Hi. My first attempt at this so probably a bit rubbish!

TILLY

"Fuck". The word came out of Tilly's mouth as the REALISATION of her exclusion hit home. She walked out of the college front door and through the car park her mind swimming with questions. What on earth was she going to say to her parents? They would go mental at her, and probably ground her for the rest of her life …..whatever that would be now! Tears formed in her eyes. She stopped walking and closed her eyes. Taking a deep breath she tried to compose herself. It felt like the world was spinning around her. She took another deep breath and reached out for a wall to steady herself.

Tilly's education meant the world to her, everyone knew that. The number of nights out with Maddie and George that she had missed as she stayed in studying, finishing coursework. And now for what? She had worked so hard to make her dream of being a doctor come true, and should have been finishing in just a couple of months. Against her parents wishes she had recently declined the offer she had received from Cambridge University, having decided that she would be happier studying medicine in London. She had to admit that her relationship with Jen had played a part in her decision as they had talked about Jen leaving Hollyoaks and getting a job in London. HA! Tilly thought. Well that wouldn't be happening now would it. Jen. Tilly opened her eyes and looked up into the sky and took another deep breath. Her heart felt broken. She just couldn't get her head around what had just happened. She replayed the scene with Keeler in his office where she had stood stunned in silence as he listed the accusations Miss Gilmore had made against her. It was all such a mess.

What happened with Esther was terrible. It had really made Tilly question herself and the person that she had become. She felt so guilty that she hadn't seen how low Esther had been feeling. Sure Jen had behaved badly, but Tilly knew deep down that she had taken out some of her frustration on Jen by calling off the relationship. Jen should have said something that night at the Folly, but the bottom line was that Esther was Tilly's friend, not Jen's and it was Tilly mistake. She had not seen the bullying that had been going for months. No that was a lie. She had seen it, but she had just ignored it and not challenged Maddie, Ruby or Sinead, preferring to stay out of it. The bullying had been going on for months, long before Jen and her had kissed in the art room, and so there was no one else to blame but herself.

Tilly looked down and saw she had her art portfolio in her hand. All those amazing hours spent in the art room with Jen, exchanging secret glances and smiles. Where had it all gone wrong? It had been a shock when they had kissed again for the first time in months, but it felt so right after months of missing her and the pain Tilly had been through following the crash and losing Maddie, Neal and Jono. Jen had made her feel safe. Loved. It had all come crashing down so quickly it all felt like a bad dream.

Splitting up with Jen because she was angry at herself was not the answer, but what Jen had done was unbelievable. How could she have gone to Keeler and told those lies?

Tilly finally felt strong enough to walk again and headed over to a bin. She slowly opened the portfolio case and one by one threw the pictures in the bin. Tears rolled down her face. Her heart felt like it had been ripped out of her and crushed. Again she could hardly breath, but she carried on ripping up the photos, paintings, and drawings. She remembered how Jen had stood behind her as she drew giving her advice on how to improve her work. Occasionally she would brush her had over Tilly's, or place it gently on her shoulder. A secret signal between the two of them that would make Tilly blush.

The very last picture in the folder was the one she had done of Jen. Tilly paused at a drawing of Jen before turning her head towards the college one last time. She saw Jen standing at the window and turned away not wanting to see her lying face a second longer. Her fingers slowly started ripping the paper, all the way down the middle of Jen's beautiful face, until the picture was in two. The feeling of hate came flooding in. She had ruined Tilly's life in order to save her career. "Bitch" Tilly said out loud and slowly began ripping the drawing in half before throwing into the bin. She then turned on her heels and began the slow walk home to face the music and try and work out what she was going to do with her life.

Jen stood at the window and watched as Tilly stopped by the bin and took out her portfolio folder and then one by one, ripped up her coursework. Drawing by drawing, picture by picture.

JEN

"Fuck". The word came out of Jen's mouth as the REALISATION of her actions hit her like a sledgehammer. "What have I done?" she said out loud as a tear formed in the corner of her eye and started to roll down her cheek. She closed her eyes and rested her forehead against the window, grateful for the coldness on her skin as the feeling of sickness started to rise in her stomach.

