)

I can't escape.

Her face plays upon my mind.

Hell maybe its my heart.

Her beautiful face.

Raven hair dancing so gracefully in the night wind.

And innocent chocolate eyes.

Eyes that have seen so much and are still naive, sweet, caring and open.

And a smile that stopped my heart.

All I know is.

Her face is with me always.

Its all I see.

Squall Leonhart... A loner, and for sure nobody to try to get close to, for all those who have... Have done so in vain. It is not as if he is a bad person... No, but life does things to you sometimes, and it seems like the only way to get through it without being completely destroyed is to shut down, build a wall and guard yourself with everything you have inside of you... No matter how much it hurts or how lonesome it may be.

(BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!)

N/A: Growling in frustration at the shrieking sound that woke him from his deep dark solitude and reminded him that he sooner or later must join the world of the living... A thought that did not put a smile on his face... Not that much did anyways. Squall rose quickly causing him to be light headed leaning forward with his hand to his head he cursed at himself he should have known better he stayed up almost til dawn sitting alone in the dark drinking... Something he does quit often. Squall pushed through the throbbing skull and the head rush and dizzily made his way to the his bathroom in hopes that a steaming hot shower would somewhat help pull him out of this hung over daze.

(Buzz! Buzz! Buzz! Buzz!)

Squall: (frustrated at the over usage of his doorbell) I'M COMING!

Zell: (chipper) Heya Squall!

Squall: What do you want?

Zell: Gaw... Good to see you too!

Squall: Zell... What!

Zell: Well I just came by to tell you that my sister is looking for you and she's on the war path man... I'm sorry.

Squall: Great.

Zell: Squall I know she's controlling and obsessive, but Quistis is my sister and you hurt her bad, you know.

Squall: (sigh) I know. And I'm sorry I hurt her, but I explained from the beginning what we were, and she just kept pushing for more all the time, and I can't give her what she's looking for.

Zell: Yeah, I know. I told her to stop being so pushy, but that is just who she is... She's always got to be in control... Always has.

Squall: I'm sorry Zell... I'm sorry I hurt your sister, but I can't be what she wants... I will never be able to be.

Zell: (sigh) Squall I know you didn't mean for this to happen and I know your reasons why you feel this way... And that's why I thought you and Quistis would be so perfect together, because she knows too. And that's why I thought she would give you the time you needed and even understand if you could never come around. But I guess I was wrong... I'm sorry man... I'm sorry my sister is so crazy.

Squall: She's not crazy... It's normal for her to want more... I mean we dated long enough that it was time to more forward in the relationship, and she only wanted what was to be expected.

Zell: Well I just thought I would let you know that she's angry, and she plans on coming by here today and giving you a piece of her mind, and so you might want to make yourself scarce.

Squall: No... Its ok. I deserve whatever she has to say to me... Especially after the way I broke up with her.

Zell: (chuckle) Yeah. That was pretty harsh Squall.

Squall: Yeah.

Zell: Well I got to get to work... See you later... That is if my sister doesn't kill you first.

Squall: Yeah. Bye.

Zell: Bye.

N/A: Squall decided upon that note to leave the house and put off his inevitable scorning which he was nun to trilled about, and so he headed to his usual coffee shop, but just as he was about to cross the street he saw Quistis enter and with a very unhappy look plastered across her stern face. In a panic he on heel turned and headed away from the direction of the angry woman. Still desperate for coffee he went on a mission for the closet coffee shop in the city, and since he was such a workaholic and had a very specific routine that included that one lone coffee shop he had no idea where to find another one. He aimlessly wondered around for about an hour before deciding to give up his search and head home or maybe Quistis would no longer be at the coffee shop, but something in his gut told him that she wasn't going in there for coffee but really to have a confrontation with him when he finally showed his face. It was then that he saw a little brown headed girl with more energy than one person should have buzz by him with a cup of coffee in her hand humming to herself a mile a minute. And against his better judgment and and his usual character he reached out and grabbed her petite arm only to hear the most shrill scream he's ever heard followed by the coffee that he had one been craving slammed against his head, he was about to well out in pre anticipated pain only to realize that it was an ice coffee and that there was no point in doing so. He let go of the small woman but to his surprise she did not run away but instead she began hitting him, and so he backed away with his hands in the air as if to say I come in peace. Selphie stopped as she realized he had no intentions on attacking her... She put her tiny fist on her bony hips and giggled.

