Dear Journal,
It's been a while since we last spoke but today something crazy happened.I ran into somebody from the past. Somebody I thought I would never see again. Someone who I used to be so in love with but ended up breaking my heart badly.
That's right, It was Emerald!
She was just standing there, right outside the grocery store of all places.
I couldn't believe it!
I wasn't sure if I should walk up to her and talk to her? Walk past her as if I didn't recognize her? Or if I should just turn around and go to a different store?
I most defiantly wasn't dressed to impress today.I had on a pair of black baggy sweats and a yellow muscle shirt with a pair of old sneakers. I wasn't expecting to run into anybody today while I was running errands.
I felt like I was having a nervous breakdown. My mouth got all dry. The palms of my hands got all sweaty. My heart was beating so fast I thought for sure it was going to jump right out of my chest.
It's been a few years since I've seen her last. I wouldn't even know what to last time we spoke to each other it didn't end well.
I just stood there contemplating what I should do.
I heard a voice call out from behind me. I turned around as quickly as I could. I could hear the wind pass by my ears.
There she was. Standing right in front of me. She looked so beautiful. She had a pair of white capri pants on with a pale green halter top and beautiful gold sandals.
I was speechless.
I tried to get words to come out of my mouth but nothing! I just stood there like and idiot!
She walked closer to me, grabbed me and gave me a huge hug.
I was still in shock that I just stood there with my arms down to my sides just looking at her.
She let go of me and took a step back. She said it looks like I've just seen a ghost.
I could tell I looked pale as I felt all the blood drain from my face the moment I first saw her.
Before I could even get the words to flow past my lips. I hear a voice call out from the distance to Emerald.
She reached in her purse in a hurry, grabbed a piece of paper out and jotted down her number. She handed it to me and told me that she will be "expecting" a call from me soon. She then leans up and kisses me on the cheek before taking off.
I really wish I wasn't such an idiot!
How hard is it to get a couple of words out?
I want to call her but what if I freeze up again? What if I just end up babbling on like a lunatic?
I don't want her to think I'm a mess. I need her to think that I'm doing better than good.
I can't let her see me like that again. That would be too devastating.
I need to collect my thoughts. Get a good nights rest then tomorrow, tomorrow I will call her.