Jen's head was buzzing as she replayed the conversation with Tilly. Keeler's expelled her. Because of her. Because of what Jen told him. Her lies. Oh God. What a mess.

Jen had been so upset that Tilly had given up on them after Esther had tried to kill herself. The past few months had been so hard for Jen as she had tried her hardest to ignore her feelings for Tilly and pretend that their relationship was just that of a teacher and her pupil. After the crash, Jen had wanted to rush to Tilly and scoop her in her arms, stroke her hair and beautiful face and tell her that everything would be OK. When she had heard from Diane about the crash she had been physically sick at the thought of Tilly being hurt, or worse….being dead. She really was an amazing young woman, so intelligent and confident and caring, funny and loving not to mention super sexy. But Jen knew she had no right to do that having called the relationship off in the summer. As much as Jen wanted Tilly, she had to wait for Tilly to decide if she wanted Jen. So Jen had stood by and watch Tilly grieve for her dead friends, all the time resisting the urge to tell her how she felt in the hope of being able to hold and kiss her again.

When they had finally kissed again recently Jen was over the moon. All those months of longing and waiting were over. She had her Tilly back and things were going to be different this time. Jen really did love her, but then the awful tragedy of Esther happened and things had gone wrong so quickly. Jen had replayed that night at the Folly over and over again in her head, wishing she had said something to Esther had made sure she was OK and not left her there. Tilly was right to be angry with her, but why did it have to be the end of them? Jen had cried herself to sleep for a week after Tilly had decided that they were bad people together and ended the relationship.

Jen opened her eyes and saw Tilly standing by the bin, throwing away all of her coursework. Tilly was one of the best artists in her class was on line for getting an A* in her A-level in just a couple of months….. well she had been! Jen wiped the tears from her face and turned away from the window as he mind raced. She had made a massive mistake going to Keeler, but she had never expected him to expell Tilly. She had done it to protect herself and to send a warning message to Tilly who had broken her heart by breaking up with her.

Jen shouldn't had been so childish. She had ruined poor Tilly's future. How could she have done that to someone she loved? She had to do something to fix this. FAST! She grabbed her bag off her desk and started running down the hallway back to Mr Keeler's office. As she ran she realised she didn't know exactly what she was going to say to him, but she just knew she had to fix it. She couldn't ruin Tilly's life as much as she was scared about her own career.

Keeler had looked at Jen suspiciously as she had sat there and explained that it had all been a big mistake and that she had got the wrong end of the stick. Jen made up a story about how Tilly had had her phone stolen and so she hadn't been sending the text messages or emails and that it must have been a prank by someone else at the college. No harm was done, and that Jen really should have checked with Tilly first before bringing this issue to his attention. It was all a silly misunderstanding, and that she didn't think it was right that such a bright student was punished wrongly. Keeler didn't look completely convinced. He stood staring out of his office window, thinking through the options. After what seemed like a lifetime to Jen, he finally mumbled something about removing the needed for a lot of paperwork on his part, and how it would look good to have one of their students get into Cambridge after all. He turned to Jen and explained that this was not acceptable behavior and gave her a lecture on the correct procedures for dealing with situations like this. Jen was apologetic and reassured him that she had learnt from her mistake and that he was making the right decision and how she'd better go so she could inform Tilly that the decision had been over ruled.

Jen ran out of the office, as a feeling of immense relief rushed over her. Sure, Tilly still hated her and their relationship was ruined, but at least Tilly still had a chance of following her dream of being a doctor. Jen reached into her bag and pulled out her mobile phone and quickly dialed Tilly's number.

The phone went straight to voicemail "Hey. It's Tills here. I'm clearly dead busy right now so leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as I can"

Jen hung up. Of course she wouldn't answer a call from her as she probably never wanted to speak to her again in her life. Jen thought for a second and then started typing a text message. Talked to Keeler – It's OK. You are no longer expelled. Need to talk to you. X Jen

Jen pressed the send button and then closed her phone and let out a massive sigh.