Disclaimer : I do not own Harry Potter.


"Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind,
And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind."
― William Shakespeare , A Midsummer Night's Dream


'It was just a bad day. Just the same as usual.'

'Yeah, Right. Who am I kidding?'

It was a horrible day for Hermione Granger.

She was angry. She was ashamed. She felt like releasing her anger on someone. She wanted to crush or break something. And she really wanted to cry.

But she couldn't. No, she didn't. Hermione Granger, a brave girl in Gryffindor wouldn't cry just because of a horrible day. But, still.

'Oh, c'mon, Hermione. Get a grip on yourself. He would laugh at you if he saw you now, wanting to cry because of one bad day. But he would understand after all, besides his days are always somewhat bad and…'

'Ugh… Why? Why do my thoughts always wander to Harry?'

'You can't let that happen'

'I know…'

'He's got his eyes on someone else'

'I know. I…'

'Ugh.' Now she really wanted to scream. 'Now I'm talking to myself.'

Well, now that our heroine had reached her limit and was about to blast let us rewind and get to know the cause for this madness.

When Hermione woke up, she thought that today would be a good day. But the dormitory was empty. Usually she was the one who woke up first, but where was everyone then? She turned to see the time and jumped up with a 'oh my god'. She was late. And the first period was Professor Snape's.

'Oh, shit.'

She quickly dressed up and ran to the classroom ignoring her stomach's grumbling. Then Professor Snape being Snape said,

"Ten points from Gryffindor for being late, Miss Granger. And another five from Gryffindor for not reminding Miss Granger the time." before she even stepped in to the class.

Then Malfoy and his friends started mocking her and did it for the rest of the period.

In the next period Ron started their usual routine by blaming her for the decrease of fifteen points. Harry tried to stop their fighting by taking Ron's side unknowingly and made Hermione angrier. So she ignored them till the lunch.

After the lunch, it was transfigurations. Harry sat right next to her, between Ron and her. Hermione found that feeling his thigh against hers, or their hands brushing against each other sometimes very nice but also distracting. Whenever he touched her (accidently, of course) she felt herself shivering and her heartbeat started racing. So needless to say Hermione couldn't pay attention and Professor McGonagall had to ask her a very easy question that time. She had to call Hermione few times, to break her out of her trance and Hermione was like 'what?'. When Hermione finally became aware of the current situation everyone was staring at her surprised, in Professor McGonagall's case angry and shocked, and her best friends' mouths were open. Lavender's and Parvati's smirks remarked that they clearly saw what was going on. Then she got detention for the first time in her life for not paying attention to a lesson.

When the period ended Hermione ran out of her classroom to disappear from this horrible situation, but destiny was against her. She tripped and fell down, her face facing the floor. Everyone around her laughed. She heard Malfoy's stupid voice saying harsh things and laughing. Even though her two best friends helped her to get up they were having a hard time with trying not to laugh. Even Harry was about to laugh.

'Ah. Please, God kill me right now.'

Then she did the best thing that she could do. She got up and walked like nothing happened. She ignored all her friends for the rest of the day. But what she couldn't get away from was Slytherins' nasty comments.

Detention with Professor McGonagall didn't go well either. She was clearly disappointed about what happened and gave her a speech for two hours. Finally when Hermione was free to go Professor McGonagall said,

"Miss Granger, I know you are sorry about this incident. And if you're wondering why I gave you detention it's because I don't want any other similar situations to take place in future. I hope you can understand what I'm saying."

Then added,

"Oh and Miss Granger, take precautions to prevent your problems regarding your love life. That shouldn't get mixed up with your studies. Right?"

Hermione's face got red just as Ronald Weasley's hair. She quickly greeted Professor McGonagall who was struggling to keep her smile off her face and ran. Then she bumped into Professor Snape. She nearly fainted and started running as fast as she could before Professor Snape could even open his mouth.

And now here she was wandering aimlessly in school halls.

So let's come back to the present.

Hermione thought why all this happened today. It gave her only one solution.

'Harry. Yes, Harry is my problem. I was late today because I couldn't sleep last night as I was thinking about him. I couldn't pay attention because of him. I got detention because of him. And now I have a new part added to my (ahem) nick name. 'Clumsy-know-it-all'. Ugh. Thanks a bunch Harry.'

Found myself at your door

Just like all those times before

I'm not sure how I got there

All roads they lead me here

I imagine you're home

In your room all alone

And you open your eyes into mine

And everything feels better

Hermione sighed and wondered where she was now. The Qudditch field.

