Craving You

By Slash Fanatic

A/N: Hmmm…for some reason, I felt like writing an angst fic about Wakka and Tidus. O.O" Don't know why, I think I want to see if I could do it and pull it off. Let's see how this turns out. It takes place during/after the "Good Ending" of FFX-2. And I wanted to try a different writing style too, using character POV. ::crosses fingers:: Wish me luck.

Warnings: slash, AU, character POV, WIP

Disclaimer: I don't own anything related to FFX-2. If I did, Wakka and Lulu wouldn't have hooked up and had a kid together. ()xxxxx ::foams at the mouth with rage::

"text" = dialogue

[text] = thoughts

= time/scene change

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{Tidus' POV}

I stretch lazily and realize I'm in the water. What the heck? I shouldn't be here…I was a dream, a creation by the fayth. But I won't think about that now! I'm back! Smiling at the thought of living again, I swim for the surface of the crystal blue water.

After breaking the surface, I take a look at my surroundings. [Besaid Island…I'll get to see everyone again…my friends…my crushes…] I sigh happily and float on my back on the cool refreshing water.

"I wonder how long I've been gone…the last thing I remember is reuniting with my dad…" I stare with much interest towards the bright afternoon sky. [Why did I come back? Is there a greater purpose for my being here?] Before I could contemplate this further, I hear a loud machina approaching, more than likely an airship of some sort.

I get off my back and swim around to see what it is. All I see is a red blur that's heading straight for me! Before I have the chance to panic and curse fate for bringing me back only to become road kill, it stops right above me. The gangplank opens and a familiar face comes out.

[Yuna? Is THAT really you…]

{In Besaid Village}

It's night time. The village bonfire is a blazing and everyone is celebrating. Everyone except me that is. I'm wallowing in self-pity at the moment.

Rikku tells me that she and this group of hers, The Gullwings, defeated another threat to Spira. Something that ended in "-gun." Well anyway, she was telling me that it had the power to destroy all humanity or something before she was distracted by this cute villager, whom I never noticed before, and bounded off after him.

Like I care. Well, it's not that I don't care. I'm just depressed right now. AND I'M NOT GOING TO CRY.

I'm sitting in a secluded area on the temple steps, just watching everyone and keeping to myself. Nothing has really changed in the surroundings, although the temple does seem eerily vacant now. But why do people have to change?

I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack, and no one is here to comfort me. No one. Everyone seems different…with the exception of Rikku. I could feel my heart rate increase, my blood boiling, my breathe intake sharpening, as I'm thinking to myself.

Why…why did they get together!? They have a kid too! I was gone that long? Two years ago, Lulu was still trying to let go of the loss of Wakka's brother, Chappu, whom she loved. He had been killed by Sin. And I could of sworn Wakka didn't like her…I…I thought he liked me. WE FLIRTED DAMN IT! At least, I thought we did. Those moments we shared, alone at night, when we were lonely…You know what, forget it. I fucking hate you right now. Okay, no I don't. I'm sounding like a betrayed boyfriend.

Not only that, but Yuna has changed dramatically. I blame Rikku, I think they've been spending too much time together. Now Yuna is more…more "bubbly" to put it nicely. She's no longer the nice innocent summoner that I once knew. The person that would laugh and smile whenever we were together. Maybe she needed the change, I don't know. I was with her for 5 minutes until she started talking and socializing with everyone else in the village. Don't even talk to me, even though you supposedly searched for me this whole time. She seems to play to the crowd now and is currently in a "Singer" outfit, performing a merry tune. Is this the girl that I fell in love with? No, it's not.

Wakka. Yuna. I thought I knew you two. But I don't blame you. Life goes on, and your lives blossomed without me. But fuck, how could you two, the people that I love most, change on me? I was hoping to start a relationship with Yuna…but I don't think I'll pursue it now. I think she would much rather hunt a sphere of some sort. And Wakka…I was hoping you could help me through this chaos, like you did when we first met. You were my candle in the dark, guiding me through this surreal new life in Spira. But it looks like that light is extinguished now. And if me and Yuna didn't work out, you know, I was hoping maybe something would of happened between us. Be "more than bruddahs" as you would say. Looks like I need to search for other people to fantasize about.

