Amy's grandmother Mimzy's health had gotten worse so the entire family had all moved up there for the summer to be there with her. Even Amy's fiancee' Ricky had moved up there with them and had gotten a job up there for the summer. The Juergens house had remained still and quiet for the entire summer. Adrian couldn't say she was entirely unhappy about that. Since Ricky had kissed her and left her life in even more tatters if that were possible she hadn't been on speaking terms with Amy, Ricky, or any of their friends or family members. Adrian in truth had been relieved when they had packed up and left only a few days after Amy and Ricky had gotten engaged and the horrible events that had unfolded at the party. Adrian wasn't sure that friendship could ever be mended or if she even really wanted to try to either. But what she regreted most of all was how she had hurt those the night of the party.
Ben had been crushed when he had learned of what had happened between Adrian and Henry. And Alice had been devastated at finding them together after all she and Henry had shared. But Adrian knew she couldn't change it or make amends. But she wanted to so badly. Ben hadn't talked to her since she had told him how sorry she was after everything and she never meant to hurt him. When she told him she almost heard a piece of his heart break off and she could see the pain within his eyes and this time it was because she had hurt him. And she hated herself for that. Even as the months had passed by she still couldn't make herself feel better after everything.
When graduation came she felt like she was starting a new chapter only to find that many of those chances were gone now. Omar wouldn't return her calls or her texts. She had even stopped by his apartment but no one had been home. She knew that there was no chance of that relationship now because of what Ricky had chosen to do that night, at that moment in front of half the graduating class and several strangers. It crushed her. She only knew that when fate had handed down his horrible answer to her when her child was taken from her she should have some happiness. She knew she had loved Ricky and he had made her happy at least some of the time. And she wanted what she felt she had lost. She now knew the choice had been wrong. She knew she didn't really love Ricky anymore now at all. She knew he was with Amy and John and she now accepted that.
She thought she could start over, really start over with Omar. He was a nice guy and he had his life together, but that wasn't meant to be either. So Adrian had made the choice to just seclude herself from the rest of the world at least for the summer. Adrian wiped away the tears with her hand. She knew in her heart that the one person that she really wanted to be with and have a life together didn't want to be with her. He had been hurt by her and probably even hated her. But she loved him. She really loved him alot. But she had let him go and he went just like that. She wanted Ben. But the chances of them repairing their broken life together was one in a million.
Adrian looked at her phone once again. She decided maybe they could try to at least be friends again. She had to try. She felt herself slipping away more each day and the sadness pushed down on her more every moment that she was left in this hole. She could feel herself slipping away and she felt that if she didn't try to talk to someone who knew what she was going through she would finally wake up and not recognize the person in the mirror anymore. And Ben was the only one that knew what she was going through cause he was going through it too. So she took the plunge and dialed his cell phone and let it ring.
"Hello?" She heard Ben say.
"Ben. It's Adrian." Adrian said nervously into the phone.
"Adrian? How have you been?" Ben said.
"I'm ok. I miss you Ben. I know that I hurt you and I know I don't deserve your forgiveness. And you probably don't want to hear from me ever again. But on the chance that you do can you forgive me for what I did?" Adrian said as she could feel hear heart beating faster.
"Yes Adrian. I have forgiven you. I just thought you could use some space to get your thoughts together and concentrate on school. I could never hate you Adrian. I will always love you Adrian." Ben said in a soft voice.
"I love you too Ben. Thank you for giving me another chance. I really want us to be friends and stay in each other's lives. If that is too much for you what I am asking though I completely understand. I will be as close or far as you want Ben." Adrian said hopeful in the phone.
"Stay real close always Adrian." Ben said.
"I will. Thank you for loving me and accepting me Ben. I felt so alone here by myself. It has been a really hard time for me these last few months. I feel like my life was in ruins. And I just don't know how to pick up the pieces after al that has happened." Adrian said as her emotions overcame her and she let her tears fall.
"Adrian... I love you and I always will. You are a wonderful person who has been through a horrible year. We both have. And I know what you mean about picking up the pieces of your life. I find myself struggling with that. Are you gonna be alright Adrian? I have been worried about you all summer even after everything that happened. I was calling your dad every day and he would tell me how you were. But I thought maybe you needed me to stay away for a while. But maybe that wasn't the right thing after all." Ben said with concern in his voice.
"You did? My dad never said anything about that at all. Not that I have seen him or my mom much this summer. My mom has been flying alot and my dad has had huge cases all summer long. Wait. I thought that you and Dylan were dating. Aren't you?" Adrian said as she was trying to control her tears.
"Um no that didn't work out after all. She is a nice enough of girl but I just wasn't ready to jump back into a relationship after everything. And I asked your dad not to say anything. I didn't want to upset you Adrian. I know you have been through a lot and your still going through alot. And I know that the day when we found we were having a little girl is coming up in a few days and I know that you are probably struggling with that and everything. I know that I am having a hard time with it. Whenever I think about her I feel happy and yet so sad. I just want us to both be happy Adrian and I would like to be your friend again. If you'll let me be. Will you Adrian?" Ben asked quietly into the phone.
"Yes. I am having a hard time with it. But I just keep pushing through the pain and emotion and keep going on. I feel like I have been running from my life Ben. I have to face it this is my life and I just want to run from all the pain and heartache. I just want to start over Ben. Can't I just start over?" Adrian said as another wave of tears hit you.
"You can. But only when you really let yourself deal with the pain and the loss Adrian. I think you have only scratched on the surface of a mountain. But I'll be there for you Adrian. I will help you through this. I only want to see you happy Adrian. We both deserve that after losing our child. It is a horrible tragedy that no one should ever have to face in this life. But it happened and no matter how far you run or how fast it will catch up with you Adrian. Because it always does. We can move on and change or lives completely but we cannot erase the past or the scars it has left on our heart after everything. I wish I could take away your pain but I can't. I can only be there for you Adrian. Why don't you let me come over and we can talk." Ben said into the phone.
"Ok. It will be good to see you." Adrian said as she wiped away her tears once more.
"Alright. I will be there in a few mintues. And I am glad you called Adrian. See you soon." Ben said into the phone and hung up.
Adrian hung up her phone and put it on the table. Then she put her hands to her face and cried all the tears, pain, frustration, loss, and sadness that she had been holding back for months and finally let it all come to the surface and come out. Then after a few more minutes of crying Adrian felt strong arms around her. She looked up and it was Ben. She embraced him and put her head on his should and they both held one another while Adrian cried all of the tears she had been holding back but she wasn't alone this time Ben was there with her.