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Derek stood out side of the door of Joe's bar. Inside he could see Christina, Alex, Izzy and the women that made everything seem so much more real, that made his life seem worth while, the woman that he had spent so much time with and had left which he thought was for the better. But now he had realised that it was the wrong thing to do, and he was now back to fix things. Meredith was sat laughing with her friends, pushing her blonde hair back behind her ears, away from her perfect blue eyes.

They all look older, but some what the same. It had been 2 years since he left and went to New York. 2 years that he had been without Meredith, those 2 years were the hardest of his life. He knew he shouldn't have left. He knew it was a stupid decision but it was a decision that he had to make. I can't do this. Derek turned away from opening the door. Now wasn't the right time, he needed to speak to Meredith while she wasn't with her friends, he needed to talk to Meredith alone. He new what would happen if he went in and talked to Meredith he new what Christina would say. I shouldn't disturb her now I should wait for tomorrow. Derek looked back up where his eyes met Meredith.

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Meredith looked toward the door, feeling as though she was being watched. "You have got to be kidding me." Meredith said quickly and turned away from who she was looking at and hid behind Alex, hoping that some how he didn't realise it was her.

Christina, Alex and Izzy looked to where Meredith was looking.

"Is that?" Izzy asked looking at Alex and Christina as she took a sip of her white wine.

"I'm going to kill him," Christina said jumping out of her seat ready to give Derek a piece of her mind.

Meredith grabbed her arm, stopping her from launching herself at her ex. "You are not going to do anything."

"But Mere!" Christina looked to Meredith as she pulled her back down to her seat.

Meredith looked from Derek then to her friends. "We all knew he would come back some day and today just seems to be the day." Meredith stood and started to gather her things. She picked up a shot glass and swallowed down the amber liquor, feeling the burn as it made its way through her throat.

"But Mere…?" Christina was confused; she didn't understand why Meredith was rushing out to see him, after everything that had happened.

"Seriously, this is just something I have to do." Again Meredith looked back towards the door. Derek was no longer there. Meredith assumed that he had must have walked up the stairs towards the road.

Meredith held the cold door handle to the door at Joe's. Her hand was shaking and she was so nervous. Breathe Meredith, Meredith said to herself as she took a deep breath, opened the door and made her way up the stairs to the road. Did she really want to go through this, and now.

Derek Stood outside near the road rubbing his hands, as he looked across to the hospital that he left to find bigger and brighter things for himself. He was going to have to in there tomorrow and beg for his job back, it wasn't going to be easy. This week was going to be a full week of things that wasn't going to be easy.

"What are you doing here Derek?" Meredith asked hugging her coat closer to her body as she stood at the top of the stairs of Joe's.

Derek took a deep breath in and turned around to face her. "Meredith, I came back here for you," He said coming closer to her, with sad eyes.

"Seriously?"

Derek looked at Meredith with sad eyes. He was longing to hold her, to feel her against him once more. He missed the feel of her against his body, she missed her smile.

"Seriously. Derek…you came for me," She said with a slight laugh looking up towards the sky. "Where were you when everything was falling apart? Where were you when all my days were I spent by the telephone, where all I needed was a call?" Meredith started to walk away, knowing that she couldn't handle this discussion, the one that she was longing to have all this time. She thought she could handle seeing him again and telling him how much he had fucked up her life, but she couldn't, it was just too much for her, she just had to get away from him.

"Meredith," Derek said hoping that would stop her walking away. "Meredith!" He shouted as he started to follow her. "You know that I had to get away. You know I had to get away from all this. We talked about all of this." Derek sighed. "I'm here now, I'm back," Derek said as he stopped walking.

Meredith also stopped walking. "That's not good enough Derek!" she said as she could feel the tears starting to sting her eyes. Meredith turned to look at him and began to wipe the tears away with her hand. "I needed you then I don't need you now. I am over this, I am over us." Meredith's tears had now started to run down her face. "You never wrote, you never left any messages. You took our whole world Derek, and we will never get that back." Meredith again turned and walked away wiping her tears from her face.

"Our?" Derek was puzzled, what did she mean by our?

Meredith Stopped and looked back at Derek. "What didn't Addison or Mark tell

you?" Meredith said angry that he was playing dumb.

"Tell me what Meredith?" Derek Said moving a step closer. Knowing that he made Addison and Mark promise not to mention Seattle Grace or Meredith.

"See this is why I was calling and why you should have called me back…"

"Meredith!" Derek was starting to get impatient

"You don't honestly know do you?" Meredith asked, slightly shocked that Addison and Mark hadn't told him.

"Know what?" Derek was now starting get frustrated.

