This story contains very dark themes. Drugs, sex, self abuse, and referance to rape. If you are uncomfortable with any of those people do not read. Or if you would like to read but want to skip over those parts please let me know and I will gladly warn you ahead of time.
I do not own Twilight nor do I wish to. I'd much rather own Edwards body in my bed.
This is a short chapter but the following will be longer.
I watched the red trickle down my thigh and land soundlessly into the small puddle on the tile, feeling the immediate sense of relief and calming flow through me. My weezing breaths began to even out and the blackness faded away. This was my serenity. I grimaced at the seven long scars on my thigh as i pressed the rag to the new one. Reaching over I tossed the blade into the garbage and stood to turn on the shower. The water hit my back like a bucket of ice but I welcomed it, when times werent bad enough to resort to blades and a new tattoo or piercing were out of the question, ice showers were the closest thing I could find to my serenity.
"Bella fifteen minutes and we gotta go!" Rose yelled through the door.
"Yeah yeah dont get your thong in a bunch im coming," I yelled back.
I grabbed my bodywash and began to scrub, scrub the bad day, the bad memories, the bad existance I call life, off of me. I glanced down to the suds rolling down over the inked name across my stomach, the one word that no one has spoken in over a year and a half, the four letters that, up untill a few months ago, could break me at any moments notice.
I wiped at the suds then at the lone tear that graced my cheek, and sighed before finishing up my shower. I brushed my hair before throwing it up into a messy bun, dressed in black skinny jeans and a black tube top, and rushed to put on my makeup as Rose barged into the bathroom.
"Damn you could fucking knock blondie" I rolled my eyes careful not to poke my eye with the mascara brush.
"Shut up black, I've seen you naked plenty of times, I am the one that pierced you...all of you" she laughed
I grimaced at the nick-name that my friends called me, they've been calling me black for the last three years. It started out as a joke when I was dating Jacob, but took on a new meaning a year and a half ago when I started wearing nothing but black.
Pushing my lip ring aside with my tongue i finished applying my lipstick then threw it at Rose's head.
"HEY!"
"Im ready" i smiled sweetly.
"Go get in the damn car before i drag your ass there by your hair" She huffed rubbing her head.
"Ooo stop it blondie, you know it turns me on when you talk frisky" I licked my top lip feeling the barbell run across my bottom one.
"Shut up and get in the car" Rose laughed and smacked my ass hard when I turned around, causing me to yelp.
Rose and I have been friends since I was sixteen and first moved to Forks. At eighteen we moved in together, and at twenty we opened out tattoo shop Tainted in Seattle. The shop has been going strong since the doors opened three years ago. One thing Rose and I had in common from the begining was the love of permanent art work. We got our bellybuttons peirced together at sixteen, out first tattoos together at seventeen, and when those single tattoos turned into multiples we decided that we would save up and one day open our own shop together. We worked our asses off, whatever money didnt go to rent and bills went into the bank, till the day we walked by the empty window with the for rent sign in it and learned the ratty, run down, tiny office space was in our budget. Two months after signing the papers the store was finally cleaned and stocked and ready for opening. Neither of us could have expected the outcome, and a year later Tainted was moved from the ratty street corner, to a space triple its size and bringing in triple to customers.
As Rose pulled up to the shop I could see Emmett standing out front smoking a cigarette and talking to a customer.
"Ah speak of the devil" He smiled as i walked up "Yo black its about time the shop is swamped, Jasper and Alice are both with clients and we got five people lined up."
"So why the hell are you out here Em get your ass inside and get to work."
"Not all of us can come and go as we please boss, Ive been here since noon and this is the first cigarette Ive had in four hours, and Im enjoying it so bad off."
I laughed as Rose smacked him in the head "Thats no way to talk to your boss, no say sorry."
"Oh no no no Em its ok I swear" i squeeked as he got the look Ive come to fear, and started backing up towards the door.
"Oh no I gotta say sorry" He smirked and he itched closer and then scooped me up into a huge bear hug "Im sorry Bells" he smiled hard and squeezed harded.
"Ok let me down you damn mammoth" I weezed and then sucked in a big breath as he released me.
I turned and went inside before anyone else had the chance the try and break some of my bones. Emmett wasnt kidding when he said we were swamped. Alice had to girls who looked barely eighteen at her station getting matching Hello Kitty tattoos and Jasper had a regular in his chair finishing up a back piece. I didnt even have a chance to look at the people in the waiting area before Alice called and pointed out who was up first.
"Hi im Bella" I extended my hand "what were you thinking about getting today"
I had just begun working on the sailor girl on my clients arm when I saw someone standing off to the side of me. I acted as if I didnt see them hoping they would leave.
"Yo black" I heard Emmett call
"What" I huffed not even bothering to look up.
"My cousin is here, he just moved from Chicago and since we short staffed and hes really fucking good I thought maybe we could use him. Rosie said its cool as long as your good with it."
"Yeah sure whatever, have him drop his book by and Ill take a look when I can"
"He here now, he can start tonight if you want"
I dipped my needle back into the ink and kept tattooing still never looking up praying Emmett would see that I wasnt in the mood for this right now.
"Put him and the book in my office and Ill talk to him when im finished here Em." I replyed annoyed and watched as two sets of feet walked away.
An hour later and I was putting the cover over my clients tattoo and ushering him to the counter to pay Rose.
"Dont forget the guy thats in your office Bella, we could use the help, I didnt get to look at his book but Em said he's good" Rose told me while taking the mans money.
"Yeah ill go look now" I rolled my eyes. Yeah we needed the help but of course I would have to review someone on a busy Friday evening.
I grabbed my bag from behind the counter and dragged myself off to my office. Not pleased that my door was shut with someone in there I ripped the door open ready to bitch and stopped when I was met with the most gorgous shade of green I had ever seen.
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