People say which is better; Saying something and wishing you hadn't or saying nothing and wishing you had? For me it changes everyday depending on the turns the day takes. A few weeks ago I kissed my best friend, we were undercover and trying to save our colleges but it's still a kiss… two actually. After that kiss I say that it was amazing but then she looks at me and go back on myself covering it with the way she span out of the kiss to knock the guard out. She had just stared at me for a minute searching my eyes looking for anything before she turned to go and save our friends. Ten minutes after that moment I found myself pounding a guys face because he was going to kill her, my best friend the love of my life. She walked over to me as I sat in the back of an ambulance after getting my hand wrapped in gauze, jokingly calling me Chuck Norris and laughing about the boys before she turned serious. I stared into her eyes as she thanked me for having her back in there and I answered in the only way my mind would let me, with one simple word with so much meaning behind it, the word being 'Always'. I know she saw what I meant that I would be there for anything, anytime if she needed me. I could tell she was puzzled slightly by my serious side see has only seen it once or twice before.
Then a few cases later Kate and I need to go undercover again this time in a club. We had left the precinct and went to her apartment for her to get changed she came back into the main room looking absolutely stunning. We then went back to my loft and I got changed I came out to see her sitting on the couch talking to my mother about trying to honor Chet's memory somehow. And before we left as usual we argued over who was driving and a usual she won and drove my shiny red Ferrari to the club. As soon as we got inside she danced her way through to the bar and told me to get drinks and then she wandered off in search of the dealer. My eyes followed her checking her out as she went, and unfortunately she turned and caught me giving me the 'stop it I own a gun' look. Once I had brought the drinks and approached her, and personally I found it so hot the way she had our guy pinned to the table.
A few weeks after that we got quarantined together and she was saying she wanted a relationship where she could just dive in with that guy. Just before I could tell her I wanted to be that guy one the guys that were in a hazmat suit walked in to tell us we were clear. A few hours later we got kicked off the case but stupidly went rouge and worked on the cases against orders. We found the place where the bomb was it was in a white van but before we could do anything someone started shooting at us. We took cover and Kate shot back, somehow we got trapped inside this freezer with a dead body! We looked for a signal but found none, I then her shots and realized Kate was shooting at the door. I managed to stop her and we slowly sunk to the floor. I remember that before she passed out that she nearly said she loved me but yet again fate got in the way. Ten hours after that we were stood together staring at the bomb holding hands. Agent Fallon just told us that he didn't know how to disarm it and with two seconds to spare I grabbed all of the wires and pulled. With zero seconds on the clock we were still alive and Kate was hugging me like there was no tomorrow. That night after drinks with the team I walked heartbroken towards the elevator. I was just about to pour my heart out to her when the stupid Dr Motorcycle Boy walked up behind her. Now that think about nearly a year ago Kate wore a similar expression to me now when I walked off with Gina… Oh Geez she was going to tell me! I am so stupid all I had to do was wait a little longer before being a gentleman and bowing out. She must have felt the same as I do now but at least I get to see her tomorrow. She didn't see me for four months no wonder she was so mad.