You know I still have nightmares of that night. The one that hurt the most and longest, the night he left, the night they all left. Over the years I have gotten over it, I have moved on and the pain has lessened to a momentary dull throb. But every now and then I still have nightmares, tonight is one of those nights apparently.

"what do you mean leaving?"

"I mean me and my family are leaving Forks Bella, you're staying here. My family have already left."

"No, no they wouldn't have done that, not without saying goodbye. Alice wouldn't have done that." Growling at her name "Alice is already long gone and on some shopping trip Bella, you were no more than a doll to her, pet to keep my family occupied in this never-ending boredom. And why should she care you were mine!"

"no your lying where's Alice!"

"gone Bella, like we were never even here to begin with. Do me a favor, for Charlie, don't do anything stupid."

God the nerve of him to ask something of me after that, after breaking my heart, crumbling it to pieces and the asking anything of me. Stupid, you know what's so stupid? Leaving me, a human in the damn forest with no way to get home. Stupid over dramatic vampire. I was stumbling over trees and rocks trying to get home yet ending up farther away when I ran into him. "well well well what do we have here, hello Bella" the French accented voice purred out. "Laurent, what are you doing out here I thought you left."

"Ahh I did, but I figured I should get back to an old acquaintance of mine." I wasn't stupid enough not to know who he was talking about "Victoria."

"yes, you see I owe Victoria a debt, and your how I'm going to pay it. Where are the Cullen's?" Lie I heard Alice's voice beg in my head. "Edwards actually on his way" lie better. "really? Cause it looked like they moved from their empty house." Why am I doing this? They left me, they don't care, they aren't going to seek revenge for my death, I was nothing but a toy. Letting out a sigh I looked up into his eyes, "let's just get this over with." They widened in surprise before he pounced, I heard my ribs crack as I'm shoved against a tree, blood spurts out from where a branch impaled me. I look up into my death as my vision blurs trying to catch my breath through blood filled lungs. Fangs glisten with venom as they inch close to my throat. And then he was gone in a blur and I hit the ground. Standing over me was a huge pitch-black wolf with the brightest of green eyes, teeth barred in a snarl. Its joined by another snow white one just as large with grey eyes. The black wolf took after Laurent at a speed I thought only vampires capable of. The white one looked at me with an emotion in his eyes that I couldn't read maybe pity, maybe guilt, it was not the look of an animal before he sank his teeth into me. The burning pain brought a shrill scream from my lips before darkness engulfed me.

I woke startled out of my nightmare by the hand shaking me and look up into those same bright green eyes of the wolf, "are you alright? You were tossing and turning while groaning." The soft and husky voice asked me, "I'm fine, just a dream." I reply rolling over and throwing an arm over my savior snuggling into her warm arms. She knows me better than anyone these days, she knows not to push it, so with that we both drifted back into a peaceful dreamless sleep until late the next morning when a pounding on the door interrupted. "go away Justin" the half asleep growl went straight to my core, "come on guys get up, we were gona run the land around here!" I chuckle lowly as Angel cusses in her native tongue accent showing itself more then usual. "perhaps we should get up babe, and you know, take a shower, I'll go first."

"I'll go with you, to conserve water and what not" was her serious reply. "ha yah I'm sure that is exactly what you're thinking about."

45 minutes and two orgasms later I was making my way down the stairs in my usual belly shirt showing off the purple diamond in my belly button, along with the paw print with half of a face of a wolf in it and the other half a leopard. there were also many vines swirling around my body much like the rest of my family. I had on a black short pencil skirt almost to my knees. I was welcomed by the sight of my pack mates getting touchy feely on the couch. "well good morning to you two as well." Startling the hand that was currently making its way up Mia's even shorter leather skirt that barely passed her ass. As well as a grey stylish sweater that Ivy's other hand was inching up. Ivy, tall, dark and every bit as dangerous as you feel looking at her. Ebony curls ending just past her shoulders in contrast to Mia's straight hair to the top of her butt. Ice blue eyes that could level a continent with her death glare, black tank top straining over large breasts and under a leather jacket, black skinny jeans ending in two-inch heeled boots. Mia was wearing three-inch heels and still only stood at 5'4". "sorry" the mumbled looking anything but with their flushed faces. Walking to the kitchen for coffee I run into Justin stuffing his face like it's a race. 6ft tall, long blonde mop of hair on his head, muscles that could rival Emmett's straining against the white sweater and jean jacket. Trimmed prickly beard on his face cut close, grey eyes that are hardly ever serious, and mouth full of food. "that, is disgusting."

"but wou wove me" he says around the food.

Angel soon came down the stairs wearing her usual leather trench coat that usually full of all kinds of weapons over a black corset that fit snug over her large breast. Leather pants hugging her long legs and biker boots. Dark glasses covering her eyes that can no longer pass for human. Black straight hair ending in red tips at her lower back. "alright let's go."

