I Don't Need Saving
STRONG COFFEE
The day just finished. It's about 8 o'clock and all Lisbon wants is a good, strong coffee before she goes to bed. She can't wait to arrive home and get a good rest. She has a terrible headache, probably Jane's fault; he drives her nuts and messes with her brain all day, every day.
The elevator doors are about to close, but a soft hand interpose them and hops in. Lisbon sighs tiredly when she sees Jane; she really wants to be alone...
"Hey! What's with the bad mood?" Jane asks while the elevator goes down.
"I'm just a little bit tired. I can't remember the last night when I slept well. But nothing serious," Lisbon replies.
The elevator doors open and they walk quietly to the parking lot. Jane says goodbye to Lisbon but she does not reply. The headache is increasing fiercely. She is trying to find her car but her view is fuzzy, she can hear the loud poundings of her heart and she can't move her legs; they're not responding to her brain's orders. She tries to walk but everything is turning black.
"Ja, Jane?" She asks, she needs help.
"I'm right here," Jane answers, not knowing Lisbon can't see where he is.
She can't even talk now, all she can feel is her cold body falling back into the hard floor. But before she hits the ground, two warm hands pick her up from the shoulders.
"Whoaaaa watch out there!" Jane shouts at the same time he runs to hold Lisbon.
But Lisbon does not reply, not a single sound.
She can feel her body again, but where is she? Different voices and different sounds of things she cannot distinguish buzz all around her ears. She is too tired and too confused to open her eyes so she pretends she is sleeping instead of receiving thousands of questions of what happened to her, she knows the procedure.
Lisbon quietly hears everything that happens around her. She is in the hospital and the doctor just came to check her... But she can hear more steps behind the doctor, soft and elegant steps. She knows them, it's Van pelt. She's sweet by coming to visit her, but why? Lisbon always treats her like dirt, she doesn't know why. Grace is a good girl and a good friend; maybe she is a little envious of her.
"Jane, Rigsby told me to try to convince you to go home and get some rest. You haven't slept or eaten in about two days… Don't worry; I will take care of her now. Nothing will happen, I promise," Van pelt says in her lovely voice.
What?! Jane has been waiting for her to wake up all this time? Two days!? How much has she been sleeping? And why didn't he go home?
She feels how the doctor checks her, her pulse, her fever, and her ankle; she might have broken it, it really hurts.
"Is she your girlfriend?" A smooth voice asks; it's probably the doctor.
No one answers… Why is he taking so long? As far as Lisbon knows she is not his girlfriend.
"She is a good friend of mine," Jane finally answers.
"Ahh that's a shame, you look nice as a couple… Go home man, you look tired. Take a rest and come back in the afternoon. I think she will be awake by then," the doctor replies between laughs.
These words were a pain in the ass. Why didn't Jane answer the doctor's question? And she didn't want him to leave. She was calm and relaxed with his presence; she slept well, that hadn't happened in a long time. She was thinking about this when two soft, hot lips touch her cheek.
"Bye Lisbon, see you this afternoon, I miss you," he whispers in her ear.
Lisbon can hear Jane's steps disappearing through the hospital corridor; her pulse is increasing, but why? It was only a goodbye kiss, she received one every day, why is she now reacting like this?
"You can open your eyes now, I know you're awake. You can't fool us," the doctor says as Van Pelt laughs.
GOLDEN CURLS UNDER A LIQUID RED BLANKET
Lisbon opens her eyes. Van Pelt was sitting in front of her with a huge smile on her face.
"Hi Boss," she says happily. She probably knew what was passing through Lisbon's mind, but she knew her well enough to know it's better not to ask.
"Excuse me ma'am, I'm Robert Elgart, your doctor. You've got a broken ankle and your partner told me you were suffering with a headache. It's probably because of stress, so we will keep you here 1 night more in order for you to recover from it and then you can go back to work. Is this alright with you?" Robert asks.
"Ummmm, yes... I guess," Lisbon is too confused to answer; she's still thinking about what happened a minute ago and how her heart reacted to it.
"Ok then. If you excuse me I need to go to check my other patients, call me if you need anything," he says and goes out of the room.
"Boss, I suppose you're hungry. I didn't know what to bring you but Jane told me to buy you a Cesar salad, a coffee, and a bunch of strawberries," she says at the same time she serves them on a tray.