Hermione was not sure how she always came to Harry. Her legs always brought her to him.

She looked up to the sky and saw a figure flying on a broomstick. It was getting dark; the Qudditch practices had been over hours ago. But Harry stayed after the practices and practiced by himself every day. Stupid Slytherins were against them in the next match. Malfoy said something rude about Harry's parents last week and ever since, Harry had been practicing alone so he could, like Ron said, 'beat the crap out of Malfoys'.

Harry finally saw a figure staring at him and smiled when he recognized it was Hermione. When Harry smiled at her even though it was from far Hermione saw it. It replaced her scowl with a smile. It was the first time she smiled in this horrible day.

'He can make everything right just by giving me that smile.' Hermione thought as her mind was now free from her problems. She stood there watching Harry.

If only she could reveal those thoughts to him. But she couldn't. No one knew about her feelings as she was successful with keeping this 'crush' hidden from everyone. She knew that this was not just a crush. It was something more. But it satisfied her to consider it as 'just a crush'. So, yes she always tried to act normal around him. But Lavender and Parvati knew that something was going on as they always tried to get answers for those questionable moments that Hermione acted 'not-so-herself' around Harry.

So only she, Parvati and Lavender (and Professor McGonagall) knew this. Besides others always thought that she liked Ron. Well, yes. Ronald was a good replacement.

If you can't get the Boy-who-lived always go for his side kick. Er. Best friend (sorry, Ron)

But to Hermione Ron might be a good replacement but he couldn't replace Harry.

Harry was sweet and caring and understanding and funny and brave and kind and the list went on and on. He was an invigoration for her. He always made her feel alive even in the darkest moments.

And Harry was handsome. Hermione found him charming when he smiled, when he laughed, when he was confused, when he was being kind and even when he scowled. He was very cute to her when he raked his hand over his hair, when he was about to break laws and when he was angry. Long story short Harry was hot to her anytime, anywhere. And, oh, those green eyes. Hermione always found his eyes as a nice place to get lost.

Right before your eyes

I'm breaking and fast

No reasons why

Just you and me

'But, Harry doesn't like me like that.'

This is the last time I'm asking you this

Put my name on the top of your list

This is the last time I'm asking you why

You break my heart in the blink of an eye

'Only if I can ask him to put my name on the top of his list.'

But Hermione knew this was just wishful thinking. Without a doubt Ginny was his favorite. She had seen the way Harry looked at Ginny with admiration, care and sometimes hunger. Harry never looked at her that way. Not that she didn't like the way he looked at her now. But, still she wanted to be special in his eye.

Suddenly a girlish voice that could never be Harry's brought her down to earth. Ginny was standing right next to her.

'Ah, speak of the devil'

"Hermione, hey, finally back to earth, eh?" Ginny said.

"Yes, finally, thank you." Hermione snapped. She really wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone especially not Ginny.

"Oh, anytime." Ginny laughed.

"Anyways I heard some weird news about you. Found it unbelievable though"

"Hmm"

"So is it true that you got detention for not concentra-" Ginny continued.

"Yes" Hermione cut her off.

"Seriously? No wonder it's all over the school. The smartest witch, know-it-all, not concentrating is somewhat strange, right?"

Hermione glared.

"Woah, easy, easy I was just joking. But really, what made you unable to pay attention?"

"…"

"Is it a boy, Hermione?"Ginny asked, smirking.

Hermione was about to say something when Ginny suddenly squealed.

"Harry, what's he doing up there? Practices are over"

"He practices alone." Hermione mumbled.

"Really? Oh that's why you're here. I wondered what you're doing here, spacing into the air…"

"Hmm"

Harry turned their way and saw them. Then he flew down to their way and came down to meet them.

Hermione's heart broke into pieces.

'Harry didn't come when he saw me, but he came immediately when he saw Ginny'

Hermione eyes were full of jealousy. She felt her anger rising up again. She wanted to hit Harry. She knew it was foolish to think like this. But, oh, what to do?

You find yourself at my door

Just like all those times before

You wear your best apology

But I was there to watch you leave

All those times I let you in

Just for you to go again

Disappear when you come back

Everything is better

"Hermione" Harry was staring at her with concern.

"Hermione" Harry said again putting a hand on her shoulder.

"She is really, not, okay." Ginny said. "Well then I'm going. See you two later." Ginny left with that.

Hermione watched Harry staring at Ginny, making her angrier.

