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Description: Alice has an accident while hunting, and with that she has a flashback from when she was still human to her life in the asylum and finally her life with her love, Jasper.

Rating: T for language, and some implied themes.

(Alice POV)

"Jazzy! Come on im really thirsty, and I want to hunt!" It had been weeks since the last time I had hunted, the family had gone a few days ago but I wanted to go with Jasper. He was being extremely slow, even for a human. Him and Emmett were down stairs playing some stupid video game.

"Just one second love, im winning, almost done!" his voice drifted up the stairs, it had to be one of the sweetest sounds in the world, so soft, gentle, yet rugged at the same time. The burning in the back of my throat felt like flames, licking the sides of my throat, burning with desire of the warm red liquid flowing into my mouth, the venom pooled in my mouth even thinking about it. In that instant I conjured up a plan to get Jasper off his god damn video game and come hunting with me so I didn't have to go alone.

I walked down the arched hallway, the beige carpet barely caressing my toes as I glided down to the balcony by the stairs. Without a moments hesitation I sprung from the 3 rd story balcony into the living room. I watch jasper and Emmett hunched over their controllers, pressing buttons on them like maniacs, both of their backs facing away from me.

I walked over to the back of the couch touching Jasper's back, slowly I leaned down so my lips were almost touching his ear, my other hand slid down his chest, then coming up to his neck the back down repeatedly.

"Jasper," my lips now at his ear, my voice was soft barely a whisper. "May we please go hunting now, you can come back to your game when we are finished." My tongue lightley touched his earlobe; I heard his sharp intake of breath but continued my game, running my lips up and down his jaw line, letting my breath blow across his alabaster skin. "Please?" My voice was breathy as I placed a small peck at the corner of his mouth. He had stopped playing his game and was silent. I knew my idea had worked out flawlessly.

"Of course darlin', didn't mean to keep you waitin'. My apologizes." His southern drawl coming out.

Seduction. The perfect way to get what I want. I laughed at that thought as Jasper stood up and wraped his arm around my waist, I had almost forgot Emmett's presence until Jazz said good-bye to him.

"Whipped," Emmett muttered under his breath as Jasper and I left the house and ran into the forest, his arm still secured around my waist.

Once about half a mile into the forest we slowed to a walk, and taking each other's hands.

"There is a herd of deer by the stream," I smirked, still happy about my victory for Jazz's attention over the video game.

He chuckled his deep throaty laugh; "your feelings of triumph are coming off of you like a hurricane."

"Well, I was able to get you to come with me in the middle of your game war." I had a feeling my smile that was plastered on my face looked mischievous. I liked it.

"Speaking of that, I think you owe me something that was atleast implied in your actions back there." I knew instantly what he was trying to get at.

"I do?" My eyes widened in mock innocence as I stared up at him damn he was tall.

"Mhmm," was his only answer as he slowly backed me into a tree. He put both hands on either side of my head as he stared into my eyes; his were scorching, molten as the edged closer and closer. I smiled as I thought of a fun little idea.

"Jasper?"

"Hmm?"

"Can you do something for me?" suspicion was obvious on his perfect features.

"Anything"

"Can you close your eyes," he obeyed, "count to fifty, and…" while his eyes where closed I dashed under his arms and around so that my mouth was at his ear, once again, "catch me," I whispered into his ear before giving him a peck on the cheek.

I sprinted through the forest I could hear him already chasing my scent. He was being careful not to make any decisions that I would see. I ran into a small round area since it was fall the ground was covered in a delicate blanket of multi-colored leaves, twigs act. So I had to extra careful of my footing. Of course I over looked a small twig, and it broke under the pressure of my foot, making an audible crack that seemed extremely loud. I only had a few seconds before he would find me and out game of hide and seek would be over. With a quick decision I climbed up a tree so fast I would have looked like a blur to inferior human eyes.

I perched on the highest branch, easily over 100 feet up in the air if not more. I looked down at the small clearing I had been in only a few seconds ago, as I predicted Jasper was there in a playful half crouch, eyes roaming everywhere but where they should be. Unable to help myself a small giggle escaped my lips, which I knew he heard.

"Ah fuck," I rarely ever cursed but I was really hoping on playing my game for longer. I tried to jump onto the next tree, with little hope of escaping and playing for longer; Jasper was too fast for me. Long strong arms wrapped their way around my waist with ease. And before I knew it I had my back pressed up against the tree, and soft lips crushed against my own.

" Such language from a young woman such as you," he chuckled against my lips his warm breath blew into my mouth intoxicating me. "I do hope Esme isn't in hearing distance or you will be in trouble for that."

"So don't tell," I knew he was right; Esme really doesn't like her 'children' using such language even if most of us are or almost are a hundred years old.

I pulled Jasper closer to me knotting my hands in his hair and pulling him tighter to me with such pressure that if he weren't a vampire I probably would have crushed them by now. Jazz's hand slowly slid down my back, thigh and then hooked itself around my calf.

"We should probably wait till we are for one not thirsty and second aren't in a tree, it wouldn't be good if we broke it." I laughed and reluctantly pulled away. He gave a nod.

"So Im guessing the deer are gone so what is there left to eat?" at that I searched the future, seeing a bear and mountain lion.

" Well there is a bear and a mountain lion," this seemed to please him, " dibs on the lion!" I shouted raising my hand and jumping out of the tree, landing with a soft thump on the ground.

We fallowed the scent and split up when they went in different directions. I found the lion sun bathing in what little light had made its way through the clouds and treetops, on a large gray rock. I stalked him from behind, I don't believe the oversized cat even knew I was there, or maybe it just didn't care, I crouched down and pounced, sinking my teeth into my preys golden coat, I didn't even realize the fight it was putting up all I was aware of was the warm liquid ooze into my mouth and calm the flames of my internal fire. All to soon the animal was dry and I was full, I heaved the carcass off myself and started walking to find Jasper who must be done already.

At first it started as a small tickle inside me then it grew, like something was tearing me a part inside. I screamed in pure agony as my knees buckled under me, my arms were tight across my stomach where most of the pain was coming from. I let out another screech as I fell to the ground hitting my head on something, probably a rock, but I didn't feel it, all I could feel was this monster inside me or whatever it was.

"Jasper!" before I could finish I was in dry sobs as the pain continued, I knew he was there as I was being cradled tightly to his chest being rocked back and forth.

"Alice?! Whets wrong?!" panic painted his voice but I could barley hear him over my whimpers and cries, I wish I could tell him what was wrong cause that would mean I myself knew.

"Jasper! Make it stop please make it stop! It hurts too much! Make it stop!" my pleas were all mixed together as my voice broke with tearless sobs, and my shriek of agony ripped through the forest. As soon as I could realize we were flying through the forest, one hand was clutched to his shirt the other to my stomach.

The last thing I heard was Jaspers sweet voice full of worry, concern, and love, " I'm gonna make it go away Alice, I love you." And then everything went black and all my senses were gone, just the black, nothing to hold onto.