(Partially based on The Perks of Being A Wallflower)

We'll call him Kraig... to tell you the truth, I hate him. I hate him because I love him. Its not the movie kind of love either. I just look at him sometimes and think that he is the nicest and most beautful person in the whole world. Hes also very smart and funny. The thing is that I think he may like a girl named... lets call her... Carrol. I think Kraig may like his friend Carrol. Which I suppose makes sense, they're in the same grade and shees older and tanner and just flat out prettier than I am but I still hope... I want Kraig to stop liking Carrol. I really am in love with Kraig, and it hurts very much. Its like, when I think about him I smile, but then he wont get out, hes dug a hole into my brain and made his nest there. The longer hes there, the more I think about it, the more it hurts; and I just want it out. I feel like I have to puke to get it out and Im gagging and wheezing and pushing my hardest but the pain, the hurt, just stays there, comfortably and in tact. Why cant I get better? The worst part is that no one understands. Ive never felt like this, i dont want to date you and marry you and have kids with you I dont really want much of anything to change, I just want you to hold my hand and hug me and maybe a simple kiss or two and then hear you tell me you love me once in a while like you used to... thats what I want... thats what I need, and for that, Im truly and eternally sorry.