Sailor Moon:
"The Pain of Losing Those You Care For"
BY: NeoMoon


She looks at the sky, eyes wide and hoping yet tears flow down her face. She
has looked almost constantly for the past few months hoping, praying, and crying
for their return. A long time ago she would have not believed Serena, but now,
well now she did and would. She thought back to the last days with their battle
with Nemesis, how the Sailor Scouts would not give up on saving her, how Serena
would not give up. But now, now they were all gone, and although she wished
they would she knew they wouldn't. . .

"No, No!" She screams, tears rushing from her eyes. "They're not they're alive
all of them!"

Luna rushed up the bank. The girl's cries had woken her, and she feared that
something could have happened. The girl lay on the ground, tears streaming down
her cheeks. "They'll come back, they'll be back." Luna hears her mummer. She
slows her pace, walking up to the girl softly, gently, and wishing there could
be a better way.

"Rini." Her voice choked out. "I . . . is anything wrong child." Luna knew
there was but the girl did not like people assuming her problems, so Luna always
asked first.

Rini bolted up off the ground wiping the tears from her face as she turned to
meet Luna trying a smile as best she could over the pain. "I . . .I'm fine
Luna. Why?"

Luna also tried a smile but found it useless. "Nothing child lets go back it's
getting late and you have school in the morning."

"Yes let's go Luna."


"I didn't even get to say goodbye." She says sleepily rolling over in her bed
to meet with Luna's gaze. "I was at school when they all left. Not even to
Darien." She sighs. "Luna, why did they leave?"

"It was a small asteroid, maybe only half a mile long. But there was a strange
energy coming from it. It was unlike anything Artimis or I have ever seen, and
it was spreading." Luna sighs. *This is heard for her me, but Rini needed to
know anyway*

"It was actually Serena who said they should go. 'No biggie Luna we've handled
everything!' And that was the last I heard of her before they transported.
Rini I'm so sorry I never should have let . . ."

She feels the girl's small hands moving down her back in soft, gentle, rhythmic
movement. "It's okay Luna. It's not your fault."

Luna pushes away from the small girl, backing to the door. "No Rini it is my
fault! I was their guardian and I failed in my duty, and lost the people I care
most about!" Tears were streaming down her fur filled cheeks. "It's all my
fault, all mine!" She turns and races out of the small bedroom.

Rini puts her hand out in a weak gesture to stop the black cat, and lowers it
back onto her lap. What little tears she had left streamed down her face.
"You're wrong it's my fault. I made Serena sad, that's why she wanted to
leave."

"Come on Rini it'll be fun just you me and my mom."

"Why do you want me to come! I thought this was a Mother, Daughter charity
thing."

"It kind is Rini t . . .That's why I want you to come."



"Oh I see! You find out that you're my future Mom so you try to be all nice to
me? Well, no thanks Serena! I don't even like you."

"Oh Rini you don't mean that."

"Yes I do! I HATE YOU!"

*I could see it her face she was trying not to cry, not to let me see it
affected her, but I could. *

"Al . . .All right Rini. I'm sorry to have asked."

*Then she left the next day. Serena, Darien, and the others all left, because I
hurt Serena. *

"It's all my fault."



"Yes officer. No sign yet. No, no my little girl's not like that, she'd never
run away. *Would she. * Thank you again officer." He sighs heavily as he lays
the phone on the receiver. "Still no sign of her dear." He says softly across
the room to his wife who sat at the kitchen table staring at him almost blankly.
"Mrs. Anderson, Amy's mother called earlier. There's no leads on her either."
She got up from the table and walked over to her husband putting her arms around
him, and laying her head on his chest. "I feel so sorry for her. This has all
been so hard on her, on all of us. Why



would they do this?"

"I . . .I don't know. But I know that Serena, that all the girls are
safe, and that they'll be home soon."

Tears started down her face. "I pray you're right. Oh God I hope your
right."

Not even two months ago she would have been away at some seminar, or
class. She never spent much time with Amy, but she never saw the need for it.
Amy was always so self-sufficient, and she knew that her Mother loved her. Why
else would she want to be a Doctor then?

*Maybe to get attention from you. * She said to herself. "No Amy knew she
meant the world to me." She sighed putting the pillow back on her daughters
bed, before slowly walking out of the room. * If she meant the world to you,
then why didn't you show her that she did? * She looked back into the darkened
room her face filled to the bursting point with grief. "I meant to, someday
when . . .When we would . . ." She burst into tears falling to the floor. " .
. .When we would have time . . ."

"Time is always short, and feels meaning after those we love leave us."

Mrs. Anderson turned, trying her best to clear the tears from her eyes. An old
man met her as she turned, his hand outstretched to help his smile wide and
assuring.

"Who are you?" She asks for voice quivering slightly.

"I am Master Hino. Raye's grandfather."

