Authors note: So this my first time making a persona fanfic. There will be some oc-iness in Adachi's character in this chapter because this took place years ago when he was still in the city. And fyi, this female protagonist in this story isn't the genderbent version of Yu but from the persona 3 cast, Minako. And regarding the timeline between persona 3 and 4, they are both happening in the same time here in this story so no one's older than the other aside from the canon in their perspective games (e.g Akihiko and Mitsuru). Which makes it possible for me to add twists in the story and crossovers. Sorry for the yu fangirls btw as I am removing him from the story and replace his role with the female character from the p3p instead.
Sorry for the long explanation, please enjoy~
Disclaimer: I don't own the Persona series. If I did, Minato wouldn't die and there would a femc in p4g to date adachi :((
Thursdays are for throwbacks:
"Tohru!" a voice filled with glee shouted. A girl came running towards me coming to a halt as she was right in front of me panting on her knees.
Her vermillion hair matched her ocean blue eyes whilst her pale white skin shone like the moon on the eve of the night. I could look at her the whole damn day and never tire of it. Every day was always something with her and I never felt bored.
I was too absorbed in my thoughts that I didn't realize that I was staring at her like some fool daydreaming. Well she really is a dream, a dream that I didn't want to wake from.
It wasn't too soon before she noticed that I was spacing out. "Were you waiting for me that long? And more importantly, is this a new skill of yours? Sleeping with your eyes open?" she decided to give me a hard nudge in the ribs, startling me back to reality "You look like a zombie" she laughs.
"You're still as slow as ever, I've been waiting here for an hour and to answer your question. I might be becoming one due to a thing called 'College'."
I sighed heavily as I scratched the back of my head. College is really going to drive someone's nuts. I may get good grades all the time but I'd be lying if I said that it wasn't a pain in the ass. But in a few more months we'll finally be graduating from this hell only to be promoted to another plane of hell called the real world.
"So what were you so hysterical about?" I asked.
"Look at this!" her voiced was filled with enthusiasm as she showed a piece of paper.
"What's that?" I asked in my curiosity.
"Can't you tell?" she mockingly grinned. I was tempted to tell her to stop doing that expression due looking like an absolute idiot but it would just ruin the mood.
"I wouldn't ask you if I knew, right?" I said as an attempt to humor her.
"Tch. You're no fun Tohru." She sighed in defeat "Anyway, I got accepted in the same police branch you applied for" she proudly exclaimed in her usual cheerful tone. "Doesn't that make you happy?"
"Why apply for the same branch anyway?" I'm actually really delighted to work with her but I was curious as to what was her reason.
"I promised that I wouldn't leave you, right?" she casually stated as if it was a normal thing to say. I was only able to blush in response; it felt as if my mouth had gone dry making me unable to form any words. "Hey! Why are you getting all quiet for? I'm getting embarrassed you know!" there was a visible faint tint of pink appearing on her cheeks.
"T-thanks." I mumbled and subconsciously ruffled my locks in embarrassment. Damn, what the fuck am I doing? What am I? A teenage high school girl?!
I directly looked into her eyes for answers. A hint that she was bluffing or trying to embarrass me but it showed nothing but honesty and determination.
"You better not think I'm not joking or else I'll beat your ass!" she threatened me with a glare.
Is she for real? I never thought that someone would take me seriously. I didn't want to get my hopes high really.
"I'm serious…" she looked at me with pleading eyes showing that she's eager as well.
"I know." I hesitantly patted her head which caused a gentle smile to form in her face.
I wonder if you'd stay the same or abandon me like the others have after they're done with me. The thought of you changing… is terrifying.
I'm scared.
I shook my head as I brushed off the negative thoughts away and for once, decided to trust this warm feeling that's rapidly spreading in my chest.
I was wrong.
"Adachi-san" she called out to me in a low voice which was very unusual for her and caused to worry. Her eyes weren't as bright as they used to be.
"Hey, what's wrong?" a hint of concern was noticeable in my voice. This wasn't like her; she'll usually be running towards me in joy as if she was a little kid. "And stop with the formalities, call me Tohru like always" her voice calling out my name was the sweet drug that added spice to this pathetic life that I lead.