How was it possible she knew her so well, it's just perfect. She eats it all, and the amount of food was perfect too, it wasn't too much or too little.
It's about 7 o'clock now; Van Pelt is sleeping on the sofa. Where is Jane? Why is he taking so long? She doesn't know what to talk about with Van pelt. It had been 3 hours since she'd finished her lunch and the only chatting they had done was about the last case.
Lisbon's eyelids start closing softly and with every blink Jane's face came to her thoughts, finally she sleeps.
Where is she? She is running so fast but she doesn't know from what or to whom. A feeling of fear and adrenaline is all over her body. She can't stop running she wants to but she can't. All she knows is she can't stop until she gets there… Blood is all over the floor and it leads her to a dead body. She can only recognise golden curls hiding under a liquid red blanket. She starts sweating and crying profusely, her heartbeat raises to the sky and she can't approach the body, it's like something is holding her back.
She wakes up crying but fear doesn't let her open her eyes. She is confused. She can't recognise where she is. Tears are all over her face. She moves furiously trying to wake up and come to reality, she's fighting with herself when someone hops to the bed beside her, crosses his arms around her body and brings her to his chest.
"Shhh, Lisbon, shh. Everything is fine. Wake up. You're safe in here, I won't late anything happen to you," a soft, lovely voice says at the same time he plays with her hair.
She can recognise the sweet smell, and the relaxed beating of his heart. She hides her face in his chest and brings herself more onto his body. She knows where she is, she is home.
DO YOU MIND BRINGING ME A TOWEL?
The sun raises through the hospital windows. Lisbon doesn't feel Jane beside her anymore. Was it all a dream? Why had she done that? Why had Jane hopped onto her bed just to cuddle her because of a nightmare?
She slightly opens her eyes, she can see Jane sleeping on the couch, it must have been a dream. Definitely.
The door opens and Robert comes in. He glances at them with a shifty look when they both startle at his presence.
"Teresa, you're ready to go now, but you have to promise me you will take care of your sleep. This week you need to sleep for at least 10 hours every night so your head can recover perfectly. We cannot risk another incident. Can I count on you?"
"Count on me," Jane answers before Lisbon even opens her mouth.
Lisbon gives him a doubtful look, what was his plan? Jane replies her glance with a huge, shiny smile.
...
Lisbon didn't have the courage to ask him about what happened last night in all their way to the car, or what specifically was his "plan".
An awkward silence is all over the car. Jane can't stop smiling when he looks at Lisbon. He knows what is all over her mind and that she doesn't have the strength to ask him, she is too stubborn for that.
"Lisbon, is there anything you want to ask me?" Jane asks her smiling.
"No, not at all. Why? Is there anything you want to tell me?" She replies, hoping he'll say yes.
But all Jane answers is a radiant smile; the one that Lisbon loves the most, and a soft pat on her shoulder.
They arrive at Lisbon's home; her ankle still hurts so Jane helps her upstairs.
"Go and take a shower Lisbon. I will wait here watching some 'Criminal Minds' episodes. It's funny to see how they take so long to solve a case compared to us, we are much better!" He says at the same time he lay down on Lisbon's bed.
"Jane, it's about 8 o'clock shouldn't you go home?" Lisbon asks.
"I told the doctor to count on me, you're not sleeping well, and you know it... Plus it's boring to be alone in my house; we will have a nice week Lisbon!" Jane says cheerfully like a little kid.
"How do you know I'm not sleeping well? I don't need a nanny; I can take care of myself," Lisbon replies trying to prove if what happened last night was real.
"So you don't remember about last night? You where shouting my..." Jane was talking between laughs, but before he could finish the sentence Lisbon shuts the bathroom door behind her.
Lisbon takes off her clothes and jumps as fast as she can into the shower. The hot water running on her cold body makes her feel relaxed and helps her analyze her feelings and thoughts inside her head. Jane is just a friend, her best friend, he will never see her in another way and she will have to deal with it whether she likes it or not.
She stretches her arm to reach the towel, but nothing is on the hanger, she looks around trying to find something to dry with, there is nothing.
"Ummmm, Jane?" She asks trying to sound calm
"Yes Lisbon?"
"Will you mind bringing me a towel?"