She takes the small man's hand and is helped from the floor. "It seems all of
our daughters have decided to vanish." She speaks in a mockingly cheerful tune,
and dreadfully failing.

"It is hard yes, but one must come to the knowledge of the reality; there gone,
and nothing we do can help bring them back. They wouldn't want to see us sad
now would they?"

She looks down into his eyes seeing that he means to be comforting to her, and
she smiles. "How do you deal with this so well?"

"I've already lost Raye's mother, my daughter, and her husband. After a time
it's not so hard."





The white streaked across the darkness that surrounded the city at this early of
an hour.

"Mina!" He screams. "Mina!"

Every night for the past two months he did this, a nightly search. He knew she,
they were out there, somewhere, and he would find Mina and the rest of them.

A sliver of light broke through the curtain of the night in the east, dawn. His
search for that night was over. * I'd better find a place to sleep. *

He made his way into an abandoned theater, and curls himself into a small snug
corner with a bunch of old props and customs. He had left just days after the
scouts did, and have been searching since making his way over much of the many
Japanese Islands. His hope was fading, and he was terrorably weak, he hadn't
eaten in day's, and it was coming to the point were he might give up the search,
but probably never return to Mina and his home. His last moments with her still
burned ever so brightly in his mind playing over and over again in his mind,
driving him.

"Oh don't worry." She said lightly. "I'm sure it won't be another killer
flower. You know you worry way too much, Atrimis"

"We should do some more scans on it."

"Lighten up will be okay."

*I couldn't make her stay, couldn't make any of them stay.*

The boat for the outer islands left early that afternoon. He needed sleep, at
least a little. As his eye's drifted shut her image played itself before him.
His whole history at her side, * Truly at its end. *

Months have past and still she keeps her nightly vigil. Looking up at the cold
blackness of space, not caring anymore of the beauty it had once captivated her
with. No, now it was just the dark empty void that had taking her Mother and
Father from her. Had taking her closest friends, those who one day she would
come to think of as older sisters. She sighs, wiping the tears from her eyes.
It surprised her that she still had tears to shed, and it hurt her to know that
they would run out.








Luna lay next to her asleep. The small black cat gave up almost a month
earlier; in fact everyone had giving up and started to move on with their lives.
But Rini knew they'd be back eventually, that they were alive out there
somewhere, because she was still here, and if they were truly died they she
would be gone too. "Yeah they'll be back someday." She whispered with a slight
smile.
She rolled onto her stomach and looked over at the sleeping cat, she stoked it
gently down the back. "Come on Luna we better get home."

Luna raised up sleepily and stretched out her body in a normal cat like
manner. She'd been letting her self go lately, acting more like a cat then the
guardian familiar that she was, and in away was probably her way of dealing, to
just forget it all. * Why can't they see? I'm still here. That means they're
alive!*

A sudden chill ran up her small frame as the walked down the small hill in
the park. She looked to the left seeing the outline for the peer were she had
first met Serena and Darien, she smiled at it. There was a flash of white light
behind her, * just the police doing there rounds.* In the past few months she'd
come to know some of the police and they would come by here to check on her see
if she was safe, she enjoyed the comfort.

"Quickly we got to get her to a hospital!" Yelled a man voice, Darien's
voice.

She stopped dead letting out a small gasp, and turning slowly. * Was . .
. Was that . . .*

"No it can't be." She heard the whisper behind her.

She raced up the hill praying to what god or gods would listen, and she stopped.
It was them, all of them. They looked as if they had just been through Hell and
then fought there way back out, and that might not have been to far from the
truth. They were kneeling around something, someone. Rini walked closer
quietly, not sure if she could believe her eye's at what she was seeing. It was
her mother, but younger, no not Neo Queen Serenity, Princess Serenity. She was
hurt badly you could see it through the painful twisting expression on her face.
Rini looked down at her torso. * Oh god no!* It looked like a bright red rose
was blooming from her abdomen. Rini stuck her arm out fruitlessly trying to get
closer, and screamed in terror, and fell back onto the ground. Her arm, her arm
was fading, and her mother was dying. She would never have existed. She raised
her hand to her face and watched fade in and out of reality.

"Oh my god, Rini." She heard Amy cry, before the whole world went black.


END?


Well that was . . . err interesting. Of course you know I will write what
happens after this, but I don't know how long that will take seeing that I'm in
the process of moving and all. Anyway please tell me what you think. You the
readers drive us the writers to our work, which makes you a very essential part
of the eternal puzzle. Also if you want to know what the scouts were up to for
the five-month stretch of time in this story, let me know. If I get enough
response to it I'll write what they were doing (The idea is already burning like
California forest fire). Well I'll I leave you all with this thought: "The
past is the present, the future is the past, and the present never was"

NeoMoon '00
Neomoon@yahoo.com
http://www.geocities.com/tokyo/pagoda/9203