"whats wrong, Tessa?" He looked deeply into her dull, gray eyes although she was studiously ignoring his.
"Nothing, why do you ask?" It was a challenge, not a question. Tessa clentched her teeth. She raised her eyes to his just in time to catch him dropping a raised eyebrow, obviously he didn't believe her; probably because he had seen the look her face earlier that day. At the mention of Will. He let out an exasperated sigh.
"obviously your not fine, tessa. i saw th-"
"Honestly, Gabriel. If you go on like this, someone might be fooled into thinking that you care." he looked as if she had slapped him. Obviously he did care. She'd known that ofcourse, but she needed to get him of her back. She would not cave. Not now, and not infront of him of all people.
"Tessa, i didn't mean to offend you. It's just-" he looked down at his shoes awkwardly. She wished he hadn't. She wished that he didn't care, for once she found herself wishing for the arrogant, selfish Gabriel she had once known. The one that wouldn't of given a damn about her feelings. The one she hated. He had that determined look set on his face, he was searching for words. For the one word that would fit perfectly. That would let her know that he was there, that he understood. "Will..." he finally said. The look on her face seemed to confirm his thoughts, her eyes widening in fear, her bottom lip dropping open and her whole body tensed.
All at the mention of a name, of Will's name.
"By the angel," was all Gabriel could choke out. He was not seeing her for the girl that was in love with Jem. That was marrying Jem. He saw her raw, He saw what lay beneath, a scared little girl. She was trembling her eyes filling with tears. Suddenly everything clicked.
Tessa turned to run towards the door, but Gabriel was faster. He stood, his back against the door, forcing her to confront him. "Im not letting you go." his lips set into a thin line. Gabriel was only half aware of a dim thud on the otherside of the door that he decided to dismiss the thought and focas back on Tessa. "not untill you tell me." he paused, "Everything, Tessa." was all he managed.
Tessa drew in a quick breath. She was crying, she had broken. And To Tessa's dismay, she told him everything.
"And Will?" Gabriel chimed in, "what did you say when he told you he loved you?" Tessa clentched her teeth.
"I didn't" was all she said. Gabriel looked shocked "But you do love him! I can see it on your face. Your in love with him Tessa." he went pale "And what of Jem?"
"yes, i'm in love with him."
"Then whats the problem?"
"I am marrying Jem, Gabriel not Will."
"But you do not love Jem, You love Will." she knew he was right.
"I love Jem!" She was allmost screaming now. "I'm just not in love with Jem. Im in love with his best friend!"
Gabriel looked suprised, like he had hoped he had been wrong, like he was expecting her to laugh at the thought of loving Will, after all she was engaged to Will's bestfriend. "Don't look at me like that Gabriel, I love him enough to marry him and make him happy, but i could never love Jem the way i love Will. Don't you think if Will knew any of this it would tear him apart? Will is Jems parabatai" she choked on the last word. A stream of tears fell down her cheeks, "I am a horrible person!" she managed between sobs. Gabriel searched for words of comfort, but couldn't find any. Tessa must of seen the strain in his face because she shot foward and she shoved Gabriel aside.
She opened the door with such force that the person listening on the otherside folded in and tripped, falling ontop of Tessa. The boy gave her a shocked, embaressed look. A look full of longing, and distanse. His cheeks were flushed a scarlet red. He jolted upright and took a second to scowl at Gabriel before storming out of the room, not turning to see if Tessa was being helped up.
Will. and he had heard every word.
A/N
okay so this is my first fanfiction. Please review and tell me what you think even if it's bad. I know that this chapter isn't very good and i didn't describe the room or why Gabriel was there but i was saving that for the next chapter... I did think of having Jem falling in instead of Will but i thought that it would be out of charecter for Jem to be pressed against a door listening on the other side.
Thanks for reading!