Harry turned her way and immediately realized that she was angry. He thought she was angry with him because of the (hilarious) incidents that had taken place today. Well, she was angry with him but for different reasons. Harry was about to apologize but Hermione shook his hand off her shoulder and started walking away. Harry grabbed her wrist and whirled her around to meet his face.

"Look, I'm sorry, okay?" Harry started. "Really sorry for, well for, laughing at you, and for taking Ron's side earlier. I didn't realize it actually. I just said what I thought. I know you're angry, of course, I would be too. But-"

"What are you trying to say?" Hermione asked quite rudely.

"Err, I'm saying I'm sorry. And, I know I haven't been much of a friend these days. I'll make it up to you. Promise. Again, sorry"

Hermione stared at his eyes while trying to figure out what to say.

'Ignore him, Hermione, ignore him just for a while. That way it would be a lot easier to get over this stupid crush. So I'd be able to go back to being normal and it'd be like it was before, I'd be able to hang around him like a best friend would do.' Hermione started a debate in her head. 'Ignore him, and that would show him my importance too.'

But it was getting really hard to ignore him. She felt like melting under those green eyes. Harry stared at her too wanting to get an answer. But he found it hard not to blush under her strong gaze.

'Why the hell am I blushing?.' So he looked down to the ground. The silence that had taken over did not calm him. So he spoke again.

"Oh, c'mon, 'Mione, I'm sorry" Harry looked at her face again.

Hermione finally found her voice. She decided to say 'she want some space. So back off.' But when she opened her mouth, that's when it all went wrong.

"Okay Harry. Apology accepted."

When right before your eyes

I'm aching, run fast

Nowhere to hide

Just you and me

'Ugh, stupid, stupid, why did I say that? Damn it. Damn it. Damn it. Do I really want to stay heartbroken?'

Deep down she knew that she enjoyed loving Harry. Her fantasies always kept her happy.

Harry and Hermione walked silently to the common room.

"So how did the detention go? " Harry broke the silence.

"That went very well, Harry. We sang together and even danced. Professor McGonagall was a pro at dancing." Hermione replied sarcastically.

"Oh, really? So it was you who were making weird sounds? I thought Voldermort was down with a flu. I even wondered why his voice sounded so squeaky." Harry said with a smirk.

"You think I'm that bad at singing?" Hermione hit him hard.

"Ouch. No, actually"

"Why?"

"Cause, I know it."

"Oh, you-"She hit him again.

"Aww. Sorry, sorry. Seriously how did it go?"

"Very bad"

"Really"

"Hmm"

"Can I ask you something?"

"Yes, go ahead"

"Is there something wrong, Hermione? You always seem, well, not okay these days. You seem distant now. Actually, since the start of this term."

So he did notice.

This is the last time I'm asking you this

Put my name on the top of your list

This is the last time I'm asking you why

You break my heart in the blink of an eye

Then, suddenly, out of nowhere Lavender and Parvati bumped into them.

"Ah"

"Hermione, we were looking for you everywhere." Lavender said, trying t to drag Hermione away.

Hermione looked at Harry with a please-save-me look. It took him a while to understand what her face meant. So, he was too late. Hermione was being dragged away by Lavender and Parvati.

"Please, let. Me. Go. Where are we going?"

Relax, babe, relax" Lavender said.

"Oh, please." Hermione growled.

"So" Parvati said when they finished dragging Hermione. They were in an empty classroom.

'Ah, fuck' Hermione cursed under her breath.

"So…" Parvati said again.

"What?" Hermione asked.

"Hey, don't play dumb with us. First of all, did you come up with a stupid explanation to hide what really happened?" Lavender asked.

"Huh"

"For you information, we won't fall for it."

"I didn't-"

"We saw what happened."

"Really?"

"Don't try and deny it."

"Right, I-"

"You like Harry."

"…"

"So , it is true." Parvati hopped into the conversation.

"No"

"Not, no. You hesitated to answer. That means you like him." Lavender said.

"Er"

"You want to go out with him."

"Ah"

"You want to make him yours."

"Wha-"

"You wanna touch him,"

"Excuse-"

"You want to kiss him."

"Alright. Stop. I like him. True. But I don't want to do these things. Harry doesn't like me like that. He definitely doesn't want me to do these things with him. So to me these things are just dreams, just wishes. And confessing to him risks our friendship. I do not want that. No way, not now, not ever, if this means breaking our friendship."

"So what do you want, then?" Parvati asked.

"Something that won't break our friendship."

"Means what? That you will let Ginny take him."Lavender said.

