Chapter 1
Although Eclare doesn't exactly exist in Degrassi anymore I still love them, even thoughe I ship Eli and Imogen being together. This is an Eclare story. Some characters are OOC. All characters are in the same grade and there is no uniforms in school. I'll explain more of the background of the story as it goes on so you won't be confused.
This chapter is Eli's POV. I'm debating whether or not to put Clare's POV, but if you do let me know. Enjoy!
I don't own Degrassi.
"I'm pregnant, Eli"
Those three words, such life-altering words. They were the last words that Clare Edwards last told me, a week ago before school was about to go on winter vacation. She didn't come to school for a week, so she could get her head straight and wrap her head around the news.
Clare, she's been one of my best friends since the 6th grade. She's funny, kind, smart, and best of all beautiful. I met her when it was her first day at our middle school. She was so shy. I introduced her to her now-best friend, Fiona. They hit it off right away.
The night she got pregnant was the night of the biggest football game of the season. Our school, Degrassi, won that night, 36-8. Clare was never one for football games at our school. She went to support me, playing on the field and Fiona, who is the head cheerleader.
After the game, everyone went to my friend, Drew's house for a victory celebration party. Clare had gone by force from Fiona-who had ditched her to go hang out with her boyfriend. She was by herself, standing around. I was looking all over for her. I wanted any chance to hang out with her. When I found her I noticed my ex-girlfriend, Julia Chambers and her friend, Alli Bandahari trying to give her a hard time. Right then and there I took her away from them and the party.
Julia had always given Clare a hard time ever since I had introduced them to each other. Julia had always thought Clare was first on my mind back when Julia and I were dating, freshman and sophomore year. Clare is always an easy target for Julia because Clare was never one to fight back when someone attacked her. Alli on the other hand, never had an excuse she just followed along with what Julia did and said.
When Clare and I left the party we had gone back to my house. We stayed up late watching any movie that she liked. Eventually we had gotten bored and went outside where Clare had managed to get me to play her a song on my guitar. I'm always comfortable playing for Clare because she's the only person I know who wouldn't judge me for playing it. I remember her blue eyes sparkling in the moonlight with admiration that I was playing for her. The one thing I didn't remember was who kissed whom first. Just with a simple kiss it soon escalated into something more that the both of us never planned for.
I knew Clare was a virgin and I knew that Clare and I wanted it to happen. I was gentle and careful to make sure that she wouldn't regret what we were doing and were going to do. She was scared at that moment that would change her from pure to not anymore. I wasn't even a virgin that night and I was nervous.
I held her and kissed her the entire time, trying to get as much of her as I could, because I knew that this probably would never happen again. I felt so emotionally attached to her in the moment when I had broke past her barrier and she cried out. Once it was over and she was coming down from her high, we laid there in our bare tangled limbs. She fell asleep soon after when I was stroking her hair.
She was tired, I didn't blame her, after all it was her first time.
When morning had come, I woke up to see Clare still laying next to me with my arem draped around her bare waist. It was right there that I knew I liked Clare more than what she was to me. I gathered her clothes after getting dressed myself and went downstairs to wait for Clare.
When she finally came downstairs, fully-clothed, she was flustered. Clare admitted to being okay with what happened, but I couldn't help but notice the sense of awkwardness that the night brought along with us. She went home before my parents came home. She wanted to stay as friends. I would never admit this to anyone, but I always had this little crush on Clare since the day we met. I was a little disppionted when she had declined my offer to take her out to breakfast.
That night had become a distant memory to both of us, after that morning. We had gone back to our regular friendship, but with a price. It was a tad bit of awkwardness between us.
That is until now.
When Clare had told me that she was pregnant, I remember seeing Clare pale, sick, and just…scared. She called mae and asked me to meet her at the park we used to always go to after school in 7th grade. She was wearing a loose fit shirt and jeans with a light sweater, but to me she still looked pretty. I was happy to see her because I hadn't seen her in so long, but she was hesitant to see me.
I had asked why she didn't come to school and Clare told me that something had happened. At first I thought it was her mom making her upset. Clare and her mom had always had an estranged relationship. To me and to everyone else it had seemed that Clare's mom only looked after herself. Clare had told me about how her mom had her when she was 18 and her given up everything just so Clare's dad and her could have her. Her mom had an entire Yale scholarship. Eventually Clare's parents had gotten married, but later divorced because of Clare's mom constant "What if I had never done this..?"
Deep down Clare knew why her parents had only gotten married because she was born. Once Clare's dad moved out, her mom had become even more resentful towards Clare. Always pushing her away and putting her down. I remember seeing and holding Clare many times because of arguments with her mom.
Now it wasn't her mom that was making Clare distant it was the fact that she was pregnant. I didn't believe it at first, after all I had used protection, but girls just always know. She told me that she had just come from the doctor's and they confirmed that she was 14 weeks along.
I told her she should've told me sooner so I could've gone with her, but she didn't want me to. She didn't want to stress me out about it because she wanted to go at this alone. Clare wanted me to live life and be with other girls while she was going to be busy being pregnant by herself.
"I'm sorry, Eli," she says to me before leaving me speechless. I know Clare is against having abortions so whether or not she likes it she was going have a baby.
With or without me.
~~Review if you want me to continue and if you want me to post up Clare's POV of the story.