"Let's stop this… I can't do this anymore." she muttered with her head lowered. There was desperation in her voice as if she was chained. My heart suddenly dropped as if there was a heavy anchor in my chest. Even so, my mind argued that maybe I just misunderstood her, was it work? Probably I guess.
Being the fool, I asked her "Tired from work huh? It happens." I attempted to laugh but her expression was unchanging. The feeling I had was getting worse. It is as if I was sinking from the different emotions inside of me.
"I can't be with you anymore…" her words began to echo in my mind. There was a deafening silence between us disregarding the noisy crowd. My mouth suddenly felt dry despite the fact that I was drowning in an ocean of despair as I stared into her eyes. Her eyes were filled with nothing, I attempted to speak but no words came out. I stood there, waiting for her… like I always do.
"I'm breaking the promise that I made to you… sorry."
"W-why? Was it something that I did?" I was desperate. I couldn't care less if I looked absolutely pathetic right now. I mean… I always am, right?
"N-no. You didn't do anything wrong. It's me… it's me who was wrong!" she cried. "We were ignorant that time; we made a promise knowing nothing about reality. I thought that it would be fine if we just stayed together and everything would be fine, but I was wrong. The real world, this reality… it doesn't really work that way. Bonds like we have are useless in this world. It's either you eat or to get eaten. That's the rule. You of all people should know that."
"Y-yeah… I know that very well, you didn't have to remind me. But I… I still believed in you. I trusted you while knowing that." I mumbled. Was it wrong to trust someone? I was too blinded by my emotions that I didn't realize that I was already losing myself. My family was right, I was better off alone.
"I-I just used you, Tohru." She admitted. "You were smart and had the talent, things that I can't attain or will never have. You were my golden ticket to success. I figured that if I stick with you, I'll be able to go where I wanted to. And now that I'm here, I no longer need you…"
"I-It's one of you friendly jokes, right? You're just making an excuse to get away from me." I cried in desperation. "There's no way you can do it. You're different from the others, right? You can never absolutely do it. Please tell me that I'm right! Please!"
"T-that wasn't the real me… I was deceiving you the whole time."
"Then what about our promise? Was that a lie too?" I can still remember how honest her eyes were that day. How her blue orbs showed nothing but her innocence and purity. Was it nothing but an act as well?
I was expecting an answer from her but she just shrugged it off, like what I am to her life.
"I've already made up my mind and I've decided to forget about you." she said in a casual manner. Asi if I hold no sentiment towards her. Then I suddenly remembered the time that she promised that she wouldn't leave. She said that casually as well too, right? No wonder she can also call quits so easily.
I wanted to ask what I meant to her but was interrupted by the sudden slam of the door.
"WHAT ARE YOU TWO FLIRTING HERE FOR? GO AND GET YOUR ASS BACK TO WORK YOU IDIOTS!" A fat angry lieutenant showed up with irritation written all over his face. "AND YOU!" he pointed at her, "YOU DO THE PATROL!" wasn't it his turn tonight? Lazy pig.
"B-But sir" but before she can protest, the pig turned a bad eye on her "N-Nothing sir. On my way sir!" and she took her leave.
"WHAT ARE YOU STANDING THERE FOR? GET BACK TO WORK!" The pig exclaimed making his exit as well which left me all alone.
There was nothing I could do but watch as her back slowly disappeared from my sight. I wanted to ask her so many things. Did I mean something to her? Or was I just a means to an end? Maybe the next time that we bump into each other I'll have the confidence to speak up to her.
Little did I know that tonight was the last time that I'll ever see her.
The following day I found out that she was raped and murdered by a drug addict roaming around the city while she was on patrol that night. My mind went blank. The people around me didn't give a fuck that one of their co-workers was just killed. She was right, reality was a bitch.
My eyes roamed to look for the lieutenant who was eating comfortably in his chair. I was too consumed by my anger to know what I was doing and punched the pig square in the jaw.
