Another sleepless night, longing for the embrace of one long since past. Alone I sit in my room, waiting for an absolution that will never be, a comfort that will never come. I've a pain in my heart that breaks the walls around my heart. It hurts to know he will not come back, that I will never see that half smile, that deep voice I enjoy to hear so much...

Everything about him...is gone.

I know I cannot move on, I can only go through the motions. He was...my other half, the other piece of the puzzle. What helped me flow through this world, what eased the ache. My brother, my love, my rock. For now, I kiss your memory goodnight as I go on into the morning. Seeking another moment...another distraction to pull me through the pain.

Brother dear...where ever you are...know that you are missed...