Meredith couldn't think of any other way to tell him, other then just saying it. "Derek we have a son."

Derek's face softened. "I have a son?" Derek looked at Meredith, his heart breaking for not being there for her. "We have a son?"

"Yes Derek we have a Son." Meredith longed to hug him. "We have beautiful boy." Meredith moved a few steps closer to him. "And all I wanted to do was to share you with him. But where were you?" The tears again started to fall from her eyes as she remembers the time without Derek when she gave birth to their son.

Derek didn't answer. All that kept going through his head was that Meredith and he had a son, and how much of a foul he was not being there.

"Fine," Meredith said knowing that there wasn't an answer coming. Turning Meredith walked away.

Derek looked up from the ground and pulled out his phone as he looked at Meredith walking away. First he dialled a number then put the phone up against his ear. Someone answered. "We need to talk now." Derek said in a strong tone. "I will meet you at yours."

Derek knocked on a large wooden door. The door opened to show a shirtless man. "Mark, why didn't you tell me?"

"Well hello to you too." Mark stepped aside and let Derek in. "Why didn't I tell you what?" he asked as he closed the door and followed Derek down the hallway.

"Meredith!" Derek shouted as he seemed now in the state of shock. He lifted his hands to his head and ran his fingers hard through his brown hair, his eyes were red and he had looked like he was crying.

Mark winced knowing that Meredith had told him about her having his child, and how devastated she was knowing that Derek wasn't picking up the phone to talk to her. "How about we take a seat and talk about this," Mark said directing Derek to the sitting area.

Derek took a seat on the black leather lounge and held his head in his hands.

Mark went over and poured both of them a single malt scotch. Picking up the glasses Mark walked over to Derek and placed the scotch down in front of him, and then took a seat opposite him. "Ok what did you want to know?"

Derek took the glass in his hand and swallowed all the scotch in one mouthful. "Why didn't you or Addison tell me? Why didn't either one of you think that I needed to know this?"

"Derek you made both of us promises not to mention anything about Meredith." Mark put his drink on the coffee table in front of him. "Addison and I really gave some thought about this too. We thought it was better off for the both of you if you didn't know. Come on Derek we didn't think you would ever come back, we thought that you were gone for good. Plus Meredith wasn't handling any of this well, and the last thing she needed was you to come back and then leave again."

"It wasn't up to you to decide this for me." Derek said standing and pacing slightly. "You should have never kept this from me. I had a right to know!"

"Derek!"

Derek looked towards Mark.

"What we did was the right thing." Mark said firmly as he watched him walk around the room. "You didn't see how Meredith handled this."

"It still wasn't your decision!" Derek shouted as he stopped pacing and looked at Mark. Looking away from him and again started pacing.

"Yes it was!" Mark was now losing his cool. Even though Derek was his best friend, when he found that Derek had left and Meredith was pregnant he was furious.

Derek stopped his pacing and looked towards Mark. Derek had never seen this amount of emotion from him before. Now he remembered him being pissed off and emotional about Addison and himself when he came to Seattle to get them back, but nothing like this.

"When you left you destroyed her. You have no idea what all of us went through to keep her going. Then she found out she was pregnant." Mark shook his head "It nearly killed her Derek, knowing that she was having your baby and that you were not around. I don't know how many times she tried calling you and you never answered. I thought you were different. I thought you would get passed what happened and you would pick up the phone. You were her family and once again her family had left her."

Derek sat back down on the couch. "And again I became the thing that let her down. I became the thing that she was always running away from."

"Well that is what you get for making a career move and not caring about what happens to anyone else." Mark said with a sigh.

"You knew that no one wanted me here. Meredith didn't want to try any more and Richard didn't want to step down a chief. I had to move on. I had to get away."

"Get away or not you should have answered the phone," Mark said finishing off his drink. "That was the least you could have done, for her."

Mark stood tied and annoyed at Derek. "Look why don't we finish this conversation tomorrow." Mark walked toward the hall way and looked back at Derek who was still sitting on his couch. "Derek stay here tonight. We will try and sort things out tomorrow."

Derek looked at Mark as he stood in the hallway. "Thanks Mark."

Mark smiled and continued down the hallway.

Derek laid back onto the lounge and looked up at the ceiling. It had been an emotionally exhausting night, and he couldn't sleep. There was too much to think about. He had a son. Meredith and he had a son, Meredith had given birth to his child and he didn't know about it. Meredith had brought their son into the world and he wasn't there to help her or witness the birth of their child. Derek sighed, he wanted to know what he looked like; he wanted to know if he had her eyes, or his hair. Derek closed his eyes, trying to picture what he looked like, with doing this he feel into a dreamless sleep.