I Don't
Wanna Be
Like You
Disclaimer: I own nothing but what you see here. This is prompt #10 from the Pro!Scott folks over at Tumblr. Set before things with Void Stiles but Scott and Kira are getting pretty friendly with one another.
After another incident where Scott and his dad had gotten into another argument that nearly had the young Alpha shifting, the teenager had quickly left the house on foot, ignoring the calls of his dad as he left. He'd drifted aimlessly with no real destination in mind as he lost himself in his thoughts until he found himself at one of the parks the town had. Not feeling too concerned over it, he went to sit down at a table and looked on at the vacant place as his hands clenched and unclenched from the anger he was feeling. His father showing up had brought back feelings and memories he'd rather not have to deal with. But yet here he was, dealing with them. Talking with Deaton, the Sheriff, Stiles, Isaac, Lydia, Derek, Cora, the twins, or even Kira seemed like a thing to do as he hadn't wanted to burden them any. And there was no way in Hell he was going to approach Peter.
Sure, he knew that at least Stiles would be willing to listen as he always would and offer some sarcastic remark, but his best friend had enough on his plate as it is thanks to the nightmares he was losing sleep over. Nightmares that had been thought would go away with what they had done regarding Malia, but that seemed to not be the case unfortunately. The young Alpha felt a sense of hate in him and it wasn't something he liked at all. But when it came to his dad and the fact the man had walked out on him and his mom with little to no contact had hurt. Still hurt for that matter thanks to his showing up and practically ripped off the band-aid on what amounted to a festering wound that wasn't wanting to go away. Talking about his issues with Allison just seemed awkward considering they were former lovers and now friends as she also seemed to be moving on with Isaac.
Whatever was going on there he could only hope it worked out better for them then it did himself and Allison. As for Isaac, he was worried even talking about it with him would bring up unwanted memories about his own father and the last thing he wanted to do was dredge up old memories about a man who had not been kind to him. Cora he just didn't know well enough and Derek's attitude just made him think he wouldn't want to hear about his problems. The twins, like Cora just weren't go too's either since he barely knew them. Lydia had enough on her own plate thanks to her Banshee powers and his issues would probably remind her of her parents and their divorce. Stiles' dad had enough on his plate as is and while he loved Deaton for the role in his life, he didn't feel it'd be right.
Scott let out a sigh as his thoughts consumed him. "I wish he would just leave..." Muttered the boy unhappily as he looked down at the ground.
Leave so that he and his mom don't have to deal with him and his better than you attitude that he tended to have towards others. Especially where Stiles and his dad were concerned. His growing closeness and friendship with Kira was still too new and he wasn't wanting to burden her with his problems and despite himself, the thought of the Japanese teenager made him smile a little as she was certainly like a breath of fresh air. While her mother was somewhat strict like, she was warm and inviting where as her father was less strict and just as warm and inviting with a friendly easy going smile. Sure, his words sometimes embarrassed Kira but Scott could tell he never meant much in the way of harm by it. But Scott honestly loved the dynamic Kira and her family had and it made him strongly wish he had something like that. A family where his mom wasn't having to work herself to the bone to where she could hardly stand up thanks to being so damned exhausted. It made him strive harder with the goal of never wanting to be like his father. A man who walked out on his own wife and son.
A man who barely said a word to either of them for reasons only he knew. The day he became a father, he would be the man his father couldn't be and never stop at it. His children would know their father and the love he has for them. His wife would have him by her side through all that life has to send their way. They would be a family that his sperm donor of a father would look at and feel heavy regret for not being a better man. A part of Scott wanted to use his abilities to scare the man into leaving and never come back. But something like that was for someone like Peter Hale even if the idea was so damned tempting. I hate him… I don't want too but I do.
Scott wondered what all his mom thought of the situation and if whether or not she felt relieved when she had to work that allowed her to escape her ex husband for hours at a time unless he showed up for whatever reason. Looking around again at the empty park, the young Alpha let out a heavy sigh as he got up and shifted. The howl came bubbling to the surface and not willing to deny it, he let it loose. He didn't care if it disturbed anyone or not but all would know of his pain this night. The pain of a young man who's father was back after being gone for so long.
Author's Notes: I can only imagine what all Scott was really truly feeling and thinking when Rafael was back in town and this probably doesn't even come close to it. I myself have been without a dad since I was 8 or 10 when he passed away and its a damn sucky feeling too.
