Just a sappy one shot for Willyss lovers. A songfic. Song is My Immortal by Evanescence. I don't own anything.
I'm so tired of being here,
I'm so upset that I'm stuck here. In this cabin of his. Will's.
Suppressed by all my childish fears,
I would leave, but I have so many childish fears that stop me all the time.
And if you have to leave,
I wish he didn't have to leave me. It isn't fair.
I wish you would just leave,
I just want him to go away now.
'Cause your presence still lingers here,
Because whenever I see his name, it kills me inside.
And it won't leave me alone,
And he just keeps coming back. Memories, thoughts, feelings…
These wounds won't seem to heal,
And the wounds that I got, before he died protecting me, they won't heal. They just get worse.
This pain is just too real,
But the pain of losing him is much worse. The reality sunk in faster than I thought it would.
There's just to much that time cannot erase,
And I know that no matter how much time goes by, it will never erase his death, never will it bring him back to me.
And you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
I remember when Will lay there, dying, he said I'd wipe away his tears.
And you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears,
And before he left for the battle, he screamed I'd fight away all of his fears.
And I held your hand through all of those years,
And he said that I'd held his hand through all of these years.
But you still held all of me,
But really, it was him doing all of that. He was carrying me.
You used to captivate me by your resonating mind,
It used to be his cheerful smile and bright mind that fascinated me.
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind,
Now it's the dull memories that sustain me.
Your face it haunts,
And that cheeky smile.
My once pleasant dreams,
That's the one that haunts even my most pleasant dreams.
Your voice,
And his voice, the one that used to bring comfort.
It chased away all the sanity in me,
It now chases away my sanity.
These wounds won't seem to heal,
The cut on my face is going to scar, says the healer, anyway.
This pain is just too real,
But I know that even once I'm fully healed, the pain will still be quite real.
There's just too much that time cannot erase,
I wish time would bring him back, but it won't.
And you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
I wish I could've cried he'd wipe away all of my tears,
And you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears,
And screamed he'd fight away all of my fears.
And I held your hand through all of these years,
I wish I could have thanked him for holding my hand all these years.
But you still held all of me,
But I know he would have said it was me carrying him.
I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone,
Every day I look outside and expect too see you, but then I remember that you're gone.
But though you're still with me,
And I know that, in spirit, he's with me, but…
I've been alone I'm alone,
I still feel alone.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When he ran to battle he cried I'd wipe away all of his tears.
And you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears,
And he screamed I'd fight away all of his fears.
And I held your hand through all of these years,
He held my hand just before he died.
But you still held all of me,
But when he died, he was still holding all of me.
Me,
Why did I have to lose him?
Me,
Why me? Why him?
So what did you think of that rather tragic little one shot? It didn't lead on very well, I know, but it's my first songfic so… Please review and tell me what you think!
