Title: Parts of You
Pairing: Adam/Spencer
Rating: T - M?
Summary: Spencer can't get Adam out of his head and decides to fight for him during his trial while continuing to visit Amanda. What happens when he finds out more about himself than he ever imagined? Will he be able to save Adam?


Spencer sat, hunched over his computer, searching for more legal cases involving Dissociative Identity Disorder. Adam's trial was starting soon and he was trying his best to help his defense attorney, who wasn't the greatest. Adam didn't have any money, so he'd gotten a public defender who knew nothing about insanity pleas or DID. Although, the man seemed confident that he was going to win 'his first big case'. All he had to do was get one juror to believe that Adam was sick, he said. And Spencer had to agree. It had happened in Tennessee, although that hadn't been a real case of DID. The man had been lying and was now having a new trial. Could Adam be lying? It wasn't logical to have been involved in two different cases of DID in the five years he had worked here, was it? This disorder was rare and yet, here he was, surrounded by it again. He closed his eyes, exhausted. His muscles ached from being hunched over a desk for so long, but he knew it was worth it. He knew Adam wasn't lying and he had to help him. He had to figure out how to make Amanda let Adam go. He jumped when someone touched his back. He turned to see JJ looking at him, concerned.

"You okay, Spence? It's almost 9 o'clock."

Spencer sat up straighter. "Yeah, yeah, I'm fine."

She looked at what he was reading and sighed. "Adam is still stuck in your head, huh?"

She sat on the desk and looked at him, knowing he needed to talk. He had been struggling with his case for the last six weeks, taking random visits out to Texas. And now the case was coming up, Spencer and Hotch were both going to testify. She watched how he shrugs.

"He doesn't deserve to go to jail, JJ. He needs help...Prison will.. It will only break him down more. Amanda will be in a male's prison and... She'll be abused and raped and...Adam will never get a chance. Plus, She'll mostly likely be bullied by the staff because they don't understand her or be put into isolation and that could only make it worse."

"She killed 3 people, Spencer."

"Yes. Amanda did. Not Adam. Adam deserves... he deserves to live his life."

JJ gave him a look. "then what do you suggest?"

"He stay at the facility, get help. There are studies that say that the personalities can be integrated to form one main personality. Adam could... he could get better."

JJ sighed and ruffled his hair. "Spencer, you can't fix everyone."

"I can help Adam." The look of determination in his eyes was so strong she couldn't fight it. She just smiled and slid off the desk, grabbing her bag. She began to walk away before she paused and looked back towards him.

"This isn't… about something more than that, is it? Like… your mom?" She asked softly. She's not trying to upset him, but she worries about him.

Spencer shook his head, leaning back into his hunched position, his eyes back on the screen. JJ sighed. She wasn't going to get an answer.

"Good night, Reid."

He gave her a short nod, his mind back to his previous mission.

Criminal Minds || Parts of You

The trial starts and Spencer sits through the evidence portion of the case. He listens to the medical examiner and crime scene unit talk about each of the murders, what was found and how they perceived what happened. There was no DNA or fingerprint analysis. He knew all this already, from the case he worked. It takes a couple days to get through the physical evidence of the case before Spencer is called to the stand. He knows that he and Hotch are both going to testify. He doesn't understand why the prosecution calls him at all, but he figures it's to put an image of him into the eyes of the jury before the defense asks him his questions. He gets on the stand, regardless, focusing on the case at hand. He makes sure to specify that it was Amanda that did these things, and not Adam, but as he assumes the prosecution dives in further than just the case and into his personal history. He gets through it and once he's off the stand, leaves the courthouse.

After the court lets out for the day, he visits Amanda at the facility. She smirks at him as she saunters in.

"You spoke at my trial today." She says as she sits.

He nods. "I did."

"They tore you apart. Your mother's a paranoid schizophrenic. Is that why you're doing this?"

Spencer shakes his head. "I'm doing this for Adam."

Amanda rolls her eyes. "And Tobias Hankel. You killed him. He had DID too, didn't he? And you killed him. Do you feel guilty, Dr. Reid?"

"I do." He says. He might as well be honest.

Amanda takes a long drag of her cigarette. "Saving Adam won't bring back Tobias Hankel."

Spencer nodded. "You're right. Tobias deserved to live his life too and I ended that life. I will never forget that, but this isn't about Tobias. It's about Adam. He deserves to live his life."