Once we were out of the house and into the trees we shifted, taking our clothes with us. Maybe I should explain what we are, were Shadow Weres. We can shift into far more than just the wolves, into any animal really all we need is to absorb their shadow. Though of course we are much larger then them. Running through the trees as snow began to land we stopped momentarily to take in the sight of one of Alaska's many lakes. It wasn't long before the sickly sweet scent hit our noses. We caught up to the lone figure as quickly as she took off running. Once we hit the clearing she stopped and turned to face us did we realize she was no longer alone, she was joined by seven other vampires and my nightmare returned as I looked into the snarling faces that I thought I would never see again. I froze and skimmed over them all, stopping on the smirking fucker himself, I couldn't help but let out a growl as I launched myself at him. "Bella NO!" went through our mid link but I ignored it as I closed my jaws on his arm relishing in the pained scream that left his mouth before I was backhanded into a tree. Looking up through blurry eyes I see him about to charge when Angel stepped between us a vicious snarl stopping him dead in his tracks. She never attacked, never moved as my pack mates surrounded me, never said a word as she stared him down freezing him to his spot. As scary as she is when she gets like this I can't help but think how hot she is. "hold on let's be calm here, there is no need to fight." Oh Carlisle ever the peacemaker, if you only knew I would have moved on to another member of your family after your son was ash. "Tell that to the boy." Angels deep growly voice filled the air with power shocking all of them and dropping their jaws. Yes we can speak in this form, "you-you can talk?"

"Clearly"

"I'm sorry it's just I have never come across this before." I took this time to look over the rest of them, Emmett looked about ready to jump up and fight, grin firmly in place. Rosalie looked a combination of pissed off, confused and in pain. Esme looked worried while Carlisle looked curious. Jasper stood looking ready for about anything, what confused me was behind him stood another woman with fiery red hair clinging to his arm. Looking over to Alice I'm shocked to see darker than usual circles under her dull eyes, there was no life in them like I had gotten use to, no happy bubbly girl. No she stood here looking as broken as ever. As if she could feel my eyes on her she flicked her gaze to mine and I froze. My heart skipped a beat looking into her haunted eyes, and I wanted to do anything, everything to fix it, to bring her back to her hyper self, to give her the world. I heard the whimper next to me and broke away from her searching eyes to the pained green ones staring at me with such heartbreak. Flattening my ears to my head and tail between my legs I look up to her. My apology however was interrupted by Edwards enraged snarl "one of the damn mutts imprinted on Alice!"

"what" and "what's that" chorused through the clearing as I continued to look at the woman I have been with for the past 53 years. "how do you know son?"

"because Jasper felt it!"

"you don't know that's what it was Edward." Angel took a deep breath and let it out with a sigh, eyes closed she turned back toward them, "may I ask if your pack mate imprinted on Alice?"

"what's imprint mean?" the small voice of my mate-no shes not my mate! "Aye. It would appear so." Was her unusually subdued voice. "then perhaps we should all go inside and discuss this, maybe explain some things. If you feel comfortable that is."

"what are you talking about Carlisle we should be eliminating them!" As if you could. I was about to snarl at him when Alice beat me to it, she even seemed to shock herself with it. "and that is why we aren't. Do you feel comfortable enough changing back?"

"Aye I doubt you could do much damage to me either way." He seemed to ignore that comment as Emmett snorted and Edward glared. "should you go grab some clothes and meet us back here?"

She didn't bother answering as she slowly took her human form again completely clothed. "that won't be necessary."

"Your-you're a girl." I watched as Angel turned her blank stare down to her chest at Emmett's comment "well all be damned, it would appear so." She replied seriously. "woman aren't supposed to shift." Edwards arrogant voice filled my ears. "perhaps in species you have come across in you some 100 years but clearly in mine it is quite possible boy." Which just caused him to sneer at her and me growl. "Enough son lets go inside and talk about this."

"Why that animal attacked me!"

"you can hardly blame them for it!" she snarled back at him losing her cool for a second before taking a deep breath. "Shift." She ordered. First Mia went from her dark grey wolf onto two legs before Ivy almost as dark as Angel's wolf but not quite, and I swear I saw them tense at the thousands of little scars barely noticeable on her skin that was showing. Justin then changed back from his white wolf and I was right, he could definitely rival Emmett who was sizing him up with a grin.

As I felt the magic encase me, bringing me back to two legs I wondered if they would recognize me. it had been over 70 years. My hair was shades darker now a dark brown with white highlights curling to my lower back. My eyes were no longer brown but a violet and I'm taller standing at 5'10" without heels, I'm way more toned and my skin has darkened to a nice copper tan. Then there's the tattoos I'm practically covered in, we all are. Standing on two legs with my teeth still barred a snarl on my lips as I took in the family that left me to die. They all took me in yet none of them put it together. "perhaps we should take this inside." We followed without a work. Once we were all seated in the large open living room much like the one they had in Forks did he speak again. "we should start with introductions, my name Is Carlisle Cullen this is my wife Esme."

"hello" she added with the motherly smile I use to love. Angel being raised the way she was offered a polite nod and hello. Though you could see she wasn't happy about it. "these are our adopted children, Emmet and his mate Rosalie, Jasper and his mate Tamara" my head shot up and toward Alice who didn't even seem to be paying attention as she looked at me with confusion, but still broken. And now I know why. Unaware that Angel had frozen he continued "and this is Edward and Alice." Edward still had a glare on his face as he clutched his arm. Fucker. I looked toward our Alpha as she began her shaky introductions.

"my name is Angel, I am Nimira, or Alpha of this pack. This is my second Ivy and her mate Mia, Justin and Izz." I silently thanked her for not saying my full name. "it's a pleasure to meet you all." Esme replies as Carlisle nods his head in agreement. "we should probably discuss the imprint then."