Selphie: (laughing at her own embarrassment) So you don't want my money or my body?

Squall: (frustrated at the frozen sticky beverage on his shaggy hair) Uh... No.

Selphie: Then why with the grabbing! you scared the life outta me!

Squall: Sorry. Directions to coffee.

Selphie: OOH! I see! Well all you do is go down...

Squall: Its ok.

Selphie: What? Why not?

Squall: Not in the mood now.

Selphie: Oh I see. TeHe. I'm so sorry.

Squall: Me too.

Selphie: I'm staying at this hotel right across the street with my best friend... You can come up and get yourself cleaned up if you would like... I mean its the least I could do for throwing my drink at you head.

Squall: No... Better go.

Selphie: You sure?

Squall: Yeah. Thanks.

Selphie: Ok then... Bye. I'm Selphie by the way.

Squall: Squall.

Selphie: Its been nice and interesting to meet you Squall.

Squall: Yeah.

Selphie: Well goodbye then...

Squall: Bye.

N/A: Squall walked away wet, sticky, freezing cold and frustrated at himself for being spontaneous enough to interact with some random girl and for his love of coffee and at the girl for hurling it at his head. He sighed and walked as fast as he could to his house only to see a very angry Quistis sitting on his front steps. He sighed and walked up to her not in the mood to do whatever it was that was going to unfold between them at the moment. Quistis gave the usually tidy clean Squall a looked and seemed pleased to find him so out of sorts.

Quistis: (sarcastically) What happened to you? You look like hell.

Squall: (getting even more frustrated) Thanks. You too.

Quistis: Thank. My boy friend of a year and a half broke up with me at a beautiful restaurant he took me to for my birthday when I was hoping that it was to ask me to marry him, but I guess it was just to let me down in style.

Squall: I'm not in the mood.

Quistis: Oh Squalls not in the mood to talk about feelings... Now there's a surprise. Well guess what I am in the mood! I deserve more than a nice meal, sorry I can't do this anymore, Happy Birthday Quistis. You owe me Squall... I was patient with you for a year and a half hoping you would come around, but you never did and what do I get for it? A broken heart... That's what. Do you know how that feels Squall? No. No you don't, and you know why... because you would have to have a heart Squall, and clearly you don't.

Squall: (angry) Quistis don't.

Quistis: Or what Squall... You going to scoff at me and say "whatever"?

Squall: Shut up Quistis! Just shut up ok! You never were patient with me... You have been pushing me to move faster and faster in this relationship everyday we have been together when from the very start I told you I didn't have it in me and if we were going to be together it didn't mean anything serious and knowing me you should know I meant it... And I have gone along with everything you wanted! When you wanted to go from just having our one night stands and go on dates I said ok, when you wanted to go from dates to dating I said ok, when you wanted to meet each others families I said ok, and even when you wanted that stupid key to my heart necklace I said ok! But you wouldn't let this marriage thing go... No matter how much I told you it wasn't going to happen and that I care for you and didn't want to not be with you... You just wouldn't let it go. And here's why Quistis... I don't love you. I don't love anyone, and I never will... I can't and you know that. But you are just to damn selfish to think about my feelings for once.

Quistis: (hurt and feeling guilty) Squall I...

Squall: (harsh) Don't I don't want to talk anymore and you know that... Think of me for once and just leave me the hell alone so I can finally for once just be by myself... Just the way I want it.

Quistis: Ok Squall... I'll go. Goodbye.

N/A: Squall just stood there ready for this soap opera to be over with... He felt bad for the way he spoke to her, but at the same time he felt free from her and all the expectations she had for him that he could never and never wanted to live up to.

Authors Notes: I know this one was a shot one but the rest will be longer I've just got to get sleep tonight so I can write lots this weekend school and works got me tired and busy but I have nothing to do on the weekends and have been working on this story for awhile and am ready to get it posted! So hope you enjoy what I do have until tomorrow!