"Adam's fine where he is."

"I understand you're protecting him, Amanda, but he deserves to make his own decisions.."

"They asked you if you heard voices. If your own mental status played a part in wanting to help Adam. Does it? Dr. Reynolds tells me Paranoid Schizophrenia can be hereditary. We have some schizos here, you know? Must be scary, hearing voices."

Spencer clenches his jaw. "I'm not a schizophrenic."

"But you could be. You're not yet 30. It could still pop up, isn't that right?"

Spencer swallowed roughly. "And if I was, I'd do the right thing. I'd help myself."

"And what? I should help Adam? I am helping Adam, Doctor Reid. Keeping him away from anything that can hurt him."

"I can help Adam. I can-"

"No one can help Adam, but me? No one else knows Adam like I do. Not Kyle. Not Aaron." She interrupts, seething.

Spencer frowns, confused. "Who's Kyle?"

She stares at him, blankly for a moment before sighing dramatically. "It's been a long day and I'm tired. May I go to bed now?" She asked the therapist in the room. Dr. Reynolds nodded and called an orderly to assist the woman back to her room.

Amanda turns back to him. "It was nice to see you again, Doctor. I must admit, it's nice to have a visitor every once and awhile."

Spencer watches her leave, deflated, before the psychiatrist sat next to him. "Dr. Reid, it's...I think your visits helps a little, if that matters at all. You seem to be persuading the other alters."

"The other alters?"

Dr. Reynolds nodded, opening her file. "I'm not supposed to share this information, but seeing how you are a psychologist yourself, I don't see the harm." She smiles at him.

Spencer licked his lips, looking at the file.

"She mentioned Aaron and Kyle. Are they... alters?"

Dr. Reynolds nodded. "She's mentioned Aaron before. Supposedly he's, her words mind you, 'a horny little bastard' and Kyle. Kyle is the helper, I think. He's our best chance to get to Adam. I've been trying to let her to let me speak to Kyle, but if Kyle continues to see you visiting, fighting for Adam, maybe he'll be able to overtake her. That will be a major breakthrough."

"And how do I get him to come out?"

"It just takes time. Amanda will never trust you. She'll never trust anyone, but if you can get to this Aaron or Kyle who may be able to to trust then... something could happen. It's hard to tell when or how, Dr. Reid. These things are... There's not a real guide book to this disorder. It's very rare, you know."

Spencer nods. "You think that'll be possible to get to Aaron or Kyle?"

Dr. Reynolds nods. "Her outburst suggests they might be talking to her. The fact that the prosecution tried to destroy you on the stand today, and yet you continued to fight for Adam ... I think that showed them something."

Spencer sighs. "Do you think the defense has a chance?"

"I think the jury might see that this is real. I mean, it would be much better if we could actually show them Adam, let them see the difference in person, but...I think they definitely have a chance."

Spencer nodds before standing. "I should get back to my hotel."

"How long will you be in town for, Doctor?"

"I took some vacation leave, until the end of the trial."

Dr. Reynolds nods. "So I will see you again soon."

"Tomorrow, possibly."

Criminal Minds || Parts Of You

His phone rings and Spencer puts down his book to answer it. He smiles a little when he sees that it's JJ.

"Hello."

"Hey, Spence. Hotch told me about what happened today."

"Oh." He says, unsure of what to say.

"Are you okay?" She asks and he hears the baby in the background.

He smiles. "I'll be fine. How's Henry?"

"He misses his god father. Are you sure you want to stay out there so long? Why don't you just come home with Hotch after he's questioned by the lawyer.

Spencer sighs. "I got to make sure..."

"Spencer, he's not your responsibility."

"I know."

"Then come home. Come have dinner with us and just forget about work for awhile. You can't get so invested."

"This coming from the woman who sometimes cries over the people she can't save."

JJ sighs. "What if he gets convicted, Spencer? What if you can't save him?"

"I...I've got to try." He says, his voice sad, almost desperate.

"I just... I don't want to see you hurt again like you did after Hankel, Reid."

"I'll be fine."

"No you won't."

He doesn't say anything and Henry screams in the background, fortunately. "I've got to go, Spence. Please just think about coming home."

"I'll see you in a couple weeks, JJ. Give Henry a kiss for me."