A/N: This is the hot off the press second in the 'Thinkin Bout You' trio. This one is dedicated to every single person who took the time to review 'Lost'. ((Blows kisses)) The world is a better place with you guys.
And extra special thanks to Toniboo who gave me the idea for a series and Reivyn for making me get off my ass and actually type!
Disclaimer: Own none of the characters.
Bold: Alec. Italics: Max. Bold and Italics: Alec and Max
Trying
Whatever I do, I can't stop thinking about him.
Even in my dreams she's there.
Pointless, this, isn't it?
But who'd've guessed?
Never thought that I would be able to get this close to her.
We're so close now, but…
Sometimes I wish I never met him.
At least if I didn't know her she can't drive me crazy.
But I can't imagine life without you always by my side.
With him I know that I'll always have a shoulder to cry on.
I know that she'll always be there for me.
I'm so pathetic.
How could I ever think that I'd always have him?
One of these days she's going to go.
Leaving me to wallow in my self-hatred for-
Not telling him how I feel…
Letting her go like the coward I am.
How can I say how much I care?
Better off not saying anything.
Keep it the same as it always has.
Not that it'll ever be the same any more.
What I would give to not feel this way…
I would do anything to make it like the way it was…
As long as we could still be friends.
I just want him to be near me.
I just want her to care at least a little.
We have gone far past caring; possibly now we care more than we used to…
Trying so hard not to blush when he's around.
Trying so hard to not kiss her.
Trying so hard not to meet his eyes.
Trying not to feel this way.
Trying not to fall…