I feel like an open wound and wipe a fresh tear off my face. Damn, I said I wasn't going to cry. But I can't help it. Did Rikku lend Wakka and Yuna her twin daggers? Cuz I feel like they've taken turns stabbing me in the back.

"Hey there bruddah, what's the long face for? You should be celebrating like everyone else, ya?" A warm, welcoming smile graces this man's face as he offers a nice jug of sake to me.

It's one of the Besaid Aurochs. I forgot his name, but he is quite the stud. He has flaming red hair, a mocha tanned body…just like Wakka. [STOP BROODING OVER SOMEONE YOU CAN'T HAVE!] I mentally slap myself.

"Yeah, I should be. Thanks." I smile back at him and snatch the jug from his hand. [I SO need some alcohol right now.] I start to devour the drink down, my sorrows with it. He chuckles and sits down next to me.

"I remember you…you were a Guardian of Yuna's, eh?" He grabs the sake from me and takes a swig.

"Yeah, I was." I take back the jug and continue drinking.

We continue to exchange the sake back and forth amongst our small talk.

"You know what? I think we're gonna need another couple of these things!" The blitzer exclaims to me, shaking the empty jug upside down. A few drops of liquid fell, proving that it was indeed empty.

"I wouldn't mind that!"

"I grab a few more for us to continue drinkin' and talkin' then." He rushes off, nearly stumbling on the temple steps. I stifle a laugh, but end up laughing harder.

Countless sake jugs lay waste around us. Me and this guy (I still haven't found out his name yet) have been chatting for a while now. No one else seems to pay any attention to me. Then again, I completely ignored Wakka when he approached me and tried to strike up a conversation. He wondered off like a lost, hurt puppy after that. Like I give a shit. He could go screw himself, or Lulu, for all I care. My only concern is this hottie sitting next to me, who is looking sexier and sexier with each passing moment.

"So what happened to ya? Haven't seen your cute self around here lately…"

"It's complicated." I feel so relaxed now. And flirtatious. Yet overwhelmed at the same time. So many mixed emotions right now. I want someone to make me FEEL better. I want some physical comfort. And this guy might be able to do just that.

I look into his eyes with lust. "But I don't want to think or talk about that now…" I lean in close to him, close enough to kiss him. I put a hand on his leg and slowly start to work my way up to his chest. He's moist with sweat, he must have been playing blitz ball earlier, which I'm not surprised. His muscles feel so solid, so chiseled. I hunger to taste them. I start to trace random designs on his well formed torso, brushing the back of my index finger all over his upper body.

"Whatever you want, I'm game." He says, his voice lighter than air, looking deep into my eyes.

"This is what I want." I plant a soft kiss to his lips and I set down the jug I was drinking from away from us. He doesn't fight me off. We slowly descend to the ground as we continue to make out heavily. We're not in the light of the bonfire, and no one is around to see us do this. Most of the villagers have all ready turned in for the night.

He breaks the lip lock and grins a drunken smile at me. "Let's get outtah here."

I nod in agreement.

"Follow me." He starts walking nonchalantly around the back of the temple. I follow, trying to look casual, clenching a jug of sake in my right hand.

I want someone…to take away this pain in my chest. I want someone to kiss me and make me feel better, to hold me and not let go. Even if the love isn't real. I want someone to make me feel like I belong here. Right now, I don't care who it is, I just want this. I need this. At least…I think I do…

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To be continued…

No Tidus! You're meant to be with Wakka! ::is a Wakka/Tidus shipper::

I hope that came out all right! Before anyone comments that Tidus is OOC, let me say something. How would you feel if you woke up after a two year slumber? I'd imagine I would feel and know everything as it were BEFORE I hibernated, you know what I mean? Tidus is in shock. So yeah, he's not handling things well. That was my intention and I'll stop rambling now.

R/R please. Thanks. :D