*~* Ichigo's POV *~*

Is it a healthy relationship when I'm always left alone at the end? Does this always cause nothing but pain and regret? Should ANY relationship be like this, full of pain and regret?! It shouldn't, yet that's how it is. How it ALWAYS is.

I still remember when we first met in high school, you just walked by me with soft silver hair, a small smile, and shut eyes which gave a mysterious feel about you. Gin Ichimaru, a mystery no one has ever solved. A mystery I fell head over heels for. It wasn't till we got assigned a project together that I finally talked to him, he was smart and funny. I fell harder for him.

We were at his house when we had our first kiss. It was intense and fiery, something I'd never forget, which got me where I am. After we got a good grade, he asked me out, and I happily agreed. We dated through out high school and soon, we were off for college. I had gotten an apartment and he moved in.

I was happy he was with me, I really was. But, it didn't last. We were both out of school now and it just went down hill. Gin moved out to be closer to his job but promised to be back. I believed him, which was a mistake.

I only get to see Gin after the sun has set. I don't look at him, but once his hands are on me and his lips dances across my neck, I find myself in the bedroom under him as he slowly breaks me. It breaks me more because I am actually happy, but once I wake up, the bed is cold and he is gone. Not even a note to say where he went. It breaks me every time.

I didn't really notice this in high school, but, Gin was always disappearing with no word as to where he goes. I was just a hormonal teen back then, all I cared about was finding someone. Now that I'm an adult, I am starting to see his habits. It's a painful cycle that I must live with everyday. Though, I was the one to sign up for it.

It kills me everyday. He's with me during the night, but once the dawn arrives, he's gone. And yet, I just can't walk away. I have thought about leaving him, but, every time I do, all I can think about is our kiss and the love he showed me. These thoughts keep me here, keeps me trapped here in this painful cycle.

I don't know if Gin realizes how much it hurts when he leaves, does he even care? If he did know, why would he care? After all, all he has to do is put his hands on me and I'm under his spell. And through it all, I still love him all the same. I can't walk away.

A/N: A short fic I wanted to write, hope it was good. This was my first time writing a hurt/comfort fic. I got the idea from Rangiku when she talks about Gin's bad habit. I hope you liked it. Plz review for it shows love.