"No, no, no. I don't want that either."

"Then, what?"

"Right now, what I really want is to get him to notice me. I just want to be special in his eye. I want to be the first girl in his list."Hermione said, blushing.

"Hermione, you are always special to him."

"Yeah, I know, I'm his second best friend"

"No, idiot. Not that way. Trust us he loves you more than he does to Ginny. Doesn't that means you're on the top of his list?"

"And we don't think that 'these things' are unable to achieve. You're just one step behind that. So take another step and cross the line."Parvati said.

"How do you know?"

"Hey, we always watch you."

"I'm scared to cross that line."

This is the last time

You tell me I've got it wrong

This is the last time

I say it's been you all alone

This is the last time

I let you in my door

This is the last time

I won't hurt you anymore

Conversation with Lavender and Parvati gave Hermione hope. But it also made her think rationally.

When Hermione first realized she had developed a crush on his best friend at the start of the term, it made her happy. Very happy. But now she was not sure what she felt. Sure, she was happy but sad too. And now this always made her think that this would end by she being heartbroken and she would also lose Harry's friendship.

So, Hermione decided.

'Time to move on'

This is the last time I'm asking you this

Put my name on the top of your list

This is the last time I'm asking you why

You break my heart in the blink of an eye

Hermione entered the common room. It was full. Harry was sitting with Ginny and Ron. Ignoring her jealousy she walked up to where Harry was.

Now that she was going to move on she wanted to feel satisfied. She wanted to make sure that all this time wasted loving him wasn't for nothing. She wanted to make her special in his heart and move on. Yes, she would make a move and move on.

Harry lifted his head and smiled and frowned. The look on Hermione's face made him confuse. Ron and Ginny looked up to Hermione too.

"Hey, Hermione, you okay?" Harry asked.

"Harry" Hermione said with passion. It made Harry shiver.

"You are the reason I was, well, not okay since the start of the term."

"What?"Harry got up automatically. Harry's 'what' got the attention of those others around them.

Hermione gathered up all her courage and closed the gap between them.

"You see, you are my problem" Hermione whispered before placing her lips on him.

Harry's and everyone's eyes around them went wide.

Hermione put her hands around his neck and pulled him close more, if possible.

It startled Hermione to feel Harry's lips moving against hers. She nearly fainted when his hands snaked around her waist. She deepened their kiss. She bit his lower lip and was again surprised when he opened his mouth. And they were soon caught up in a tongue battle.

And oh, it was 'wow and wow and wow'. What Hermione felt was beyond amazing. She felt her hunger rising, making her want to get on to a bed with him. Her heartbeat increased and with every beat she started forgetting all her problems. Only one thing was on her mind. To stay like this forever.

Finally she broke the kiss and looked around. Everyone in the common room except Harry and Hermione was shocked, surprised. Ron's and Ginny's faces registered shock, anger and jealousy. 'Ooh's, 'whoop's, 'oh my god's and even 'finally's could be heard. Somewhere around a corner of the common room two girlish voices celebrated this by 'yay's and 'go Hermione's.

When she again looked at Harry, she couldn't find out what his was thinking. Sure, he looked surprised, but there was more. She looked everywhere to find anger. But there wasn't a bit of anger registered in his face, in those eyes. Hermione thought that lust was gathering in his eyes. And she blamed teenage hormones for that.

Both of them were staring at each other with so much passion, admiration, lust and many, many emotions. There was one emotion that could be seen more than other emotions. Wise students around them would have sworn that it's love. But Hermione couldn't recognize this emotion that was plastered in Harry's eyes.

Noises around them increased. Hermione shook her head then again looked up to Harry and whispered "thank you" and left.

Lavender and Parvati chased after her. After a while everyone got back to normal.

But Harry was in a daze. Neither Ron nor Ginny could shake him out of it.

This is the last time I'm asking you this

Time I'm asking you this

Time I'm asking you this

Time I'm asking you this

Hermione Jean Granger is in love with Harry James Potter.

But she has to move on.

This is the last time I'm asking you this

Put my name on the top of your list

'Oh, Harry. I just want to be your favorite.'


Well, the End.

This is my first fanfiction. So, please let me feel the pleasure of being reviewed.

I usually use British English. But Microsoft Word didn't let me. It really knows how to irritate someone with that red line of dots (but I'm thankful to that too)

I'm truly sorry if there are any grammatical and spelling mistakes. Hope you can forgive me.

And if you want a continuation to this story, just tell me so. I will add some chapters and give this a happy ending.