YAOI Freakin' Yaoi! have fun, don't like it then turn around now and don't waste your time with flames.
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Minor updates.. sorry guys still considering the sequel.
On a late Thursday night Ratio wandered around the main surveillance room, within' the limits provided due to the chain that connected himself with his temporary counterpart. Monitors buzzed and crackled in front of the infamous detective L. The messy black top of his head stood just over the brim of his chair.
While walking towards the main computer Ratio glanced at the, over 70, monitors and noted everyone's unconscious or near unconscious states. With a shrug he ignored the rarity of the situation; after all this was the third, fifth for some, day up in search for Kira. In order to chase the exhaustion away Ratio continued to pace. The stress on him self doubled with each month and each step foreword. On these down times he took his chance to calculate everything that needed to be done. He could never relax. This was for two reasons: One, he was stuck with L at all times and L practically lived in the control room where there is no where to relax. The room held such a cold and sterile feel to it, if you ignored the unique aroma of overworked men and deserts of all sorts. Second, if Ratio ever truly relaxed he would be open. And that is in no possible way allowed. At no points would he allow himself to be taken off guard.
Having paced off his desire to sleep, Ratio returned to L's side. It had become such a natural action. In any breakthrough, or if anything more than a mundane action occurred it was straight to L's side. In all situations. In boredom, loneness, action, or as a practiced action. There was always a spot next to L. 'A spot just for me... always open...' Ratio began to bemuse but with a slight shake of the head, banished the thoughts as trivial and unbecoming.
Ratio had become accustomed to the detective's little, well many and large, quirks. The way he fidgeted his big toe and his opposite second toe, his habit to get carried away when eating and chew up a wrapper or two, or his sad and horrible addiction to sugar did not escape Ratio's eye. Neither were the random and abnormally strong urges that seized L in the middle of the night when, as Ratio thought of it, he suffered from sugar withdrawals.
Also his outstanding ability to shrug off sleep with a few yawns and some more sweets. But apparently six days was too much; even with all those Red Bean desserts. L was asleep. Though this minor detail escaped Ratio until he attempted to question said detective about the progress thus far. When silence was his only response the young man glanced down to find L still in his position on the chair. His head slumped foreword onto his knees and sporting the most adorable speckles of drool that collected in the corner of his mouth. This man who caused Ratio so much stress, who controlled the police of the world was asleep in his chair and drooling.
Ratio couldn't help the smirk that spread across his face.
Deciding to at least clean him up a bit Ratio leaned forward and used the end of his sleeve to clean-up the drool. The light touch jolted L awake. 'I should've known.. I Know he's a light sleeper. Why in the hell did I think that this would work?' Ratio accosted himself without showing his thought physically. To do so would show weakness, something totally and utterly not allowed.
The awkward pause of L sitting and Ratio leaning over him seemed to last forever but in reality was only mere minutes.
'What's he planning? By trying to seduce me what goal can be attained? My name? Is he testing my sexuality? Does he know I'm Bi? Does he plan on finding out if I am? What would he gain from any sort of information along those lines? Perhaps for a personal conquest? There is the possibility that he is trying to see my immediate reaction and then gauge his interest in me. But in me? Me? Of all people? Me and my quirky, stubborn self would only be a burden. What about Misa-chan? Doesn't he care for her? He does seem a bit stressed when around her… Maybe this is all simply to seduce me and find out my real name. After all me must be Kira. That has to be his only goal. But if he isn't Kira... could this be genuine interest? Ratio-kun interested in me? Maybe this is all just induced delusions from a lack of sleep… He was looking at porn before. Perhaps he is Bi as well? But they defiantly weren't playgirls. He's shown almost no signs of homosexual tendencies. He Could be in the closet. Maybe he's acting on impulse? He might not even know if he's gay yet... maybe he's aiming to find out if he is or not? But when we were watching him in the safety of own room, he still didn't show any signs. He could have known there were cameras there and purposefully bought those magazines to convince us that he was acting normally. He is easily considered above average. Ratio-kun could hide that side of himself. Hell if he's Kira like I believe he is then he can hide anything about himself. I wonder what his opinion of homosexuality is anyways? Does he realize, if his aim is anything close to a relationship, this is quite possibly the worst possible time…'
Even in the whole 1.75 of a second that passed, L was still incapable of determining if Ratio's intention were pure.
