It's been a while since he saw her: white dress, curly hair, tiara on top of her head, running along side with Chuck. That was the day she kept the prince hanging.. She left him hanging in the church.

He helped her plan running away even though it breaks his heart, he didn't care. But sometimes he swears he could see doubt in her eyes, but that was only his imagination right? Blair Waldorf would always choose chuck. But what kept him uneasy was her question the night before her wedding;

"Do you really like me to run away with Chuck?" She asked, eyes staring at him point blank. Waiting for his answer, pleading for the reply she wanted to hear, but at that moment he didn't knew what to stay, instead he nods and she crook a smile, sadly and faked. He knew he had done something wrong, he tried to reason out, but she made her decision, she turned her back from him and left. He knew his moment of truth happened, he should have told her how much he wanted her to run away with him, how much pain he is in whenever she's with chuck or the prince, how much he loves her with all his heart and soul.. But he didn't.. He made a big mistake.

He tried forgetting about her, moving on and stopping writing novels about her, but he failed. Wherever he goes, Blair would always catch up on him. The movies, galleries, shops and even the loft made him remember. That's when he decided he needed to leave, away from the Upper East Side, away from her memories.

He stayed at the Hamptons. Quiet with no one there. He tried to refrain knowing what is happening with his friends, but of course he couldn't fully stay away.

"Hey, you are doing great?" Nate asked.

"Yeah. Still a lot of unpacking to do, But I'm great, done a lot of writing though" Dan replied, staring at his laptop and his newest novel.

"Good... That's good..." Nate stopped talking, Dan knows something's wrong.

"What's up? Something bothering you?" Dan asked, he knew he shouldn't have, he knew he'll regret asking.

"Chuck is back.." Nate replied. Confusion in his tone.

"Don't continue" Dan pleaded, he didn't need another Blair waldorf rant, he tried forgetting about her.. At least he tried.

"But..." Nate tried to reason but Dan interrupted.

"Please... I don't care anymore" he replied. Silenced happen and they both say their goodbyes. He wanted to know how the couple was, but he couldn't take the pain. He tried moving on, even though he failed, he's still trying.

Days passed, he longs for his best friend, the brunette he used to hate. Months came along and still he shut himself from the world. Sometimes he would open his phone, waiting for save messages from Blair, but there's none. He would always wonder why she never tried to reach him, she never knew how he felt, and still there's no sign of her. Sometimes he felt good about her absence, but sometimes he misses her like crazy and wanted to dial her phone but he would stop himself.

Five months, five whole months away from Blair and he never felt happy in a second. He still misses her, but he could contain them now. He tried dating again, blondes, red heads, but not brunette, they would always remind him of her. He would go on casual dates, hang around with different girls, but he tried not to get attached. He's still not ready.

His newest novel "The Stranger" is all about Clay, a wealthy new Yorker who fell in love with Harriett, a beautiful brunette brooklynite. Even though he tried not to, he still resulted in writing about his love for Blair. It's not yet done, but soon he will be. He hopes.

For five months he turned his phone off, his email unopened. He left the Hamptons and transferred to Newport. He wanted to run away from everyone most especially Blair.

Today is Blair's birthday, he wanted to greet her, and there he is with his phone turned on, trying endlessly to reach her number but time and time it cannot be reached. She may have changed her number, and so he felt relieved. He had an excuse once she rants about it. He kept his phone on.

That night he thinks about her, their times together and he can't help but smile. He always knew she could make him happy.

Dan was awakened, his phone rang, he cursed himself for forgetting to turn it off. He look at the caller but it's only a number, he answered.

Silence at the end of the other line, he knew who it is, he always knew it when it comes to her;

"Blair?" He asked, waiting and hoping it was her.

Still no answer, a loud sigh came out after a minute followed by her voice

"Why did you let me run away with Chuck?" She asked voice shivering, full of confusion, full of sadness. He knows something is wrong.

"Hey.. What's wrong? Chuck hurt you?" He asked.

"Why did you let me? Why didn't you stop me?" She asked again ignoring his questions. He didn't know what to say, he still didn't know the right answer.

"Because that would make you happy." He answered with the knowledge he believed for so long. And with that the call ended, she hung up.

The next morning, he have to look at his phone to make sure he had received that call from her last night, he's confused, what's wrong with her. That tone of voice is different from the Blair waldorf he used to know. He swore he would never go back that lane again, her knight and shining armor, but he couldn't stay away; he stood up from his bed, dialed Nate's number and waited.

"Hey what's up? Long time bro" Nate greeted.

"Hey still the same" Dan replied unable to make the question he wanted to ask.

"This is not a call of greetings right?" Nate asked, oh damn that man, he always know something.

"Well I need to know how was chuck and Blair doing?" Dan blurted out. Eager and scared of the answer

"I thought you don't care anymore" Nate curiously asked.

"I thought so too..." Dan sighed; he knew he couldn't run away this time. He's in for another full round.

"I told you Chuck came back Five months ago" Nate answered.

"Yes, so how are they?" Dan asked again,

"I never told you that Blair did.. Because she didn't". Nate revealed. Dan confused with the confession. Why did that happen?

"What? How? Why?" Dan asked, his mind full of questions, his head spinning at the fact Blair didn't completely run away with Chuck. All his moping for months has no reason.

"I asked Chuck and he said, as they reached the airport so San Paolo, Blair backed out, said she wanted to do that alone." Nate answered again,

"Do what?" Dan still unsure he was hearing everything right.

"Running away" Nate answered yet again, Dan was again about to ask but Nate continued " and also she told him he doesn't have her heart anymore, that she realized it belongs to somebody else"

With those last words, Dan knew what is happening, for months he thought he hadn't stood a chance, he's not even sure he was the person she's talking about, but he will surely find out. He will find her, no matter what; he will look for her like he's catching his destiny.