"So Teresa Lisbon, my stubborn boss and partner is asking me to enter the bathroom were she is naked to give her a towel? The team will love this," he is approaching the bathroom and laughing, he's about to open the door when Lisbon stops him.
"Wait! Close your eyes please!"
"Oh, c'mon Lisbon you really think I want to see you n-naked?"
"Could you please close your eyes?"
Lisbon opens the door just a few centimetres, quickly picks the towel from Jane's hands and slams the door.
"You're welcome Lisbon," Jane says sarcastically.
Lisbon opens the door with the towel covering her body and walks to the bed to take out her pyjamas from under the pillow. A thought came to her mind.
"Jane? Where do you plan on sleeping?"
"I see you're not gonna let me sleep in your big, warm, comfortable bed so I'm guessing the couch will be a nice place."
She hands him some blankets, a featherbed and a pillow then she pushes him out of the room in order for her to get dressed.
"Ok, Jane there you are, good night," and slams the door right in his face.
LIGHTS OFF
*JANE POV*
He wakes up because of strange noises coming from Lisbon's bedroom. He stands up and walks towards it. He sees Lisbon fighting against herself, crying and sweating. She says some words which Jane tries not to put attention to.
"Ja-Jane! No! Please, don't leave me!"
These words hit Jane's heart; he never thought Lisbon really liked him, or not so much to have nightmares about him.
He stays standing in front of the bed not knowing what to do. Last night Lisbon was vulnerable and he knew she would probably forget about everything in the morning. But now was different. Lisbon is completely aware of everything. But she is his best friend and he needs to do something about it.
He sits beside her in the bed and tries to wake her up.
"Lisbon, Lisbon, come on wake up. It's ok, I'm here. Wake up," he whispers.
Lisbon slowly starts opening her green eyes; they were full of tears. Jane had never seen her this way; it kills him from the inside.
When Lisbon sees him she smiles and tries to hide her tears. Jane turns on the light and hugs her.
"It's okay Jane, I'm okay," she says, pushing him away.
"No you're not. This is why you've been so tired, you're not sleeping well. You're having nightmares... Can you talk about it?"
Jane cleans up her tears softly while Lisbon tries to explain herself.
"I, I'm in an alley... Running... When I arrive at the end I see your hair and your body covered with blood. I try to help you but I can't go forward, and- and you die Jane! You die and I can't do anything to save you!" These last words make Lisbon collapse into tears. She hides her face beneath her hands; Jane wants to support her so bad so he hugs her.
"Lisbon I want you to know, that I will never leave you alone. The day when I die will be the day when you die, are you clear? I promise."
Lisbon raises her head and Jane irrationally kisses her. Lisbon pulls herself away for some seconds to smile at Jane and then she returns the kiss.
Jane pulls her closer and tightens her to his body. He promised himself that he will never let her go away from him... Lisbon starts pulling off his t-shirt, she really wants this? Jane's heart was beating rapidly and fiercely; he hadn't felt this way since the last time he was with his wife. This feeling makes him smile. He didn't have time to think when he realised he was taking off Lisbon's pyjamas. It was done. His brain wasn't leading his actions, it was his heart. He hugs Lisbon and rolls her to the other side of the bed so he could turn the lights off, and there they stay. Against each other's bodies and in each other's love
THE BLACK SHIRT
Lisbon starts carefully opening her eyes when the alarm turns on, first day back to work, she start to stand up when she realizes a warm arm is hugging her from the back. WHAT THE F*** HAD SHE DONE!? This will bring her so much trouble.
She pick the hand and light fully take it away from her, she takes a shower and then walk to the her closet, trying not to wake up Jane.
"Good morning lover" a smooth sleepy voice says.
Lisbon turns around with a threatening look.
"NO ONE can know about this, do you understand? NO ONE!
"Oh, c´mon you are really gonna treat me like a one night stand? We both know you had fun last night. Jane stand up smiling and walk toward Lisbon, he hugs her from the back.
"I´ve always love how you see in that black shirt" he says at the same time he kisses her on the neck.
Lisbon smile and then realizes everything is wrong.
"Jane, we can't, please don't make me do this" Lisbon whisper sadly
"Teresa, I will not let you go away from me again, I'm so sorry but you will have to deal with it"
"uuugh, go take a shower, ill see you at work" she says and turns around. But before she could go, Jane grabs her from the arm and kisses her.