'Can L's eyes get any larger? That innocent look suits him. Actually the only other time I saw his eyes that wide was when Kira2 almost leaked the existence of Shinigami.'
In a very out of character snort Ratio broke the silence.
"What's so funny Ratio-Kun?" L practically cooed in a vain attempt to shift the embarrassment of the situation to Ratio by making the situation uncomfortable. Unfortunately for L, Ratio saw that move from a mile away. After all he would've done the same exact thing.
"I was thinking you looked as innocent a second ago as you did when Kira2's message spoke of Shinigami and you fell from your chair. You do remember don't you?" Ratio replied truthfully, ending the statement with a questioning challenge and an equally bold smirk. He had managed to counter L's attempt to shift the embarrassment and issue a challenge of sorts in one swoop.
Since the beginning of the 'incident' neither male had moved an inch. Both had managed to recover their composures but suffered the same due to their close proximity: Deeper, shorter breaths, racing minds, a fine line of sweat at the brow and budding erections at the prospect behind the situation.
In a desperate act to find the meaning behind this, and again to shift any and all embarrassment to Ratio, L tried to call his position out and play on society's overall discomfort with homosexuality. Though the question took far more courage than L expected to muster.
"Do you like me sexually Ratio?"
"More than sexually." Ratio said coolly before he could stop himself. The question itself and his response to it did cause a bit of surprise on Ratio's part but what truly caught his attention was how L dropped the honorific '–kun' from his name. That privilege was typically reserved for family and lovers…
L is known for jumping into uncharted territory, typically though with full heed of the risks. Like when he confronted Ratio at the college admissions ceremony and announced to him his true identity.
"Am I wrong in thinking it's mutual?" Ratio continued after the briefest of pauses.
"What would give you that idea?"
"Ah, no denial. Maybe because those analytical stares of yours have become a bit softer." Ratio began while slipping the hand closest to L's face upward to cup his cheek. 'What the hell am I saying? It's all true!! Why am I playing with his hair?! Shut-up Ratio, God Damn it, before you say something you Really shouldn't!' Ratio's rational mind ranted the entire time the scene was being enacted. There was no rationality behind what has happening. And when did Ratio start to notice L's stares had softened? Where was all this courage and Suave Devin air coming from? "Or perhaps because you have yet to push me away?" Ratio concluded.
L blinked a few times. He has actually been caught completely off guard. After spending month after month with the man L was still incapable of figuring him out. Though he fundamentally reacted the same to specific situations his abilities and thought processes were always surprising. For example, how Ratio had caught onto the nascent interest that L himself was scarcely aware of.
"So now who moves first?" L questioned his voice barely over that of a whisper. Throughout the entire ordeal, eye contact was not once broken and the distance between the two slowly began to fade. Each one searching the other's face, hoping one would crack and admit a falsity behind what was happening. Claim to have just been messing around, or playing a practical joke. That way the true interest could be buried, along with the pain it was sure to bear. Neither felt ready to handle what might develop. If Kira was found then L would be forced to turn over Ratio to be executed. If this were explored would L have what it takes to do it? And if Kira were almost caught and Ratio where forced to kill L in turn, would he be able to muster the strength to do it?
Not only that but the situation itself would never work. They are in the middle of an investigation! They being in a relationship of any sort that wasn't friends or colleagues would prove as an interference. Along with that there would be No privacy of any sort for the two of them. Thanks to L there were no blind spots in the entire building… except for the very location they were at.
Should they? Could they? It would prove to be incredibly difficult to resist one another when they would have to shower or dress. And there was Mori Mori? Not that he truly cares for her. His interest is elsewhere but his plans may very well fall through is he doesn't have her to help him. But L's face was so close to his. During their contemplations their bodies took the initiative and urged towards the other. When both males returned to the present L had his knees down, and Ratio was practically on top of the detective and pulling him upward with the same hand that was once cupping his cheek.
"We shouldn't." L whispered, though he offered no resistance and continued to inch foreword.
"I know." Ratio replied seconds before they kissed.
All logic screamed no but it was too late.
An addiction was born.