Distant Desire
I'm standing in the mirror
I thought I was alone
I feel your presence close to me
And I know I can't escape you
Your eyes are so cold
Hardened with anger
You're so very distant
Consumed by obsession
Power unrivaled
To be second to no one
Power never-ending
It's all you desire
But some one surpasses you every time
You reach a new level
And he achieves more
He smashes your fragile pride
Are you blind
To the world around you?
Don't you see me
Standing beside you?
I'm the one
Who heals your wounds
I'm the one
Who will never leave you
I'm the fool in love with you
If your life would ever come to an end
I'd be perpetually saddened
I wouldn't be able to live on
But you'll never hear these words
I keep them buried deep inside myself
I watch as you go by
I don't want to distract you
Don't you get lonely
As you lock yourself away to train?
Are you ever saddened
Or are you truly frozen inside?
I cried in front of you once
You were fatally wounded
I was afraid I'd lose you
I couldn't hide my tears while I healed you
You told me you hate when people cry
Your eyes were so cold
I'll never forget
You turned your back as I wept
I swore never again
Would I shed my tears in your presence
If you're going to keep me with you
I can't go on being so weak
I want you to stay with me
Won't you keep me near you?
You can use me if you want to
Go ahead and tear me apart
Say hurtful things
Shatter my fragile heart
I'm nothing without you
Dying inside
Say that you love me
Lie if you must
You can even use me
As an object of lust
I'll do anything for you
Just tell me what you need
I'll be anything for you
Name it and I'll become
My memories are long forgotten
But I know for sure
I never needed anyone this way
Each day I need you more
But I can never tell you
I know you'll never care
I'm shedding my tears again
Knowing it does me no good
My bedroom door opens
You're standing there staring
I'm running to you
I've lost the ability to think
I throw my arms around you
And weep into your chest
You react in a way
I would never expect
You put your arms around me
You're not yelling, you say nothing
I look up at your face
To my surprise you're not glaring
"My Lord and Prince-"
I begin but I'm silenced
You guide me to a kiss
You're unusually gentle
This is so unlike you
You're never like this
I'm confused when I should be happy
Isn't this what I wanted?
I'm questioning this reality
Thinking it can't be real
My head is spinning
And suddenly I feel sick
I've been here with you so many times
But I always woke up later
So I can't help but wonder
Is this just another dream?
Lacuna Lily: So what do you think, is it all just a dream? Could Vegeta ever love Hotaru? I personally love them as a pairing but then again I am the reigning queen of mismatches-matches (like L'Arachel and Innes). I suppose I'd better explain the story here: Hotaru, as you've figured out, has lost her memories and ends up living with Bulma and Vegeta. I can't really tell you too many details, however, because I plan to do a multi-chapter affair with this storyline included. In it will probably be both VegetaHotaru and TristaPiccolo pairings and maybe more...
Until then I leave you with this preview of sorts. I hope you liked this poem, I'm sorry it took me so long to post it (I actually wrote it about a month ago). You know the deal: r&r please! Please give me some feedback, I'm practically begging you! I'll stop acting so pathetic now and leave you with this that has nothing to do with anything really: Ace Young is super HOT! (even though I want Chris to win American Idol). Sorry, had to get that off my chest. Aishiteru!
