Loverboy Intro.
'OMG I can't believe I did it.'
'That was really stupid of me.'
'What's the worst that could happen?'
'He could just ignore it, and I can go on pretending it never happened.'
'But what if he accepts? I'll definitely have to beautify-up some of my pics...and take down a few that aren't so glamorous.'
I can not believe I had sent him a facebook friend request. I can not believe I just did that. OMG. OMG. OMG.
Today will go down in history as my bravest day that I have ever lived. In my whole life. EVER. I had just sent a friend request to the boy of my high school dreams. The guy I had dreamt about since I was in the 6th grade. The only guy that could ever make me blush. The only guy that I had ever really had feelings for.
The guy I hadn't seen in almost 7 years.
A lot could happen to a person in 7 years. People change. I know I had. I wasn't that dorky girl anymore with acne and frizzy hair. Scratch that. I still had the frizzy hair but I had learned how to control it since then. I wasn't the wall flower anymore. I held my own in conversations. I knew the proper way to apply mascara and I even was a pro at mixing up one of my world famous margaritas.
I wasn't the teenager I once. At 25 years old, I felt better than ever. Full-time adult. Had my apartment with my roommates, I had work and bills. I chose what I did with my time, and who I spent that time with. I had come into my own, as they say. So why did the meer image of him drive me crazy? Why, after all this time, did this guy have so much power over me?
I had the biggest crush on him. I'd wait outside his classroom just so I could get a glimpse of him once the school bell rang. I quicken my step in the hallway so to be near him. One time I even arrived at school 1 hour early so I could park my car close to where he had always parked his car. And for what? He never talked to me. We were not friends. He knew I liked him. That was an error I had made years previous when I make the courageous and stupid decision to write him a love letter in the 7th grade. Of course, he didn't respond. How could he have? I was overweight. I was too tall. I was not the ideal girl to date...not even for a 7th grader.
So here I was, sitting in front of my laptop. I hit the 'send friend request' sign. I logged out of facebook and closed my computer.
That was the bravest thing I had ever did.