"IT'S YOUR FAULT! IT'S YOUR FUCKING FAULT THAT SHE'S DEAD!" I cried in desperation "IF IT WASN'T FOR YOUR LAZY ASS SHE'D STILL BE RIGHT HERE BY NOW!"
The sudden commotion I caused alerted the whole room. Two co-workers of mine held me back and I could see the look of disdain in their eyes whilst another officer helped the pig up to his feet. His nose was bleeding and his cheek was evidently bruised.
"LOOK WHAT YOU DID YOU LITTLE SHIT!" he exclaimed in anger. "WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? YOU'RE NOTHING BUT A ROOKIE! HOW DARE YOU LAY A HAND ON ME!"
You got what was coming to you. I thought to myself.
"IT WASN'T MY FAULT THAT THE BITCH GOT HERSELF KILLED. SHE WAS ON PATROL YET SHE COULDN'T EVEN DO IT PROPERLY! HOW EMBARASSING!"
He grinned like a motherfucker which infuriated me even more. It was his shift in the first place, I wanted to tell him that he was the one who should have died instead of her. I wanted to hit him again and again and again. I wanted to wipe that ugly mug off his face. But I doubt that these two idiots would let me. Also, my head was starting to get clear after the sudden outburst that I had. Great, now I'm royally fucked.
I was dragged into the commissioner's office where he confronted me and told me that I did have a point. However, they weren't going to let me off easy… especially with insubordination.
"You have the talent, but the choices you make have a consequence. I'm sure you know this by now." he started with his lecture.
Oh shit, would they take away my badge? I should remind myself next time to control my emotions and think with my head… if there is a next time.
"So instead of removing you from your service as a police officer I'm transferring you to a different town called yasoinaba, there you'll work so you'll be able to redeem yourself." Yeah because transferring me to the boonies where there is virtually no crime would help me redeem myself. Nice logic asshole.
You are scheduled for transfer in three days and in those time you are to finish any work you have left and report to your new post. That's all, dismissed."
Inaba, huh?
Two days later, I stand in front of her grave, her name carved upon the tombstone. I feel nothing, absolutely nothing and it occurred to me that it doesn't bother me at all. But I start to remember the things she told me, the promise she made and how she made me dance to her tune like a fucking idiot. How I thought that she of all people would be the one to shelter me from the storm and care for me as if I wasn't an animal but a fucking person, but in reality I was nothing more than a tool for her. A stepping stone that she used to attain her desires and when the time came that she had no need for me… I was easily swept aside.
I knelt in front of her tombstone and whispered "I hope you enjoy sucking on Satan's dick, you slut" and quietly walked away as the emptiness and loathing that I feel begin to swallow me whole.
*BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP*
An eerie sound woke me from my deep slumber. Just give me five more minutes, damn you! I tapped the alarm clock to turn the irritating sound off. Stretching my arms and letting out a long yawn I rise from my bed. Another boring day, huh?
I was suddenly lost in thought as the flashbacks I had come rushing back into my mind. Most of it all was about 'her'. But before my stupid head started to recall all of it again I mentally reprimanded myself to forget about it.
A dream, huh? More like a fucking nightmare. Probably even worse than Freddy Krueger.
It was all her damn fault that I was in this state right now, fucking bitch. I hope she's rotting in one of the nine hells or somewhere…
Yeah, that's right.
Every choice has their own consequence. That's what you get for using me. Karma got to your ass pretty fast, you fucking deserved it bitch.
-30-
Omake:
Adachi: Uhm, what's this all about?
Author: A pedo fanfic between you and Minako.
Adachi: Hey hold it right there, I'm not interested into kids. She barely even has tits.
Minako: Oh yeah? How the hell did you know? You pervert!
Adachi: As if I'll have an interest in you.
Minako: You want a fight, pervert?!
Author: Hey what are you guys doing?! Help me Dojima-san!
Author's Note: There goes adachi's past and her ex-lover. If you haven't noticed, I didn't named the girl cause I don't feel like it lol. So what do you say? I'm still having thoughts whether I would include personas and shits here or make it realistic. Anyway freely suggest your opinions or violent reactions in the review section. Lolbye.
