This is my very first NCIS fic
Disclaimer: I do not own any of NCIS or its characters.
This is what I think Jenny would have written in the paper Gibbs found at her place in Judgement Day. Please let me know what you think.
A/N: Please, keep in mind English is not my first language; this is not beta'ed so every mistake is mine.
Dear Jethro:
By the time you read this letter I will be gone. I'm sorry for not having told you about my illness, but I just did not want your pity. You know I always was a strong woman, and I want to be remebered that way, strong and determined.
There are a lot of things that I regret and sometimes I wish I could just turn back time, but unfortunately, I can't. After all these years I realised that I could have been the happiest woman on earth, if I would've listened to my heart; but I did not do it. And for that I hate myself, because I made both our lives miserable.
When you were in comma, and I found out about your wife and daughter, something deep inside me wanted to punish you for having lied to me, but then I realised that I was jealous, for not having been the most important person in your life, as you were in mine.
Aside from letting you go, there is one more thing that I deeply regret, and it has to do with Paris. Do you remember about our mission? I did not do something that I should have done, and I'm afraid that it is going to come back, like a boomerang, to hunt us down, you, my love.
I feel compelled to tell you that I started my own research about Vance, I do not trust him Jethro, and I'm afraid that without me as the director of NCIS, he is going to take my place. Be careful.
As for the kids, as Abby calls themselves, they are good. You never knew, but Tony had his big chance to shine, to lead his own team, and you know what? he turned it down. You told me once that if he had the chance he was not going to waste it, remember? well, he did it, for you and for the team.
And Ziva, she not as tough as she wants everyone to think. Deep inside she's like a little girl who never had a loving father by her side when she needed him, so please, keep an eye on her . I love her as a daughter, the one I never had, she saved my life and I guess I'm never going to have the chance to thank her enough for that. I told you once, you can trust her with your life, and I'm positive that by now you already now I was telling the truth.
McGee is the smart kid, he has a good heart, but he's nothing like Tony. So please, be patient. As for Abby, well you know her better than I do.
Do not push them away, they respect you, and they love you. I'm sure they will want to help, please Jethro, let them be there for you.
Do not be angry with Ducky, he is a good friend and he only did what I asked him to.
I love you Jethro, I always have and no matter where I'm going, I always will. Forgive me for all the pain that I caused you and most important Remember me and never forget that we'll always have Paris.
Love you,
Jen
A/N2: I hope you like it. Maybe it is out of character, but that is the way I wanted it.
