She pisses me off to no end. It amazes me, really. I never thought someone could ever make me so mad and test my patience the way she does. Shima's always telling me that I barely have any patience to begin with. "You're such a foul woman," I had told Izumo. "People will avoid you if you keep it up." It was true but somehow, people still try to be friends with her, even Shiemi. Maybe, they're seeing something I'm not.

Yet, I can't help but look at her sometimes and see a real side to her, a side that is lovely and sweet. I usually only see it when we're in class and she's spacing out. I'll look at her and catch her smiling to herself, at something she's thinking about. She must be a lonely girl...

I wonder if she and Paku are still close friends. I know Renzo and she are buddies, but Paku never mentions Izumo anymore. It's her fault that she is so lonely. If she didn't shut people out the way she does and be so mean to everyone, surely she would have more friends. Rather than act like a doberman, she should try acting more like a shepherd. She's always on the defense, never just being okay with people and chill.

She thinks I don't notice but there are times when she will look over at me and smile. It makes me wonder how she truly feels about me. One moment she hates me, the next she's trying to be civil with me, and it makes me wonder how she really feels. She's saved my life a few times, not to mention rubbed it in my face and called me a gorilla one more than occasion but if she hated me so much, how would she bother?

I came to the conclusion that she and I are two completely different souls, polar opposites. I can't help but wonder though, what is she like when she lets her guard down? I'd be willing to bet she's an emotional wreck or something. Something horrible must have happened to her a long time ago for her to be the way she is now, so shut-down and mean. We all have a sad story to tell though, I suppose. In a lot of ways, we're no different from each other, she and I.

As I look at her now, I can't help but notice the way she sits. One leg over the other, but almost in a defensive manner. She twirls her pencil in her fingers, lost in her thoughts just like me. It's funny really, watching someone as they're totally in their own little world. Her hair is pushed back into a simple pony-tail today, long as it hangs down her back. She looks frail, like porcelain. Her neck is revealed and her skin is pale but beautiful. She really is good looking and it's a shame that she doesn't show more skin. She certainly can if she wanted to and without shame. She reached up and rubbed her neck, obviously sore. It makes my breath catch when she does that. It's so sexy the way she moves.

"Bon," someone called my name and I was hurled from my thoughts into the here- and-now. "Hmmm?" I said, looking away from Izumo. Yukio Okumura gave me an odd look and shook his head. "You okay back there?" he asked, smirking a little. I suddenly got the horrible idea that perhaps he had seen me looking over at Izumo. I shook my head without hesitation. "I'm alright, sorry. I didn't sleep well last night." Rin, Shiemi, and Renzo all gave me worried looks. Konekomaru nudged my arm and looked up at me. "Lack of sleep? Sure... Quit looking over at her and pay attention." He chuckled and looked away from me before I could get a chance to glare at him.

I shook my head to myself and went back to listening to Okumura-kun teach his lesson. "So who's heard of demon crampers?" he asked, continuing.