Taking a break from writing my other fic Blaine's Sister to write my first Faberry! This story is in Quinn's point of view the entire story. Quinn is a little angsty and sarcastic in this fic but we all know she's just saying what we all think. I would love to hear what everyone thinks about this fic (I love reviews, makes me write more!) and would love it if you checked out Blaine's Sister as well. I really hope you guys like this!


I wheeled myself into the choir room and looked around at everyone, I had grown to love these people as if they were my own family at times and I've never felt so alienated. It's almost like my almost dying never stopped anyone from caring about themselves or the person they thought they loved. You see, I, Quinn Fabray, do not believe in love anymore. I had hurt and been hurt to many times to care, I hurt Sam who turned out to be a great friend to me in the end. Puck and I hurt each other countless times and now I also gained a friend in him.

The one that hurt me the most out of every guy in my life was Finn Hudson. Our relationship was toxic at best and honestly, I would love to forget it even happened. He kept flip flopping between myself and Rachel Berry so many times until I realized over the summer. Who the hell does he think he is? He isn't even that great of a guy! Yet I still sit in this wheelchair and brood over Finn Hudson not because I love him but I love Rachel.

Rachel Berry was the one girl who I hated more than anything in this world at first, yet loved at the same time. I was jealous of her at first, she got to be who she was and no matter how many fucked up things we did to her she still remained true to herself. I had always wondered if I were bisexual this whole time. I mean come on I drew pornographic pictures of Rachel on the bathroom walls that were very detailed and my best work but I couldn't bring myself to say the words, "I maybe bi" or "maybe I'm a lesbian". Uttering those words in my home was almost as bad as saying "I'm pregnant" and that didn't turn out well at all.

I wheeled up to my spot next to Artie and sighed as he turned to smile at me. He had been particularly nice to me since I got into my accident and was the only one really trying not to pity me. I was thankful for that but I think he wanted more. He would look at me with this look almost pleading me to love him all the time and I couldn't bring myself to otter my secret to anyone.

When Mr. Shuester walked in my brain instantly switched off. Not that he wasn't an alright guy sometimes but it seemed like most of the time he was pushing Finn to Rachel more than they already were.

"This week's lesson is feelings, sometimes we block away what we really think or feel and I think since some of you are graduating in a few weeks, we will finally get them off our chest this week" He said as I sighed. Who was I going to sing to? I could already tell who would sing to who; Finn to Rachel, Santana to Brittany, Sam to Mercedes, Blaine to Kurt, Puck to….well himself and Quinn would sing to nobody as usual.

"Mr. Shuester what if you don't have any hidden feelings towards a person" Sugar asked as I rolled my eyes. Why was she even in this club?

"Well Sugar it doesn't necessarily have to be hidden feelings, it could be very obvious feelings" Mr. Shue said as I saw all the happy couples making sex eyes towards each other and me wheeling away doubting anyone would notice.

"Quinn, wait" I heard teen Jesus call after me as I rolled my eyes, this kid couldn't take no for an answer I swear.

"Yes Joe" I said trying to hide all annoyance from my voice.

"I was going to sing a song for you Quinn… like right now," He said as I try to look even somewhat interested in what he's going to sing.

"Oh… ok" I said wheeling back wishing I walked so I could've walked away faster.

"This song is for Quinn. I just feel that she shouldn't lose the hope that god has given her to get through her accident" Joe said as he strums his guitar and sings Only Hope from A Walk to Remember. I think I'm going to puke, not because of his singing but because everyone is swaying and thinking, I'm going to get with him. I look over at Rachel and imagine her singing it to me, in her perfect Broadway voice. I wanted her to sing sometime to me, I wanted her to make me feel worth it.

As the song ended, everyone clapped and I faked a smile yet again. As Tina and Mike sang to each other, I was lost in thought about what I eventually would have to sing. Obviously coming out in a song wasn't an option for me. I just wished I could tell someone who wouldn't judge me or tell me I was going to hell for being who I was.

Glee club dredged on and on until finally, the final bell rang and I wheeled quickly out of class. I had made a list in my mind about who I could tell. The top three were Santana, Puck, or Blaine, I knew they wouldn't tell everyone, they wouldn't judge me and maybe could give me advice. Luckily, for me, I felt hands on the back of my wheelchair and looked up seeing Puck pushing me.

"What's up baby mama?" Puck asked as I smiled, I thought it was funny he called me that.

"Having a bit of a personal crisis, that's all," I said as Puck laughed to himself.

"Quinn Fabray, your life has been a personal crisis," He said as I looked back up at him.

"What do you want Puck, I have places I got to get to" I said getting annoyed with him.

"I just thought maybe you would like to hang out since your going to Yale soon and I'm going to LA," He said as I nodded. It would be the perfect chance for me to tell Puck. I knew I could trust him since he didn't tell everyone he was Beth's father.

"Sure but just as friends though. No monkey business" I said as he wheeled me out the door and into the cool spring Lima air. He walked me to his house, which wasn't far from McKinley and helped my wheelchair into the house.

"So Fabray, what's this personal crisis all about?" He asked as he turned on the TV and I smiled almost ready to spill the beans.

"Well… Over last summer I changed a lot" I started as Puck interrupted me.

"You can say that again," He said as I playfully smacked him.

"You're not helping, anyway, during my summer I came to the realization that…" I stopped myself and took a deep breath wondering if I should even say this to Puck.

"I… am in love with someone I can't have," I said, as Puck looked shocked.

"Damn it Quinn, Finn has Rachel, you need to just let him go and let them get married and be miserable" Puck said almost scolding me.

"Puck what would make you think I want Finn?" I asked as me looked at me seriously.

"You tried to talk Rachel out of marrying him, you want them to break up," He said trying to think of more reasons until it finally dawns on him.

"Rachel…." He said almost breathlessly staring right at me as I nod to him looking down.

"Does this mean you're a lesbian or…" He asked as I shook my head.

"I'm bisexual Puck… I just prefer Rachel," I said feeling like a five hundred pound weight had been lifted off my chest. It was finally good to say it out loud to someone other than myself.

"So I didn't make you gay or anything?" Puck asked as I rolled my eyes.

"No you didn't make me gay, Finn might have though," I said with a laugh as Puck laughed.

"Baby Mama, what are we going to do with you?" He asked hugging me tightly. I'm glad he had accepted me for who I was and didn't judge me.

"What am I going to do about Rachel?" I asked seriously, as Puck's happiness stopped.

"Have you said anything to her?" He asked as I looked at him obviously.

"You're the first person I have told I was even Bi Puck" I exclaimed as he nodded.

"Well you need to talk to her," He said, as I looked at him shocked.

"Yeah because that's going to be great, oh hey Rachel, I'm Bi and I've been in love with you since sophomore year. She would laugh in my face and then tell everyone that I was a lesbian just to humiliate me," I said looking down my situation started to look really bleak. I didn't want this to be like one of those sad stories of unrequited love.

"Did you just say love?" Puck asked not really grasping where I was going with this.

"That's not the point," I said trying to change the subject quickly.

"Quinn, you just need to tell her. Rachel wouldn't ruin your life like you think. Who knows, maybe my fantasy will come true and you two will make out" He said raising his eyebrows as I looked at him very annoyed.

"Why do I even come over?" I said sighing in my usual Fabray annoyance.

"Because I give the best advice Baby Mama," He said standing up and walking away from the couch.