Overly dried out mouth, every last muscle aching, eyes glued shut with exhaustion, and that's just the beginning of it. It has been a year and 3 days since my whole life changed. I rolled over onto my back, judging by the sliver of sun creeping through the boarded up windows it was about 4 pm. As I sat up, I stared about my apartment.

I snorted aloud, if you called this an apartment, then you've been never had a real home. I dragged my sore body out of bed and staggered to the bathroom, a frightful zombie met me in the mirror. I'm only 15 and I have the worry lines of a 40 year old and the bags under my eyes of a senior citizen. I'm guessing if I could get a couple decent nights of sleep those would disappear, if only sleep came that easy.

I turned on the water for the shower and stepped in after removing my clothes and piling them on top of countless others. I let the water run over me and calm me for a while. After going through the whole shower thing I stepped out and tried to find something to wear that wasn't too dirty.

I settled on a black V-neck dress that comes to mid-thigh. I grabbed a pair of worn converses and laced them up quickly. Just in time, I heard beating on my door followed by a gruff voice saying, "Hurry the hell up, bitch. Your on my clock, not your own."

I ran to the door and threw it open, hurrying down the stairs behind the only person that has kept me alive since the accident. James is also the reason I have lost everyone that has ever mattered, yet I can't leave him. Its not like I'm dating him or anything, it's more like a "pimp" thing. That sounds really bad, but when you lose everything, even bad is something to hold on to.

"Tonight, things are going to be a little different, get me?" James said as he stalked to his black Lincoln. I hurried into the passenger side and he gave me the details.

This is how it normally went, he told me what to do and I did it. If I asked questions, it would be more difficult and painful. I learned this very quickly, and I learned it the hard way. I'm very head strong, but he has the power to destroy that with his connections.

"Tonight, you'll go to the normal spot and meet your new best friend, do whatever she says, you know." He said, a small smile played at the corners of his mouth as he said, "If you do, I'm pretty sure this is the last time you'll have to listen to me. Now run along, you have fifteen minutes, don't be late, we wouldn't want to keep her waiting."

With that he opened the door and shoved me out, and sped off. This was VERY different from what normally went on. I walked to short distance to the dingy alley I normally met my clients in.

As I walked past the regulars I made it to the end where I normally stood. About ten minutes later, a tall hooded person walked straight down to where I stood. I couldn't tell if it anything other then the fact they were tall and pale. The alley jutted to the left at the end and I slowly stepped past the corner, if I was supposed to meet them, they would follow.

Finally, he/she walked around the corner and motioned me to follow. I followed obediently all the way down and out the alley and up the road to an abandoned apartment complex. It was really dark inside when they opened the door and I swear I saw a rat scurry out. Not the normal place you would catch me at. I hesitated at the door until the person swept around and dragged me in.

I tried to scream but couldn't, or either I just decided it would be best not too. I just gave up, thinking back, it would probably be best if I died. No one would miss me, no one I would hurt, everything would be better. No more pain, I'll just leave and be at peace, finally.

I didn't struggle while they dragged me up the stairs and only murmured once to tell them to make it quick. The hood fell back and they dropped me at the top of the stairs in a room, I looked him over.

He was tall and muscular with blond hair; he couldn't be much older than me. His eyes were so startling; they were such a vivid red. He stared curiously at me for a long moment then laughed.

"Your younger then he said. No matter, you want another life? Do you want be stronger, better, and beautiful?" he asked, not waiting for an answer, he pulled me close, whispering in my ear so low it was barley audible, " Don't fight it, just go with it."

He bit into my neck and a burst of fire spread through my veins, slowly traveling all the way to my toes. Like my bones had been set on fire in the middle and spread outwards. I tried to scream, but nothing came out. The fire wouldn't stop and I couldn't move.

I pass out somewhere around there, only to wake to hear the blond guy talking to a girl. I tried to move, or talk, or something, but I couldn't. I felt as if I had a bad case of strep throat except 24325489 times worse. It burned so bad; I couldn't even think straight, I only listened.

"She's the second young one this week, Riley. TOO SMALL! She won't due, not this one." The girl screamed fiercely. "Get rid of her, I think the change killed her anyways."

"But she was all I could find, I'm sorry, please forgive me." He pleaded, "I'll get rid of her, as you wish."

"Sometimes I don't know why I keep you around, you can't even follow simple orders. I'm building an army of vampires, I don't need small week KIDS. Go now." She yelled dismissing him.

I was numb all over but I was aware of my movement, rapidly I began to move. We were outside, it was around 5 in the morning, we finally stopped in a landfill.

"Useless, everything I do." He mumbled as he dropped me on to a pile of trash like I was an old bag of nothing. As soon as I was down, he left.

I was nothing, never have been anything better. All my life, that's all I have been told. I should have died with the rest of my family that night. I had no right to live and all of them die. It was my fault anyways….the burning in my throat got increasingly worse and I couldn't even think. I made a gurgling noise and heard someone talk.

"Whos the- oh my god, what the hell!" the calm voice of a male cracked….

So, I dunno, but I felt like writing, so tell me if I should keep this story up or am I just wasting my time.

Thanks.

Xoxo-k