This Love Sirius Song Fic

Summary: A series of flashback Sirius is having about a girl her met at school.

I was so high I did not recognize

The fire burning in her eyes

The chaos that controlled my mind

Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane

Never to return again

But always in my heart

I remember the way her hair fluttered in front of her eyes when she was looking into my eyes. Something under her lids screamed danger, but I couldn't help it. She had me. I remember rushing forward to kiss her lips. Oh her lips. Beautiful light pink, always inviting me. Suddenly she was pushing me away. I'm sure my mouth was hanging wide open. She smiled her devilish smile and pulled me down by my shirt collar. Then she worked her way to my ear and whispered "Goodbye." All at once I saw her walking away. It was so easy for her. I should have known it was trouble.

This love has taken its toll on me

She said Goodbye too many times before

And her heart is breaking in front of me

I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

Every time we parted it was the same. Nothing phased her the way it did me. This girl had control of me. I remember once trying to be the one would leave first. As I walked away I made the mistake of looking back. Her eyes were clouded with tears and I had to rush back to her. I knew I wasn't going to be the one to say goodbye. I didn't want to hurt her, though she did want to hurt me.

I tried my best to feed her appetite

Keep her coming every night

So hard to keep her satisfied

Kept playing love like it was just a game

Pretending to feel the same

Then turn around and leave again

Her every command was carried out. She wanted everything and nothing at the same time and I was to give it to her. The perfect balance of teasing and romance appealed to her although I could never get it quite right. She was never serious. "I love you" was a wonderful joke with her. She would laugh her melodious laugh leaving me startled and confused each time. Then she would walk away.

This love has taken its toll on me

She said Goodbye too many times before

And her heart is breaking in front of me

I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I was in love with her and her unsteady heart would not decide. Or she would not let it. Sometimes I thought she was about to slip. To show me something she really felt. Every time she would just leave and I was addicted. All I could do was watch her walk away and hope she would be coming back again.

I'll fix these broken things

Repair your broken wings

And make sure everything's alright

My pressure on her hips

Sinking my fingertips

Into every inch of you

Cause I know that's what you want me to do

Some times she would seem to be hiding something. She was almost sorrowful. I never had a chance to find out why, but I always tried to fix it. I would hold her like I would never let go even though I knew she was to leave soon. Just like always.

This love has taken its toll on me

She said Goodbye too many times before

And her heart is breaking in front of me

I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

And now I still think about her. After school ended she disappeared. My owls have never been returned. I hope that she read them. I imagine she would laugh richly at the romance of them. Maybe after she was done she would let them flutter into the trash and walk away. That seemed to be the only thing she knew how to do. Just leave. I wish I could leave her, but even so much later and I still with her.