A/N - Okay, this was written at 4:04 in the freaking morning and I honestly have no idea what it's about. You just kinda have to go with it. Hopefully this sleep deprived ficclet is at least semi-worth reading ;p Also, no this isn't the HikaruKaoru fic I was talking about on my profile. This was just something my tired little shriveled up mind thought of today.
UN-beta'd
Disclaimer - Can't and won't claim to own Ouran. Even though I wouldn't mind to own Kyouya's sweet a - oh...never mind...
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Even now...Even now that that his other half has slipped away, he never could have guessed it would have been this painful. Losing the one person who really understood him, that was forced to share the same feeling of loneliness and that carried the same burdens and regrets. She'd taken that person from him so long ago...
But even now, it still hurt.
The secure feeling of always having someone else by his side slowly ebbed away the moment that homely girl walked through the giant doors of the clubroom. The connection to his special, most cherished person began to crumble and break with her appearance. Of course no one else could have possibly noticed. He was the only one; his own little secret. In retrospect, he could have prevented it. All of his sadness and sorrow; his anger and humilliation at his own weakness.
It was so obvious that at that time Tamaki was in love with her. If only he had tried to push those two together. His precious brother, his best friend and the person he loved more than anyone would still be...He would still be...
'If it wasn't for her, Hikaru would still be alive...'
Thin streams of tears slowly escaped from the corners of his eyes as he looked down from the roof of the school. Shaking his head of any doubts, he pulled on the sleeve of his shirt to wipe his face. He closed his eyes and let himself fall.
'Tamaki, I don't blame you. You're still, even at this moment, a close friend. Kyouya-sempai, Mori-sempai, Hunny-sempai, I'll miss all of you. To you, I hope you burn in hell...'
Turning over to face up towards the sky, a smile graced his face as tears freely fell.
'Brother, I'm so sorry. I'll be with you soo - '
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Yea, it's really weird...I think I kinda had a plot going and just rushed this to get to sleep, I don't know. Taking the whole 'romance square' that they all had going on for a while, I made this little angst. Hikaru couldn't take not being the one Haruhi was in love with and killed himself...o.o...
I think I really wanna try and make this a full length fic or at least a full oneshot. Please tell me what you guys think in the comments section. I'm curious if people would want to read it or not before I start writting.