Everyone has Emotions Spock
It was late, even for me –a Vulcan- to be up. As my calculations went it was exactly 11:21. I needed some sleep, it would be illogical to do otherwise but I had to stop somewhere else first. I had to stop at cadet uhura's cabin. As she went to sleep early every night I always went to check.
I do not know why I do this, it is part of my… routine as one might say. I find a comfort in watching her sleep soundlessly. On a few occasions a phenomenon happened that actually truly made me want to...laugh. O those few occasions Nyota uhura would speak in her sleep. Almost every time I heard her do this it was always about reoccurring memories. Many in fact about Starfleet.
As I slowly opened her door I noticed something different about her look tonight. Her long hair was hanging loose which was very enticing and she was wearing a long white nightgown. She also looked cold, so out of immediate reaction and the thoughts of my rational mind I pulled her darkly colored coverlet over her small, thin frame.
Then I noticed that her brow was furrowed and that she looked very confused. I also had the sudden convulsion to lean down and kiss her forehead as my mother did when I was confused as a small child. I shook the image out of my mind, I cold hold my emotions in but at the back of my mind I could hear a small voice chanting 'I love you Nyota' but I couldn't think that it would be illogical.
My thoughts were interrupted by a small mumble. Looking down I saw her lips moving slightly, I also wondered what it would be like to have her lips against mine. Shaking that thought out of my head again I realized that she was talking. "but… everyone has emotions, right?" she whispered. I could usually guess what she was talking about but this one had me.
"That's not true and you know it… there are many people who care about you, including me." she said slightly louder. She looked slightly frustrated and I did something out of sheer instinct that I had never done before. I picked up one of her small, beautiful hands and began stroking it. "shhh, it's okay Nyota calm down." I cooed to her. I soon realized what I was doing and stopped but for a reason that I was not aware of I couldn't bring myself to putting her hand down.
It was also for that unknown reason that something came out of my mouth that I thought I would never say. "I love you Nyota" before I could take it back which I did not want to, I really loved her. She whispered something too. "Everyone has emotions Spock, sometimes they cant control them and sometimes they are misunderstood…but one thing I do understand is that I love you Spock and nothing can change that…and it isn't illogical to me."
She was soundless then and I could not believe what she had just said and if it was the truth or a dream. I could no longer help myself and I slowly leaned toward her. Ever so cautiously I landed a small kiss on her surprisingly soft lips before getting off of the corner of her bed and walking to the door. Before I left though I once again whispered "I love you Nyota" which would surely put my mind at ease for the rest of the night.