...
"Good morning boss, nice to have you again around here" Cho greets Her.
"Hi Cho? Any news?"
" There was a murder last nigh in the Arden fair mall, a teenage girl named Amanda Black, three bullets with a .38-caliber, no sign of sexual abuse, we were about to leave" Rigsby announced
"Poor soul...Van Pelt check her phone records, see if there is anything that can help us find the killer, Cho and Rigsby, go and talk to the security guard of the mall, see if he saw something, i will wait for Jane to go and talk with the family"
"Im on it...you seem happy boss we've missed you" Van Pelts says cheerfully
"Thanks Grace, I finally slept well" Lisbon answer blushing
"Oh yes she did!" Jane interrupted.
"There you are!, come on we have to talk with the victim´s family". Lisbon says while she picks her bag and direct to the exit.
...
...One month later...
"I'm glad we finally got the killer of that man" Van Pelt says as she eats her pizza slice
"mhmm" Rigsby respond mouthful.
Lisbon looked at her slice with a disgusting look.
"Excuse" she says and run to the bathroom.
"Is she alright?" Cho ask with his neutral voice.
"Van Pelt, why don't you go and check her?" Jane asks
Van Pelt sighs stands up and goes to the bathroom, she sees under each door until she founds Lisbon. She can hear her throwing up.
"Boss? Are you ok?"
"Yeah, I'm fine, it's just a stomach flu" she says and goes out of the toilet. She washes her hands and exit the bathroom like if Van Pelt wasn't there.
Lisbon sat down at the chair and finishes her slice of pizza normally, as if nothing happened. Jane gave her a curious and worry look, which she return with a smile. Everyone in the team stays looking at them suspicious.
"Guys, I'm gonna go home now, its getting late, Rigsby you still need the ride?" Van Pelt announced.
"Yes please, it will be wonderful" they are heading to the door when Risgby turns around.
"Cho, coming?"
Everybody heads home except for Jane and Lisbon, they are ordering and cleaning everything when Lisbon picks up the pizza box at the same time Jane hug her from the back and place his hands over hers.
"Jane, i thought we were done with this"
"Teresa, you know i will not leave you alone, and i know you love me so why dont you accept me?"
"You know as well as me its against the rules"
"I don't care about the rules Lisbon.."
Lisbon was about to answer when her stomach started to pound, she runs to the dust bean trying to hide her face as she threw up. Jane runs to her and pick up her pony tail.
"I´ll take you home, c´mon lets go"
ASSD
Lisbon is sitting in the car feeling much better when she sees herself in the mirror; green face, untidy hair, and big purple bags under her eyes. She's horrified that Jane is seeing her like this, so unprofessional.
"You know Teresa, there's no need to hide your face from me. I already saw you throwing up, there's nothing worse than that… And I don't think you look SO bad."
"Hush, I've already let you drive MY car, try not to provoke me."
"AHA! The angry Lisbon is coming out!" Jane stops the car "Come on we're home, let me come in and I can prepare you some fresh tea?"
They both go into Lisbon's house; Jane goes to the kitchen and starts preparing some fresh, sweet chamomile tea. He picks two cups and takes them to the little dining table in the living room and sits beside Lisbon. An awkward silence is present.
Before Lisbon could say a word her stomach starts hurting badly.
"Ouch, ouch, what the hell is going on with this flu?" She complains, at the same time she presses her stomach; becoming a human ball.
Jane places his hands on her shoulders.
"Lisbon I think you should see a doctor."
"Again with the doctor thing… It's getting late, you should go home Jane... I will be fine."
He picks up his jacket and walks towards the door; before Lisbon could open it he steals a kiss right on the lips.
"OH HUSH!" She says, hiding a smile. At the same time she pushes him out of the house and closes the door right in front of his face.
She goes to the bathroom and sits down on the toilet lid thinking about everything that had happened in the last month and a half, including today… She realises everything and finds the answer to her feelings and thoughts... She knew her affair with Jane wasn't right from the first moment they touched hands, but she continued kissing him like nothing happened; he has a tremendous love spell over her. The answer comes to her mind and she places her hands over her face. Tears start to fall... What the hell was she going to do? After all, he's still married.
