Authors Note: I do not own Twilight, or anything else mentioned in this story but I hope you enjoy it.
This is my first FF, I would love CC but please be nice about it.
It had started out as every other day without Edward, dreary, lifeless and empty. I had everything finished. The housework, my homework and anything else that I had thought to do over the last six months. Even the books I once enjoyed now held little interest to me. My life was dull. I had given excitement a try for a little while with my best friend Jake, and while we had a lot of fun, it never quite filled the emptiness I had felt since Edward left. Poor Jake had tried so hard, he wanted more than just friendship. He wanted to rebuild me like he did his VW Rabbit, but I was not to be restored. I didn't want a relationship with Jacob, not because he wasn't great. He was the best ...friend that is. He was also a werewolf and if I couldn't make it work with one mythological creature I surely wasn't going to try and make it work with another, this had torn Jake and I apart, he was still my sun and I was still his Bells but we didn't hang out much anymore. I couldn't really blame him. Who wants to be around someone that doesn't love them...other than me of course? I still wanted Edward, even though he abandoned me, I still loved him, my heart would always belong to him even if he didn't want it...and sadly that was the case. I tried to stop thinking about Edward than before the hole in my chest re-opened, it seemed only now to cause me pain three- fourths of the day instead of the entire twenty-four hours , I couldn't tell if this was an improvement or not.
I gulped down half a blueberry pop-tart and headed to school in my broken down truck. How I loved that truck. Sturdy, Solid and Strong: all the things I lacked. I wasn't sure how much longer she would be on the road but I was glad to have her all the same. I parked in my usual spot, and grabbed my bag. Just like always no shiny silver Volvo was parked in the lot. I just sighed, pulled my gray hood over my head, and walked inside to class. The morning went by slowly.
Lunch, however, went by to quickly as Jessica and Angela were planning a surprise party for Eric. His birthday wasn't for another month but they wanted this to be a party no one would forget .We agreed to meet after school to discuss the details further since Eric had joined us at the table. Charlie would be pleased to hear this .I think he was still worried that the zombie might come back and attack him. As the bell rang, calling us back to the reality of our classes, I went to dump my half eaten tray .,turning to stare at the table where I had spent so much time with Edward and his family a daily habit that I had picked up since his departure. As I spun back around, I was surprised to find Mike Newton standing by me.
"Bella, hey what's up?" Mike said cheerfully trying to look like he hadn't been waiting for me.
"Not much" I replied truthfully. I had a feeling this would be an uncomfortable conversation.
"Umm, listen Bella"...he hesitated, shuffling his feet for a moment before continuing "I was wondering if you'd like to retry that movie sometime..."
I had been waiting for this day. I had thought it over in my head a thousand times. I knew that after the Jacob/Mike movie fiasco it would happen. He would attempt to ask me back out, if not him then Eric or Tyler. I had thought about my answer, and of course it would be no. If I couldn't be with Edward than I wanted no one. I was about to tell Mike my answer, when I heard the soft tone of Edwards's familiar voice again, "Bella" it said....
I was startled. I hadn't heard that angelic song in such a long time. I wanted it to finish..."Yes" I said wanting it to come again.
His soft loving voice whispered "Be Happy" disappearing as the hole re-opened. I put my arms automatically around my chest to make sure I wouldn't fall apart.
"Great" Mike said excitedly, "Is Friday good, what time you want me to pick you up?"
"What" I asked confusion setting into my face.
"What time do you want me to pick you up?" He said again, "Is seven ok?"
And then it hit me. When I had heard Edwards voice in my mind, I had answered it aloud. Mike had taken my "Yes" as an answer to his earlier question. I was mortified. What was I going to do? I couldn't tell Mike that I wasn't answering his question but that of a voice in my head, he would think I was a mental case and while that was partially true, I didn't want him, Charlie and the rest of Forks to have me committed . I had no other options. If I tried to get out of this date than this sick cycle of ask Bella out would continue. I had only one choice. I was going to have to go through with it.
