Chapter 1

A/N: This is for Evin because he peer pressured me into writing this. Also I'm on the East Coast with this Britta of a storm so I have no idea when I can next update.

"Blaine, focus baby, we need to get a gift for Tina's baby shower," Kurt called from two racks over.

"But Kurt do you see how cute this is? I can't handle it, it's so tiny!" Blaine gushed as he held up a white onesie with the words "Keep Calm I Will Sleep (Eventually)" in navy print.

"Babies are tiny, Blaine," Kurt laughed as Blaine continued to aww at every article of clothing.

"How cute would our little girl look in this?" Blaine asked excitedly as he held up a lavender dress with tiny flowers on it.

Kurt smiled at his husband. He really was adorable when he got excited about things. Kurt couldn't wait until they were ready for kids.

"That's pretty cute," Kurt agreed. "I know Tina is having a boy but I really hate how baby clothes are gendered. Why aren't there more gender neutral baby clothes? I mean babies all look the same anyway and who knows if the baby will grow up to identify with its sex." Kurt ranted.

"I know and I agree with you but Kurt, look at this tiny baseball player outfit," Blaine argued as he thrust what had to be the most adorable striped onesie at him that came with a tiny little hat.

Part of Kurt knew Blaine would be getting overly excited around so many baby clothes but it was important for them to pick out a gift together. Tina's baby shower was the following weekend and Kurt and Blaine had finally found a chunk of time for both of them to go get her gift.

"I'm so happy for Tina," Blaine murmured as he examined a pale yellow onesie with little ducks splattered all over it.

"Me too, I know she's wanted kids for forever. I can't believe she won't tell us the name she and Mike have picked out. We've been some of their best friends since high school. Tina and I were part of the original five New Directions members!" Kurt scoffed.

"She's due in a month. We'll find out soon enough," Blaine replied as he dragged himself away from the painfully adorable and addictive articles of clothing to wrap an arm around Kurt's wait and press a kiss to his cheek. Blaine knew his husband wasn't really upset but he just got so cute when he felt strongly about something.

"I love you," Kurt sighed happily as he relaxed in Blaine's embrace. "But we should decide on what to get, I think they're closing soon."

"But everything's so adorable and I just want to buy it all," Blaine pouted.

"Honey, babies grow out of clothing so quickly. He's not going to fit into whatever we get him for very long anyway," Kurt smiled as he squeezed Blaine's hip.

"Ok so should we get them different sizes so he can grow into things? I feel like a lot of people will get newborn clothes."

"That's a good point. Alright so we should a few different things in different sizes. Have you seen anything that you like so far?"

"Yeah, I think this is adorable and I'm not sure I can ever part with it, even if it's for Tina and Mike's baby," Blaine held up a bib that said "These fools put my cape on backward."

"Ok that is cutest thing I have ever seen in my entire life," Kurt laughed.

"I know right? We can't just get them clothes. Baby, can you check the registry? What practical things to do they need?" Blaine asked.

"Clothes are practical, Blaine!" Kurt exclaimed in mock offense.

"Of course they are, honey, but Mike and Tina need more than just clothes. How about some books or toys?"

"I guess. Let's go find the most politically correct book we can," Kurt joked.

Forty-five minutes later Kurt and Blaine loaded a stack of books along with five different outfits in various sizes on the conveyor belt.

"Did we go overboard?" Kurt whispered into Blaine's shoulder as Blaine handed the cashier his card.

"Maybe but this is for Mike and Tina's baby. They're the first of our group to have a baby and we're excited," Blaine laughed.

"I guess," Kurt replied as he grabbed their shopping bags and headed for the exit.

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"You're staring," Kurt observed as they both sat at the kitchen table wrapping up the gifts they just bought.

"I can't help it if my gorgeous husband looks good holding baby clothes," Blaine confessed as his chin rested in his hands.

Kurt just laughed. "What? Blaine, maybe it wasn't such a good idea to bring you around all those baby clothes. I think they're like a drug for you," he teased.

"What if we had one?" Blaine practically whispered.

"Blaine, we can't have a baby. Our lives are crazy enough as it is," Kurt dismissed.

"I know," Blaine replied quietly.

Kurt could hear the disappointment in his voice before he saw it reflected in a weak half smile. Kurt dropped the neatly wrapped box back on the table and reached across it to grasp Blaine's hand.

"Oh, honey, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you upset. We'll have one someday or ten if you want."

"I know but we keep saying that. Kurt, we've been married for nine years. If we're not ready now then I don't think we'll ever be ready."

"Sweetheart, this is a major life changing decision to make. I think we should sleep on it and talk about in a couple of days."

"Yeah, I agree. I wasn't saying that we had to decide now but I just really want us to have a family. I mean don't get me wrong, you are my family but I really want to be a daddy," Blaine smiled wistfully.

Kurt suddenly had flashes of Blaine singing to a baby cradled against his chest and his heart melted. He wanted a family too but they were still young, a baby would change everything. Kurt wasn't opposed to change but he wasn't sure that Blaine was actually acknowledging how difficult it would be to raise a child. Blaine's enthusiasm sometimes blinded him to the cons of situations.

Kurt watched Blaine flipping though one of the books they had bought and imagined him reading it to their kids and doing all the voices. He wanted a baby just as bad as Blaine did and maybe they were ready.